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Sam, I don't think that sounds crazy at all. I think if it was a schizophrenic thing, you probably wouldn't be aware of it. I would guess that, since you're aware of it, that it is a genuine part of who you are. I think we all have different voices inside us, some of which conflict with us and each other. I don't know what that part of you represents, but the first thought that came to my mind when I read about it was that it is empathy for the child that you were. I think I had something similar. I can tell you that when I was a child, I wasn't allowed to empathasize with myself, so that's what I think of when you say he runs away. When I start to empathasize with my past now, or when I feel anger over what was taken from me, I begin to hear parental voices telling me things like, "You didn't have it that bad. It's time to move on. I had it bad when i was a child. etc." I really think that all of those voices we have inside of us are tools that we use to make sense of the world.

Sam, As someone who has been through similar childhood experiences and adult awakeneing, I think you should be aware that you are very strong. It has taken a lot of strength for you to come this far, and you have to give yourself credit for that. It takes strength to know that we need help and to be able to ask for it. Thank you for sharing your story. I have been helped enormously by FDR members who have shared.