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Brazilda

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  1. How long has Sweden been importing muslims? Is there a correlation between increased importation of muslims and crime? I remember hearing some crazy stuff about rapes in Sweden. It seemed significant but I don't remember any facts. Thanks in advance for your links, information, and time. Feel free to bring up anything related if you think its interesting. I've been fascinated by race stuff lately. With muslims in particular because of the whole phenomena of justifying the many ways they fuck over non muslims.
  2. thanks dog If its even out there I'm still interested in finding information on the kkk thing.
  3. Id like to know more about those juicy subversive activities of the soviets. I cant find information on this subject and stefan spoke of it before like it was semi common knowledge. Or verifiable.
  4. In a past video Stefan briefly spoke about how in the past KGB either funded or staged the KKK. Does anyone remember this or know more? I have no idea what video this was from.
  5. Don't quote me on this but I watched a video a while back where Stefan and a guest or caller talked about intelligence. The show focused on jewish intelligence and how some sector of jewish folk have the highest average IQ. I think the reasoning was that free trade went uninterrupted for hundreds of years in their society so the most intelligent naturally earned the most money and therefore were able to have the most children. He contrasted this with europeans and how christians would persecute or castrate scientists/other intelligent members of society which probably negatively impacted european IQ over generations. Does anyone know what this video was called? I'm very interested in learning more about this. Are there examples of the church castrating scientists in history? Does anyone know another theory that explains negative or positive impacts on intelligence over time for a specific society? I'm going to see an old friend tomorrow and I thought i'd mention this at some point because I know it would interest him too. But I don't really remember a whole lot about the topic so I'd like to hear what yall have to say.
  6. Haha I was referring to a comment made by the first poster, Tyler Durden, with the picture of Brad Pitt. Good for you, I'm glad what you're doing is working.
  7. When I was 14 or 15 I smoked weed for the first time and in response my parents tricked me into going to a mental hospital where my urine and blood was tested, I was interrogated by people who clearly looked down on me, mug shot taken, and shuffled off to my barred window room with the locked door, and brick mattress where I was stored for two weeks everyday the same, a brief 5 minute evaluation with a man in a white lab coat and a doctor title, food, group therapy which I never participated, and a 10 minute a day optional phone call at 8pm to the people who betrayed my trust by lying to me to put me there. I bring that up because Ive always been resentful towards therapy because my first experience was sorta involuntary and rapey. You're probably right that I need therapy though, my primary method of self knowledge is listening to these fdr podcasts and heeding the lessons other people learn. Although I'm starting to feel like a man with a bullet wound telling doctors I'll fix it myself with a spoon, some alcohol, and a lot of gauze. Thank you for acknowledging the causality of my actions and my childhood. It wasn't obvious to me, I needed a big portrait painted to realize that I found for the first time in The Antidote to Cruelty. When I think about what I did I mostly feel sorrow for the animal, and disappointment in myself for making those choices. I feel anger towards my father for the daddy issues I've inherited. I shouldn't have to seek out kind hearted people like yourselves to spill my guts to because I was so carelessly raised but here I am at 1 am writing to you as openly as I know how. All I hoped to gain from posting this is discussion, I don't have many people to talk to and all of the insights I find here at FDR are so incredibly valuable. My first reaction to your analogy was laughter because to me it seems crystal clear not to do what you did and at the same time I know it must seem quite obvious for you and anyone else not to do what I did, I guess thats what happens when you see your life through someone else's eyes. I think my shame is sincere. After all no one would have known what I did if I didn't tell them, someone only wanting to be accepted by the herd wouldve just remained silent. I am my own best judge, jury, and executioner. Now that you mention it I think my self attack is almost entirely programmed by my father. I can even think back to a time when he called me a worthless piece of shit drug addict, probably why I chose those words in particular. I think you may have hit the nail on the head here. When Brad Pitt told me to go vegan I sorta rolled my eyes, I think that's proof that your theory must be correct. If someone else decided my punishment I could be in jail or going vegan, two things I'm not prepared to do. I've found your response the most helpful yet. I think Ive heard Stefan talk about this exact theory before but I'm not 100% sure because I discovered FDR a few months ago and I've spent nearly every waking moment since absorbing new information. I know what its like to fear a parent will kill you, I was feared for my life a few month ago over a stupid innocent joke I thought I could say to my father, which he quickly turned into an excuse to try to kick me out when it was damn cold, I refused and he started to approach me in a hostile manner. I really dont know what wouldve gone down had my mom not happened to have been there to intervene. In the past hes charged me aggressively and the one time I fought back he called the police and they came and I remember one cop telling me how lucky I am that i am a few months away from being 16 because he wanted me to be charged with assault.
