[Finding a Luge partner]

Thanks Joel

[Finding a Luge partner]

 

 

 

 

Let me know what you think about my editing skills and the video in general. 

[Make-up]

 I'm afraid pointing out their lack of a pursuit of self knowledge isn't going to help register my points. 

 

 

 

I agree, what I said was targeted at you so you could understanding that. 

[Donating time to FDR! An example.]

I think thats a good idea, new Youtubers use that strategy. Maybe not many people click on them but if 1/10 does that is a new viewer ! 

[Make-up]

 

 

If they wanted to feel good about themselves then why don't they work on their self-knowledge ?

 

Do they take good care of their health? Do they read about health? 

 

Do they read about mental health ? 

 

 

If no then they don't want to feel good about themselves. 

 

 

Do they love knowledge , do they love to learn and advance their live's ? 

 

(Im making some assumptions)

I asked my mother today why she wears makeup, mainly to see what she would say. Her and my grandmother both said they wear it to feel good about themselves. So I proposed a scenario where they're the only people in the world and they held their position and said they would still put on the make up. I pointed that this is illogical because make up is used to make yourself more attractive and with no one to appreciate it there's no point in putting it on. At which point my grandma snaps in at my moms rescue with some bullshit about how we each have our separate opinions. 

 

About a month ago I had a similar conversation with an attractive tattooed girl who also claims that if she were the only person alive she would still get tattoos (provided of course there is some magic machine that can do the tattooing). This is also illogical I think, tattooing is painful and tedious, so with no one but herself to appreciate the art you may as well put it on a piece of paper instead of your body, right? 

 

In both conversations I was easily frustrated because I thought they were lying to avoid admitting they do things to get attention. But now I think they honestly believed what they said. I still don't buy it but I am not a girl and I don't use makeup. Why is it so hard for most women to admit their real reasons and motives? Is there anyone who can confirm what I'm saying? 

[What would art look like in the future?]

I know nothing about Art.

 

 

The feeling I get when I see modern art is that the artist is trying to hide something. 

 

If you feel angry why do you have to draw some abstract and convoluted picture to express it  ?

 

Maybe there would be less art because people would be more connected to themselves and their subconscious wouldn't have to

 

express itself through Art. Maybe it would just be called pictures and paintings and not art. I took a semester of Art and i still don't know

 

what it is, this is why I say its so abstract. (trying to hide something through art)

[Root of paralysis and lack of ambition]

 

 

 

 

Speaking for myself, I do suffer paralysis that has its origins in my childhood, but I don't think the adults in my childhood even remotely scared me by their demonstration of anything that could be called ambition. I witnessed a landscape of wasted lives from people demonstrating no ambitions, and I certainly did not want to end up like them.

 

 

 

Thank you for your response. I want to be more clear and assertive with my position. 

 

****You said people in your childhood did not scare the ambition out of you and that they did not have ambition, right ?

 

I would argue that you are wrong because your parents had a family and most likely had a job. Doing those things are extremely ambitious even if they are not done correctly. They had ambition and that ambition got them where they are.  After the fact it might seem like they have no ambition. 

[Root of paralysis and lack of ambition]

Yeah, now that i think about it this can't be applied to everyone. 

 

 

 

What has lead you to the conclusion that many FDRers lack ambition?

 

I have talked to allot of FDR members. 

Some contributing factors:
- implosion of economy
- general apathy in our culture, inability to connect and set roots, have meaningful relationships, etc.
- implosion of the family. Without loving and supportive relationships i.e. partnerships we have little to base our lives on, little to move ahead with

 

 

I don't think the economy has much to do with. Look at all the companies that where started in recessions and people rising from poverty. 

 

I agree with the rest 

Been thinking about this a lot recently myself,

 

Certainly as a child the reason I always remember being given as to why I had to live with my grandparents was basically

looking after me full time was incompatible with my mother’s job as a psychiatric nurse.....

So yeah very negative early experience of ambition there. 

 

On the other hand similar to Omega,

 

My Grandparents were painfully working class, grandad had gone down the coal mines pretty much straight from school and stayed there until he finished due to ill heath 40 years later. While my grandma had worked as an auxiliary nurse for a few yeas then a school dinner lady. Throughout most of my childhood my dad worked in a warehouse driving the forklifts and picking orders....'fuck all in terms of ambition'

 

Above all though I think the very simple and straightforward answer is...there's just no pressing need. 

 

When my gran was alive, I was tipping up £150 a month, everything after that was basically spending money.

Now I've a mortgage, house insurance, gas and electric bills, council tax...and I need to eat,

suddenly ambition has a bit of value in my life.    

