I recently went back and dug up some old music that i listened in my youth, When i was in 4-5th grade.
I spoke with Joel about how music that i listened to when i was a child brought up anger emotions in me.
I explored this further and there was this song that i use to listen to constantly in the home where i was abused.
Here are some of the lyrics that stand out to me.
Come on, step inside, and you will realize....
What's your vision?
You'll see, what do you expect of me? I cant live that lie
Hey!
I've sick mom, With a fucked dad. Dealing with your life.
really want me to be a good son. Why?
You make me feel like no one.........
Free me of your life, inside my heart dies.
Here is the video:
The melody in the beginning is a melody that is played to babies or children.
I listened to angry music because i wasn't allowed to express anger in my environment.