I graduated university about a year ago and deFOOed a few months ago. l now have no one in my life which I never thought would be such a problem considering how introverted I tend to default to. Until all of this became a reality though I had never realized how important others were in my life, even if they are corrupt, or statist, or religious, or boring. The only thing I truly enjoy in my day is the podcast, listening to at least two or even up to eight on my days off.
I've just gotten a good job and am busting my hump trying to save up for therapy. In the meantime, I cry just about everyday for an hour or two, and hard. This has become a serious problem as I work 14 hours a day and I need to stay friendly and pleasant to customers. It's all commission based so if I'm not at the top of my game I'm not making the money I need for therapy in the first place. I do my best to get it all out in the morning or night but half of the time I end up needing to hide in the bathroom and try to keep my weeping as quiet as possible.
Has anyone been in a similar situation or have any advice for what to do until I can afford therapy?