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Answering in no particular order. Predictibly, my parents divorced when I was 8. Only one of my friends' parents are still married. He's also the wealthiest in my social group, I see a correlation there. Yes, picking the wrong woman is a huge fear for me. I watched mom ruin dad. and then I saw his second wife do it again. So to answer truthahnderruin, I've felt like this for awhile. I was charged up by an old episode called "masculine mastery". It's one of Stef's best, IMHO. I've been listening to the new episodes regarding masculinity multiple times and I've been noticing a sense of despair starting in late '12.

I think I've seen one too many divorces or single parents

Both in general, but after 2344 with Paul Elam specifically. All of the recent podcasts on men's rights have really hit home. My only income since graduating high school has been delivering pizzas and the military (which i wasn't in for long). I've only had one serious relationship, which devoured the last 6 years of my life. I feel an immense drive to pair off with a woman and have a child, but it's one of the most dangerous things I could consider. I'm torn apart, and at a horrible time being that I'm graduating college in May. I feel like I have a hunger, but I can't tell food from poison. I don't know what I need exactly, a pep talk, an important part of the evidence I'm missing.... Thanks for reading my ramblings I guess.