  8. *Warning: disturbing, reprehensible details shared here In a recent video, the antidote to cruelty, I found revealing parallels between myself and the first caller. Basically the caller killed animals when he was younger and in his mind he was justified. Stefan pointed out that when he was younger his father was cruel to him and in his mind he was also justified. I think towards the end of the call Stef says that no one is born wanting to kill small animals. When I was younger I was messing around with this sickly cat and when it scratched me I used that as an excuse in my mind to escalate until eventually I tied the cat in a plastic bag, took it to the pond behind my house, dropped a big stone on it, then threw it in the water where I left it to drown. Maybe 3-5 years before that I was beaten by my father because I didn't respond to him with "sir". He cornered me in my room and put his hand around my throat and pressed me into the wall and was demanding that I "respect" him. I guess I knew I wasnt in mortal danger because I didnt comply, with my mom screaming at him to stop he kept hitting me until she ran out of the room and came back with some heavy metal object that she used to smash him over the head with until he released me. Ever since the incident with the cat I've had a deep hatred and contempt for myself brewing inside. I've always known that anyone who is capable of doing what I did that day is a disgusting worthless piece of shit. It wasn't until the antidote to cruelty that I connected the dots, that my father wasn't really concerned about respect, thats just an excuse he invented to hurt me. And just like my 300+ lb father I found a weak helpless creature to impose my impossible rules on in order to inflict pain. My father was severely abused by his father, and my grandfather's father was a macho military man, so I think my family has been composed of sadists for quite a while. I feel extremely emotional about all of this and I'm not sure what I'm hoping to gain from posting this here, maybe someone can confirm that my childhood indeed played a role in the cruelty I am responsible for.
  9. If anyone from the glorious pc master race plays WoW my battle tag is Pokey#1927
  10. Sorry I was still waiting for the "well established science". I didn't realize you were already defeated by the first person who mildly disagreed lol. Actually I never complained that you don't agree, I just find it annoying that I stated "Assuming time and space are infinite" and you're not assuming time and space are infinite. But that's nothing compared to a 34 year old man having a dramatic exit like some middle school drama queen...
  11. If you can prove that I'd love to go halfsies with you on a nobel prize. This is like if I ask for help with a math problem and you give me a riddle and an even more difficult math problem instead of helping me solve the original problem.
  12. I understand there is a lot of gray area when assuming that the universe is infinite, I don't expect anyone to prove this stuff. Maybe just dis/agree that it's a neat thought and e-fist bump me.
  13. Eternal return theory is the idea that the universe has been and will continue to recur. Assuming time and space are infinite, imagine the probability of another world like ours existing, where everything plays out exactly like it has here on Earth, with me writing this post and you reading it. If "a mathematical certainty" wasn't your first thought then like myself you probably don't have as good of an understanding of infinity as you may have thought. Another example is monkeys typing on a keyboard until a copy of Shakespear's Hamlet is produced. The likeliness is extremely low but through infinite time it's bound to happen. I'm sharing this idea just because I like it and want to know what other people think of it.
  14. Have you talked to your girlfriend about why you skip the classes? Do you explain that you believe your plan to become a chiropractor isn't being compromised by missing the classes?
  15. What does the expression "turn me into a boat" mean? If you skip class then are they really even worth going to? If you're classes aren't worth going to then why are you ready to commit years of your life pursuing your career choice? If most of your learning is self taught and you have no respect for the teachers then why do you value college?
  16. I wouldn't say making love to my left hand is something that makes me feel good about myself, it just feels good. Like a cold shower on a hot day, it just feels nice. This is helpful, but I don't think it's simple enough for me to use as an argument with these people. If they don't understand they don't need make up if there is no one to see it then I'm afraid pointing out their lack of a pursuit of self knowledge isn't going to help register my points.
  17. Brazilda

    Make-up

    I asked my mother today why she wears makeup, mainly to see what she would say. Her and my grandmother both said they wear it to feel good about themselves. So I proposed a scenario where they're the only people in the world and they held their position and said they would still put on the make up. I pointed that this is illogical because make up is used to make yourself more attractive and with no one to appreciate it there's no point in putting it on. At which point my grandma snaps in at my moms rescue with some bullshit about how we each have our separate opinions. About a month ago I had a similar conversation with an attractive tattooed girl who also claims that if she were the only person alive she would still get tattoos (provided of course there is some magic machine that can do the tattooing). This is also illogical I think, tattooing is painful and tedious, so with no one but herself to appreciate the art you may as well put it on a piece of paper instead of your body, right? In both conversations I was easily frustrated because I thought they were lying to avoid admitting they do things to get attention. But now I think they honestly believed what they said. I still don't buy it but I am not a girl and I don't use makeup. Why is it so hard for most women to admit their real reasons and motives? Is there anyone who can confirm what I'm saying?
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