Juanswanson

Listening to On Truth last year really shook my world, but it's what I needed. I was depressed, and wasn't exactly sure why. On Truth got me to look to my immediate environment--a brother in prison, an alcoholic mother and drug addict uncle. I myself had been trying to escape reality by taking Adderall and retreating to the library. On Truth inspired me to talk to my family, but because I was a wreck and so was my family, my talks always exploded into a full out aggressive confrontation. This continued on and off for a year. Now I find myself being permissive in regard to things that I have told myself I no longer want to deal with, and yet I find myself letting things go for the sake of avoiding confrontation. My fear is that I am working against myself; that I should be more principled. But I also don't want to fall back into the emotional pit I was once in. I guess I should leave a little slack--not for permitting ill deeds, but for letting them go for a while until I can talk it out with my family at a better time. Can anyone relate? What are your thoughts? How do you go about applying philosophy in your life--all at once or gradually? (If more details are needed, please ask. Thanks.)