cagney156

I don't know the details of your situation... But from my experience there aren't that many people with whom you can really communicate on an intellectuell level! In the case of my parents I realised that they stopped developing emotionaly and intellectually at age 17 or something. They have a inner stasis and I guess on ther death bed they still will be children inside, but thats ok. Sometimes it's just fine to have a emotional connection to people, when they're beautiful and not sick or abusive on an emotional level. Growing up is nothing that happens by itself, it's an decission that everyone of us has to make and constantly work on... To use a more spiritual terminology for growing up: allign oneself with truth! very, very few people really do that! Most people have decided to stay little children and hide their whole life in childisch, abstract emotions, drugabuse or ridicilous, time wasting forms of entertainment. My mother allways tells me, not everybody can be a smartass like you! and she's right... There are different levels of connection to other human beings. When a person is still more earth than soul, you may enjoy his/her presence and so on, but you'll never be able to connect on a really deep and transcendental level with that person... It's like trying to put an ocean into a little swimming pool, it's just physically impossible. A rich and deep Mind is just too much to handle for most people, so you have to adapt and somewhat reduce yourself to that portion of yourself, that will fit into the pool of underdeveloped, unreflectet consciousness. I'm not telling you to hide or deny yourself!... just be realistic about the state of human consciousness in our times and make adjustments so you don't get destroyd by it. There are three types of conversations... trivial jiberisch about banal stuff. Trivial jiberisch hidden in a pseudo intellectuall suit... those two are the most common in reality! the last one is true and authentic communication of wisdom and truth between two developed and reflected humanbeings... this is one is acctually are very rare thing! to find someone who is not filled with ideological bullshit, who is not an unreflected slave of his biology, filled with objectivity hijacking hormones. To find someone who has developed his/her own thoughts and made an painfull effort to allign with morality and truth is one of the main objectives in life, the old story of the needle in the hay!... what I also realised is that this type of releationship is almost not present in nature. Most of the times it's just a mentor/pupil thing. we as a species have to try to teach the ignorant and learn from the great! Nowdays everybody is a smartass, every fool knows best... the fruits of democracy and liberalism!... In reality life is made up of relationships between mentors and pupils. All of us have our own Teachers and our own pupils. Every person is on a different page when it comes to alignment with reality and a wise man/women should know threw selfknowledge and constant, intellectuall effort, to recognize when in life you are in the position of a mentor and when you should shut the fuck up and listen and learn, like a good pupil. Some people are just so far away from my emotional and intellectuall development state, that trying to talk to them on an eye to eye, equal level is like tryring to explain maths and metaphysics to a donkey! It's just silly and totaly impossible!... on the other hand, there are some people that are so deep and developt, that they give me the feeling of still being an embrio! I happily give my ego away and listen and learn from their experience and knowledge, without defending my personal take on reality like an egomanic, smartass, who thinks that he knows everything! dont buy in to that stupid, relativistic bullshit... ohh nobody is smarter, nobody has more quality and value than others... that's just naive, propaganda nonsence and a total refusal of the realitys of life. Recognize the patterns and know when it's your time to teach, preach and motivate and when to be quiet and listen and learn from a wise and reflected person, that is even wiser and more developed than you are. This democratic ''I'm so bad, because i'm no interested in your jibberisch'' is silly. Be honest about natural hirarchy and don't try to treat everybody equal, we are just not! Don't pretend to be interested in people when you're not, don't smile and pretend to listen, when a person is talking stupid bullshit. You don't do yourself any favor and you're not doing other people any favor by ignoring or appreceating their lack of emotional and intellectual maturity. In this area tolerance is just the biggest motivator to stay shallow and ignorant. If they have decided to stay ignorant, let them be and move on. You don't have to enforce wisdom and beauty to others! I'm just telling you to act honest and manly in each interaction! To constantly reflect in your relationships, in wich pole of the mentor/teacher dynamic you are standing at the moment and act accordingly to it.

Hi, my name is Alex, I'm 23. I was born in Russia, on a little farm in Siberia, with 4 Years my parents draged me to germany, where I'm staying to this day. My cultural backround is fucking weird and hectic and Germany is also a strange and sometimes disturbing country to grow up in, especialy with a russian mentality. I have emotional issues and intellectual shortcomings that I work on constantly. For my Age I am more reflected and wise then most people at least double my biological Age. I have big problems connecting to people on a real and mature level. Most People lie, fake and do everything to run away from themselves, even my parents do that. When you try to reduce illusion and enhance Truth in a relationship, people react like if you are trying to destroy their existence ( wich is true, because most peoples lifes are build on lies ). When you start to speak truth or dig into something deeper, they feel frightended, annyoed or totally irritated, so all relationships stay shallow, fake and vulgar for the most part... to put it simply: it's just a fucking waste of time and energy! I'm honest and direct, also when interact with girls. I'm no superman, I am also made of flesh, but I'm no stupid egg-hunting idiot, who is controlled by his biology. I made my experiences with female beauty and how irritating and destructive it can be for a Mans mind. I completly abondend my admiraton for female beauty and I made it a golden rule, never to glorify a girl that I haven't even spoken too... It acctually is quite shoking how shollow and neurotic most pretty girls are, but that is a different topic! Never fall into the Looks trap, that's all I want to say... I'm a 6,3 feet, blonde, I was a boxer for many years, so I'm pretty athletic. I eat healthy, work out and use everyday to gain knowledge and heal my emotinal scars and intellectual lacks. long speech, sry for that... now my actual point: Guys like me are very rare. I'm sorry if it sounds like vanity to you guys, but I just know what I have to offer in human capital and inner beauty for a relationship. Like I said... I'm just human and I really try hard to improve, but it's very hard when you are on your own all the time. I don't want to use myself up on neurotic, simple mined girls, wich want to play around and add me to their list of intriguing ''sexual experiences''. Nowadays It seems that people take relationships not serious at all, it's just a stupid ball game, when you are bored you throw the ball away and find a different game... But this is also a different topic! I allways talk honest and direct. When I find a girl interesting, it mostly doesn't last for long... When girls really open up, you see how broken, neurotic and used up they are. I have no problems to be friends with a girl that fucked around like a Rockstar in her teen years. But for a relationship ?... not for me! I don't judge females moraly, it's an asthetic thing with me... to put it simply: why shoul I choose a used up and sick horse to ride along with me ? I really feel disgusted when a girl tells me about her sex relationships with other man. I don't talk about the sex in a long term, stable relationship, I talk about childisch, illusory relationships wich are created threw and for biological needs, hidden and romantizised by female fantasy and there capability to hijack their intellekt with cheap kitsch and sentimentality. I am 23 and like I said, I know that I have to offer. I'm in my sexual prime and It's a fulltime job to control yourself and stick to yours principles and desires about love and relationship. It's really hard for a young man, if you try not to fuck around like a mindless, biology driven hormone slave, becuase you only want to act if you find a beautiful combination of soul, mind and body in a female. It seems like the hole world became a cheap hedonistic fuck fest. I am really disgusted with the way modern females (also man, but I don't care about those jerks, because I dont have to date them^^) live out their sexuality. I'm not a puritan, but c'mon girls, this shit is getting out of hand... sexual, emotional overusedness, no selfreflexion, no ideals, no own thougts... This is ridicilous! I traveled around the world and I am shoked that this shit is a world wide phenomenon! So yeah... I have a strong disgust when I hear a girl talk about her sexual lifestyle. Is my aggression legit to some point or am I just a stupid, naive romantic with a emotional world like a 12 year old girl^^ that has to come to terms with the sexual reality of modern man and females?