Rusty Shackleford

I just watched Stef's "Obesity as a Shield" video on YouTube. In this video, he speaks about how a caller's obesity may unconsciously be caused by his desire to avoid sexual situations and all temptation of marrying or procreating, because he wishes to avoid repeating his parents' dysfunctional marriage and his own bad childhood. This video struck a cord with me. I paused it, and immediately grabbed a notebook and pen to write down what had suddely come to mind about my own life, whether it's actually true or not. This is kinda hard for me to type, but I'd like to get it out there and get some feedback on it. Just like Stef's caller, I'm also overweight (and I'm sure obese by now). As long as I can remember, I've been aware that I am and was fat, even in third grade or earlier. I'm not sure where my knowledge of my own (presumed) girth came from, but It's always been there, from what I recall. Of course, now I look back at pictures of myself at various ages, even just a few years ago, and now think that I was crazy to be so self-conscious, because I appeared to be pretty much normal. But in the past few years (I'm in my mid-twenties now), I've put on more weight and am now heavier than I've ever been. I'm 5'6", and probably 255 lbs. As Stef related the caller's obesity to his parents' dysfunctional marriage, I can't help but wonder if confusion and insecurity about my own religious beliefs are the source of my recent extreme weight gain. I was raised in a Southern Chrisitan household. While I have come from being very conservative to being very liberty-oriented (which is why I watch Stef's videos), I don't see any substantial conflict between my faith and my belief that no men should rule over others. Just wanted to get that out of the way, as this is from what I've seen both a very atheistic and libertarian forum. But back to the point, I'm thinking that I unconsciously gain and maintain my weight as a way to avoid confronting inconsistencies or ignorance regarding Chrisitanity--namely, sexuality. Could it be that I eat unhealthy foods, all foods in excess, and avoid exercise all in an attempt to remain unattractive to women so that I don't have to decide what actions are right and wrong? I'm about to graduate from college, and haven't had a girlfriend during my entire college life, which is pretty unusual, from what I understand. From my upbringing and socialization (hearing my parents talk about others, hearing our preacher talk about sexual morality, etc.), I've been taught that sex outside of marriage is wrong, and I guess I still believe that. But I can't help to think is "first base" wrong? "Second"? "Third"? What purpose does dating or having a girlfriend serve, if any kind of physical relationship is immoral? I'm sorry for the long post, but I just realized how tangled up my thoughts are on this... Can any Christians, or anyone at all, give me some insight into this, or what I should do to find the answers?