-Lack of daring. I'll often choose the safe path because I can count on that being solid. Think about choosing different fields in an internship, or going to the same restaurant to order the same things. It can be extreme and little.
-Self imposed isolation. I'll get asked to socialize, but often choose to stay at home or come up with a reason why I can't go. Once I've cancelled, I'll feel guilty for doing so then complain there's not enough social activities to go to. This is such a stupid one, and I'm working on moving past it. It's a bit of a toss up between "Is this a valid reason?" and "Is this a temporary feeling?"
-Lack of work. I study from 0800 to 2100 every Monday and Tuesday, then I work at my internship from 0700 to 1600 till the Weekend. I could work on Saturday/Sunday, but I claim it's important I have room to do my collegework and have time to breathe. It is, but I also feel I enhance it too much to the point where it's a reason for me not to work (an extra job.)
-Surounding myself with people who are easy to get positivity from. It's usually people who have mental conditions and are quickly dependent. I'll be happy to help them, happy that they rely on me and then I get upset I only have people who want things from me directly around myself. I've started creating room, treating people who were previously dependent as equal friends rather than a one sided relationship.
All in all I think I need to get out and try and dare more, rather than get the easy fuzzy vibes.
