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Something happened to me at the gym today. I am new at a new gym, and the girl who is usually there gave me a lot of attention today. I am quite the handsome fella, especially when I turn on my "true self" as I have done a lot of self-knowledge in order to be very authentic when being myself, and I did that to some extent today with her, but I was still "goofy", because I have very little experience with girls, as unfortunate as that is. And I did "hold" back my personality a bit. Is that "allowed"? So she asked me what I did, why I was there (I am in a foreign country), about whether or not I had friends there and whatnot. I told her I am experienced in weightlifting (but currently going through rehab) and she asked me if I could teach her a bit. I did, but still goofy. It was fun, I laughed, broke a joke or two, and she laughed and smiled as well (I always am careful looking if the other person in the interaction is enjoying it). Then when we went back to our exercises, I sort of "retired", went back to my shit, and then it was a bit "awkward" again. I think it is something I have to become comfortable with, this "spontaneous" stuff. I don't understand, or do I? What does a human do here? Can one become friends with her? Or? It is just so confusing. I am a handsome fella with a good posture, but I have yet to become experienced with really talking to girls to ask them out on a date or something. Her butt is amazing and squat form almost perfect. I am in Eastern Europe now partly because of my injury (free-market medicine here and super cheap massages, etc), and I can speak Russian without an accent because of a lot of hard work, and I have zero ties to Russia; no relatives. Maybe this comes across as attractive and cool or something to these people, including this girl, what do you think? Because it is something that takes a lot of hard work to achieve. She surely gave me a lot of attention today, because I "let go" a good percent (maybe 85%) of the "awkwardness" I usually feel, and broke out in a very confident and comfortable manner without feeling pressure, which surely ignited her willingness to be more interactive with me as opposed to other times where I can stay quiet the entire time (in other gyms and places, that is). She came back to me regularly and we talked about different stuff, and it was not awkward, but all the while I felt something like "well yeah, I am enjoying this stuff, but in order for me to 'deserve' intimacy with a person, I need to be better like some super-amazing comedian or something who is 200% confident all the time and 'say all the right things' every single time" -- that is how my brain went, and I realize this is due to a lot of abusive shit in my childhood, yes. However can you tell me what you think about this? You can ask me questions if you want, and I'll answer them to the best of my abilities. "In-the-moment-things" are hard to talk about after the fact as your body is, well... in the moment, right? In the moment you can feel in one way, and then when you're at the computer, then you don't feel that way anymore and you're thinking about hot-dogs and food, so it is a bit of a hazzle to describe this stuff that just happened, but I'm trying, and I want to, because I really need to understand myself better and understand social interactions better as it is crucial to my survival as a socially interactive human being in this world, and today was good; I didn't expect it, and I enjoyed it, and the girl is very attractive. I have a great desire to become close to new, good people, like just "hanging out" casually, take it slow, watch a movie, and stuff like that. Basically meeting new people and hanging out. "Am I allowed to?" is a feeling that often goes through my mind. I just don't know what this stuff "is" as I've actually only ever started hanging out with people that I've met on the Internet, so that is the way it has gone so far, but, as I said in my earlier thread, I need to do it in real life because that is what humans do. "Am I hot enough?" is also a feeling that goes through my mind sometimes, especially during interactions, even though I know I'm above average when it comes to physical attraction which I have had confirmed many times by hot girls (only they count). So. Would she want to be my friend? Does she find me a cool kid? I just don't know how these things "go". Maybe I could ask her for her vk.com next time since I am only at the gym a few times, and since I will probably be going back to Europe in a week or so. Like, I do not really know these things and would like if you guys could maybe analyze the situation for me a bit. What do you guys think I should do? I have had a recurring pattern to have interactions with people without it "leading" anywhere, and it is very painful at this point knowing that I "could've" taken them somewhere. It's a matter of not really knowing "how these things go" and how to take them "further" than just mundane, every-day interactions. What do you think? Thanks! - henderyjem

Hi, I'm searching for a interesting call-in show from .. uhmn ..maybe 2013, where a woman calls in about a specific topic, but then the chat ends up with her telling a long story about her dysfunctional S/M relationship with her boyfriend, and where she also tells she was to a certain degree forced into having a threesome with this boyfriend and another girl. That is a few things I remember from what I recall as a very interesting call-in show, especially how the chat develops into revealing more and more from her past. It was the last called that evening. Can someone remember which episode it is?

Stef mentioned in one of the recent call in shows that little girls don't bond with cows. While for the most part probably true, it made me think of this video I had seen a few months ago that's too adorable not to share. It made me think twice about my beef consumption. It hits its peak around the 3 minute mark.

(This is to all the men) Ahh, you ever find a woman who is beautiful & has an awesome personality? Well I did & I have been talking to her only to find out that she has a boyfriend. My chances are crushed under the boot of lost love & it doesn't feel good. Is there anyone out there who can relate?

Hello board! I am a longtime lurker, first time poster, not feeling so good at the moment. To keep the post efficient, I'll keep it short and concise. I spoke with a girl yesterday. We go to the same acting course (amateur). After the course, I accompanied her for a while (she lived in another part of the city I live in). So yeah, we talked a bit, and I felt that the conversation ran really smoothly. I got the feeling that she was genuinely interested in talking to me. Anyway, we parted ways, and being energized by our little conversation, I was thinking ''Wow, I really enjoyed that! I want to get to know this girl a little more! I'll contact her and see if she is interested in meeting up sometime!''. This mental state lasted for an hour or so. It became replaced with ''She was just being friendly/polite, she's most likely in a relationship already, she'll think you are weird'', things like that. I decided however, that I would write to her on facebook anyway, despite me thinking I already knew what the outcome would be. So, I wrote to her on facebook the morning after, and asked her if she wanted to meet up some day. Went to school, didn't think about while I was in school. When I came home however, and approached the door to my room, I started to feel confined, Trapped. I started my computer, loaded up facebook, saw that the girl had responded to me. And I couldn't open up the chat to see what she had written. I felt extreme anxiety, shut down facebook and started to pace around in my room for a little while. I have calmed down a notch now. I still feel very anxious when I think about her response to me, but I can at least think now. I haven't read the girls response to me yet. Where could this anxiety come from? Because I understand that is not healthy. Because being rejected by practically a stranger shouldn't be such a big deal really. At least, that's how I rationalize. But it seems I cannot understand this emotionally. I'd appreciate any help/different perspective. Sincerely Yeravos