Does anyone else experience this and what are your thoughts on its cause and or meaning?
Since as long as I can remember I have had a fear or avoidance of saying goodbye to people. What I mean by that is if I were to attend a gathering or party, I may have some hesitation to greet everyone as I made my way through. However, that feeling of anxiety pales in comparison to the feeling I get when it comes time to leave. For some unknown reason I feel much more comfortable by "sneaking" out and avoiding people rather than individually approaching everyone that I have greeted during entry and saying goodbye. I know that my behavior is counter productive and I know that my actions are off putting to others. My compulsion to leave without being seen however is powerful and has won most times throughout my life. This pattern has repeated since I was a child. Can anyone enlighten me as to the cause or meaning of my actions or even relate?