Holo Cene

Your wife is protecting valuable social networks that will ensure future happiness for you and for you family. At least that is how she see's it.

There is a reason why war is propagated. War is the diversion of intellectual resource and capital, bent to the innovation of death dealing mechanisms. The reason this occurs is to distort and divert the market for the intellectual creativity of the people away from the innovations that could render the government obsolete. The geniuses who otherwise could be potentially working toward the betterment of mankind are now working on ways of maximizing death on the battlefield.

I think of love as the fullness of true exchange. The other who has given reason and evidence of virtue is the extension of a trust that allows the loosening of protective boundaries that can then lead to an emotional exchange where the self becomes intermingled with another thus selfishness can then be extended to another and the reflection of the self in the other achieves a balance of mutuality and reciprocity which leads to the true motivation and desire to extend good and eschew evil towards another person.

I think a game could be fun. You could do tell a lie or tell the truth kind of game and have some consequences to both. Then you can talk about lying and telling the truth and the differences and reasons for both. Something that obviously has a fun factor in order to make it engaging and incentive based.

The emotions and the thoughts that arise from the situation can be insistently calling for attention, which you ignore for whatever reason. These situations bring out these patterns to be clearly seen. To describe it as love and closure are just catch phrases to hide the inner implications from yourself. This is the potential to see things more clearly.

I would not visit her. I fill my need for connection by turning that desire inward and letting my own personality digest and nourish me. I do understand that this connection must turn outward at some point and look forward to that day. Meeting people and being social is the mountain that needs to be climbed here. These type of situations may just be the delays from beginning that hard work. There is nothing to gain from visiting her. Just old wounds and the same problems that caused the break up. That being said, there is opportunity in the actual situation as it does highlight some aspects of yourself that could be illuminated by your responses.

Thought it would be nice to hear some poetry from you guys. Here is one from me to get it started. The mantid green lush insomnia a dream unravel like the spine of my unwritten story Lie awake in the perfume of the making. We who as time, unbent and ever cheerful.

It is already on Netflix instant watch where I saw it last night. An unveiling of the mask of Statism. Absolutely blistering.

Just kiss her and see what happens.

It might be a criticism she places upon you that you are not taking her needs into account when you have conversations. Analytically trying to figure out why people ascribe one culture to a specific spice might be interesting to you, but not necessarily to other people. Conversation is most certainly an art form, and a skill. Broaden that horizon as a general rule and in her case take her desires into account of what she finds interesting. Emotional content is always of prime importance. If she is telling you that bluntly it has perhaps happened often in the past and she is telling you now after many such conversations.

Wow, your situation sounds difficult to say the least. It is a tragedy the things people do to the ones they claim to love. I feel a lot of empathy with your situation and I remember those feelings of dread and anxiety when dealing with my mother. You now have your best interests firmly in sight, and I would imagine your whole being is rejoicing at that fact. As you reveal more of the healthy part of your spirit the more hope and momentum you build. Whatever you do maintain strict boundaries between you and your family until you figure a way out so they cannot try to drag you back into the hell with them.

Wow, what absolute bravery to even ask the question. I'm in America and I do not choose to share as much as you seem to want to. It boils down to exactly what you are hoping to achieve and having reality based expectations. If there is any good to be done then I would say that you do it, but it has to be tempered against the fact that most people would consider it a taboo to discuss things outside of conformist conventions. If you meet a curious person with intelligence and openness sharing your ideas might be a good idea, but otherwise tread carefully.

It seems to me that your dream was a rough sketch of your current psychological struggles. The indoctrination and the panic of the classroom versus the terror and panic of freedom. Of the abandonment of the safety of invisibility versus the terror of the "zombie" attack, which is essentially the attacks that will come from all of the people still caught in the matrix. Once you leave the confines of anonymity and invisibility and become your own identity you fear the rabid hordes of mindless zombies quite literally. Jaime I think is a reference to yourself. You don't know this Jaime which is yourself, but she is coming and you will meet her as she is waiting in the chair. The immobility of this Jaime is also telling, She is sitting and waiting. Daniel is a representation of the potential of the outside. The freedom of goal and orientation. The baby step of digging a hole, just because you want to. I hope this is helpful.

If you woke up and you were a member of the opposite sex, what do you think would change? I just saw this somewhere and would love to hear your answers.

What unbelievable evil we inflict upon our children and call it " the best we could do". It is quite simply a testament to your intelligence and virtue that you strive to reach wholeness and it should not be underestimated. Your strength of character alone is a powerful message to yourself about what you are capable of. People succumb to their histories every day and it is something special to reach beyond the darkness and see the light. I think the autonomy of decision making comes from a direct and authentic experience of the self. You know what you want, and you know how to formulate plans and goals. When you exist solely as defense mechanisms to memories and traumas and damage, you cannot express your true self because all of your considerable mental fortitude is spent propping up the bulwark of emotional collapse. What you do with your anger will be determined by your growth as a human being. As you grow, so too will your ability to adjudicate the decisions that are right for you. If there is any justice here, it will be in your capable hands in finding it for yourself. The only help there can be is in identifying evil and exposing the truth under the lies. You seem to be seeing things rather clearly though I do not understand how such wanton evil could ever be given a half-assed apology.