Hi everyone,
As the topic title indicates, I'm a student at a public high school. When I first discovered anarchism and voluntarism, I was so excited to share my enthusiasm with my classmates!
I was met with some pretty harsh resistance. Nobody wanted to talk with me on an intellectual level; they were much more concerned with trying to provoke me emotionally, through name calling or insulting dismissal.
But this is what depresses me:
Whenever I do engage intellectually with someone, I invest my time and energy into tearing down their arguments for the state, until finally, they have nothing left and it's just me staring at them and them staring back, and they still accept the state as a moral institution and hate me for arguing my position effectively.
It depresses me that in a student body a few thousand strong, nobody cares about the evil that's being inflicted on them. If I ask my classmates a question like, "Are morals objective?" a wave of contemptuous ridicule explodes in my face.
It depresses me to watch the real-time brainwashing of my classmates as it is repeatedly drilled into their head in every humanities class that "capitalism is unstable." Anything resembling a spine has long since been extracted from them and they offer no resistance to even the most outrageously false bits of propaganda.
This environment of total apathy is slowly sapping my fighting spirit. When I think about the soul destruction of my classmates, I alternate between anger and total apathy. When it comes right down to it, there's just not much I can do but watch.
How can I possibly have hope for the future when I'm surrounded by it, and it looks pretty fucking grim from right here?