 

 

Right, I don't think parents are always the cause it could be other adult figure in society. If you are smart and look at there life, you wouldn't really want to strive towards that.

The other users mentioned that their parents where unambitious, and ignored the fact that i said other adult figures could also give us a bad impression of ambition. 

"The fact that we spend time and energy posting on Internet forums about our crappy lives?"

 

I disagree, the very fact that we are on here, shows ambition. If I didn't have ambition, I'd be a democrat doing things that don't challenge me and make me strive for virtue but that is what this site does, or more what philosophy does.

 

Most posts on here aren't "Posting about crappy lives". Most are trying to improve our lives and others. As well, they range into many topics like current events, philosophy etc. If we were to spend our lives posting about our crappy lives, we would be on Tumblr.

 

I just disagree with the basis of this question, I think most people on this site have ambition. 

 

Right that makes sense they have ambition when it comes to learning about self knowledge. Ambition to improve their abstract understanding of the concepts but in general i use ambition to talk about things like careers or tangible things outside of intellectual ideas. 

I might be wrong in doing so but that was my thought proses/ 

[Root of paralysis and lack of ambition]

ambition |amˈbiSHən| noun a strong desire to do or to achieve something, typically requiring determination and hard work.

 

    I noticed that a large amount of people in the FDR community have little to no ambition. I was thinking

 

about why this is. People here are extremely intelligent so it seems to not make sense. My theory is

 

that as children and young adults we used paralysis as a defense mechanism. To defend our lives from the

 

results of "ambition". Our parents, teachers, or any adult figures had ambition and we seen what there

 

lives where like. We witnessed the lack of principles and morals. Our subconscious didn't want to become that.

 

One way to escape that is by paralysis and by avoiding ambition. Not being ambitious in a fucken crazy 

 

environment show allot of self-worth and intelligence it says I don't know what to do yet but I sure don't want

 

to end up like these people. 

[My relationship with assertiveness]

I remember you mentioned to me that you read RTR is it also hard to express you feelings in the moment.

I ask this because if you can share your feelings in the moment wouldn't you also share your preferences? And if you express your preferences wouldn't that be assertive ?

[My life, thank you all.]

I felt really angry at hearing what your parents did to you. Neglect, mocking, sabotaging your plans, and breaking your will.  You didn't deserve that. You've shown a tremendous amount of courage for all the work you've done and for sharing this and I found your writing truly inspiring. You're awesome, Ivan.  Sincerely,-Joel  

 

 

Thanks Joel for all our conversations without you and the guys I would be lost.

<3

[My life, thank you all.]

    This is going to be short essay about how I escaped hopelessness. I will talk in detail about my past, present, and future. Its going to be

 

something of an ode to Freedomain Radio, my hope is that this helps anyone who is in my position.

 

    What was the hopelessness I was feeling? Im still living with my parents. I was dragging myself out of bed every day to slowly kill myself

 

in college, although I had a 3.8 GPA I hated myself. I spent most of my days alone and isolated. I was emotionally disconnected.

 

    My past. I was raised by a neglectful mother and father, something truly evil yet so hard to see. When I was 3 years old I remember

 

wanting to learn how radios and TVs worked. With a screw driver I opened various electronics up. My father got pissed off and angry at me,

 

my mother somewhat let me get my way but neglected me and my curiosity. I smashed my penis with a hammer at the age of three. I

 

accidentally hit it when I was sitting in the floor. Thankfully everything is ok down there. This is the start of a long life of neglect. I come from

 

a large hispanic family, I remember my family having to live with my aunt and uncle for most of my youth. Screaming, crying, running,

 

smiling, and laughing where all things that my mother passively but aggressively discouraged. I was discouraged to show any type of

 

emotion because my mother thought it might inconvenience my aunt. I wasn't allowed to be a child. Hence this is where my social anxiety

 

came from. My mothers neglect spanned beyond this when I was five I had a new remote controlled air plane, my neighbor who is the same

 

age as me liked it and decided  to steal it. My mother did nothing, I wasn’t worth anything to her. Expand this to the rest of my life, this is how

 

I was raised. Jump to me getting my first job, when I graduated from high school I didn't have any plans to go to college. My father came into

 

my room and mockingly said “ha, what are you going to do now ?”, I told him that I applied at many places to work and that one of the

 

companies had called me. He said “Thats what they always say, but never offer people jobs” , but then I said no they actually called me to go

 

to an orientation, I got the job. After that he left the room. This is the type of monsters I was raised by. That same week I had to complete a

 

drug test that was part of the job hiring process, my mother was going to give me a ride because I still didn't have my license. She came

 

across a roundabout and complained that she didn't know how navigate them, so she turned back and went home. She told me to forget the

 

job and to attempt to get another one. I had to ask someone else for a ride, and got the job. This was life.

