spacedisback

Eric, you will. (Trust me). Besides, as glum as it sounds you are better off a totally free man, than one who is weighed down by the pressures and maintenance of false friends and relationships. Just look to those people around you unhappily married, or in the middle of large social groups but completely unsatisfied with themselves or with life. You on the other hand have no one to answer to but yourself. You have the opportunity to build yourself into the person you want to become, the person that people of true value will come to value the moment you have become that person you so desire to become. It's a fight, my friend. It's a daily struggle, but it's a war you will eventually win. Keep fighting buddy.