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  1. I believe what Tim Cook stated about the horrifying privacy implications for us all should Apple cooperate... Also, didn't Trump imply that Edward Snowden should be executed...? Trumps big govt anti electronic privacy stance has been my biggest red flag.
  2. Potentially useful link http://sipseystreetirregulars.blogspot.com/2016/01/perfect-timing-for-regime-federal.html
  3. Would love to see a "The Truth About" video covering the Oregon/Militia situation!!! :thanks:
  4. Having a debate with a few people about why parents should leave the military if they plan to have kids and need some data to back my position up. Any help is appreciated! Thank You! Found these so far: http://www.washington.edu/news/2011/07/21/adolescent-boys-among-those-most-affected-by-washington-state-parental-military-deployment-uw-study/ http://www.washington.edu/news/2011/10/31/children-of-deployed-military-at-greater-risk-of-engaging-in-violent-behavior/
  5. Long time listener and donator, I can't recall or find any podcasts that discussed this topic, found a few short forum threads, but I would really love to hear Stefs thoughts on the topic of transgenderism, gender dysphoria etc Thank you in advance!
  6. Simply amazing in terms of the access and interviews in this documentary, goes through the full post 9/11 timeline of the creation and expansion of warantless wiretapping in the US via the White House and the NSA Insane stories told by former attorney generals talking about how the AG and the 20 people below him were all going to resign in protest against the wiretapping in 2004 etc An absolute must watch, Stef really needs to watch this and consider doing a podcast about it! Watchable in full online @ http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/united-states-of-secrets/ http://variety.com/2014/tv/reviews/tv-review-frontlines-the-united-states-of-secrets-1201175707/
  7. Thank you all so much for all the replies, I apologize for my delay in responding. She spoke with her therapist about my fetish and the therapist asked for me to attend their next session and I did. It was very helpful and seemed to put my g/f at ease with the fetish. There are a lot of aspects to my kink/fetish that I seem to enjoy and be attracted to and also seem to fluctuate in the level of arousal they cause for me. At the advisement of the therapist I have been working very hard to let my g/f know what it is that I like but to not demand it of her, basically let her steer things toward the fetish play during sex should she feel comfortable with it. This has been hard for me but is getting progrssively easier surprisingly quickly and seems to be working very well. Last night we had what I would consider the best sex of our relationship and she was very dominate, controlling, lots of fetish talk, etc and she also agreed that it was the best sex we have had in a very long time for her. She opened up to me about how her recent dedication to working out has also helped her feel more confident. She also explained that she now feels much more comfortable with the fetish play since she doesn't fear that I am going to announce that I am gay or a woman on the inside or anything like that. I am feeling very positive and happy with things right now and what's odd is that I feel significantly less desire for the fetish play for some reason, I still enjoy it but I don't feel like it's all consuming like I did a month or so ago, I think maybe I was just so worried that this itch would never be scratched that I was freaking out a little bit.
  8. Yes, because even if we are not actively engaged in the fetish type sex/scenarios/talk I just imagine it in my head while we have sex. I can have quick plain sex sometimes and still reach orgasm, I just don't feel remotely fulfilled by it.
  9. She is currently going to therapy twice a month (max allowed by her healthcare provider) to work through her astoundingly bad childhood. I did about 2 years of therapy many years ago when I had been having major verbal fights with my parents, it was helpful. Hearing her reject the fetish and explain that it may even have damaged her perception of me outside of the realm of the fetish was devastating, I feel destroyed when I think about it. We had a talk/fight about it last night that did not go well. A few months ago she had requested that we not engage in the fetish style sex more than once per week which I agreed to, so last night we tried to engage in the fetish sex since it had been a week or two since the last time and she was in a very good mood when she got home from work. However I became very frustrated during the sex with her lack of enthusiasm, she did not seem even remotely "in to it" and when this happens it totally kills the mood for me. When I stopped the sex and brought up my frustration she became very upset, she said that it is my fault for not focusing on her at all during the sex, which is hard since that fetish is very focused on her dominating me and me being very passive... She actually went so far as to storm off into the other room and call me a "fucking idiot" for not realizing why she wasn't "into it" This was very painful, I felt numb and still do this morning. She came back into the room last night ~10mins later and apologized and we dropped the conversation and went to bed. This morning she was gone for work before I got up and I sent her a text stating how horrible I feel and that a huge part of me just wants to throw everything away that has anything to do with the fetish and never do it any of it ever again. I apologized for being selfish in the sex as well. She said she is not mad or upset, and apologized again for the name calling last night, says she loves me and that we are ok, said we should go to the beach and relax on our next mutual day off. I can't help but feel like the issue has not really been addressed at all, I have a deep sinking feeling in my stomach that the same thing will happen again should we try to have the fetish related sex again. I am having a really hard time trying to look at the situation objectively, and problem solve any possible solutions, I feel so down, I feel scared that our relationship may not work if I can't find a resolution. If there was a pill I could take to just wipe the fetish from my head and be perfectly satisfied with completely average normal sex I would sell my soul to take it.
  10. This fetish has now started to cause issues in my relationship, my g/f does not want to be dominant in bed and says that she would prefer to be dominated in bed instead. My g/f seems to have not enjoyed my fetish as much as I thought she has, she is now saying that it makes her look differently at me, hard to see me as "a man" after she dominates me in bed. I am distrought, I will often swear off ever asking her to be dominate in bed ever again and then when the opportunity comes around again it's insanely hard for me resist it.
  11. Wasn't sure what I would be getting when I watched this... Turned out to be a psychoanalysis of popular movies and culture. I could see Stefan and this community being very interested in watching this... Here is a link http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2152198/
  12. Getting coverage setup with the VA is a nightmare but he quality of care once you have it is very dependent on where you live.
  13. I'm skeptical of these "results"... http://www.cbsnews.com/news/multivitamin-researchers-say-case-is-closed-supplements-dont-boost-health/
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