 

  My present. Thanks to the community I have made big decisions in my life. Im still living with my parents but I made the decision to drop out

 

of college and move out. I will never succeed in this place.  Im currently searching for a job and roommates. I was feeling hopeless a couple

 

of days ago because everything seemed impossible to me, moving out and getting a job. One of my FDR friends said you do notice a pattern

 

right ? Whenever you come across a problem you give up and go home. This is what your mother did with the roundabout. Thank you ! Yes,

 

Im a smart guy who always gives up when a big problem comes up. I was creating an iPhone game, I showed it to people and they thought it

 

was cool, it wasn't complete some problems came up therefore I gave up. Do you see the pattern? Here is another instance of this pattern. I

 

started a podcast but when problems came up I gave up. When I was around 7 I wanted to build a treehouse and my parents ignored me I

 

still attempted to build it but after getting hurt I gave up. This is a pattern that was engraved in my brain. Thankfully Im aware of it and Im

 

going to make big changes! 

 

    My future. What am I doing with my time ? Im searching for any job to move out and continue with my growth. I started programming

 

again this time I wont let big problems stop my ambition. I'm breaking the cycleI by driving through the roundabout! I want to build a portfolio

 

to eventually start applying to programing jobs. Im also working on my video editing skills, I never had a formal education in this area but I

 

noticed its something that Im good at. I have made a couple of FDR short videos. The idea behind that is to make short videos highlighting

 

the best of FDR videos. I believe this will engage people who have shorter attention spans, less time, and less intelligence. If these videos

 

become equally successful or surpass FDR’s success I would feel confident enough to ask Stefan or Mike for a job, and also express other

 

ideas I have. If they don't I gained some skills and helped FDR in some way. 

 

    In conclusion, at the moment of writing this I'm full of hope. I want to thank everyone who is part of the greatest philosophical community

 

in the world. <3 Sorry for my grammar and spelling mistakes, I'm correcting them as I find them.

[Survivors of abuse are humans too]

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[Survivors of abuse are humans too]

Subscribed!

Thanks !!

[Survivors of abuse are humans too]

[Template for my future fdr video shorts.]

If anyone wants to help me out with my FDR video shorts : https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4J-tUe8X-Vf5aZGT9uQD7w

 

 

I want to improve the videos by creating a template to better organize the content being displayed. 

For example if you notice the videos don't have have a template, but stet's picture is on the left , a logo/title on top, and pictures on the right. 

 

So I need a template with a square on the left,  top, and right. To fit the content which i described above. 

For example look at this picture of a fox news segment. 

http://cloudfront.mediamatters.org/static/images/item/fox-20090408-opposition1.jpg

 

Everything is nicely aligned with a good background and borders. I want something like this or better . 

Anyways this would really help speed things up, ill eventually do it but it'll take a while. 

 

you don't need to add the fdr logo or stefs picture, i just need the raw template 

The dimensions are 1920 × 1080 pixels 

[Freedomain Radio Fan Instagram]

I noticed no one made an FDR Instagram, so i made one : InstaFreedomainRadio

 

 

Ill be posting memes from the boards & Facebook once or twice a day. 

 

 

http://instagram.com/instafreedomainradio

[The thing about objectifying women]

I was one of your first subscribers, BTW I cannot find your live streams anymore. 

 

 

Thanks man !

 

Youtube has problems sometimes. 

[Why am I bullied - video short]

Thanks J-William

[What are you listening to right now?]

 

 

Im feeling a little depressed . 

[Why am I bullied - video short]

 

Check out the end and do what it says. 

I think the sound quality is improved in this one. 

[Reaching more people.]

Thanks guys any specific criticism to help improve videos ? 

[The thing about objectifying women]

People won't see them on your channel because you are low on subscribers, I think this is a great idea but you should talk with MMD so he uploads them on the main channel if Stef and him are down with it.

 

 

Yeah, but personally I don't feel as confident with the videos yet I'm improving them on everyone I make. 

Thats why I would like feedback when I post them. Also, don't just say I have low subs, share and subscribe ! That would help allot

[The thing about objectifying women]

 

 

 

 

Please share if you like! 

[FDR Dating Section]

I actually don't think it takes much resources to add a section that is titled "Dating". 

 

It would be amusing because for every 1 girl there are 100 guys so the competition would be brutal.