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Hello! I have a recurrent theme in my dreams: regardless of what I am dreaming about, there often is a moment where I have to do something, but a minute task that prevents me from doing it extends to infinity, effectively blocking me from doing that thing and thus creating a rising sensation of anxiety and helplessness in me. A recent example would be that in the story of my dream, I wanted to travel to a certain city, and some people were waiting for me with their car to take me there. I hadn't payed for it or known them very well, sort of like hitchhiking scenario, so I very much depended on their patience and kindness. So when these people arrived before my house, I went in to get my things. Suddenly, however, there were hundreds of shoes, so I couldn't find mine. It was as if the entire world froze down, and I kept looking for mine with a very slow speed - all the while my anxiety level was rising, knowing that these people would leave if I kept them waiting for too long. After I had finally found it, I remembered that I also have to take my bag, and then the whole idea of searching and not finding began again. When I was in school a different example might be being asked for a homework, and then my bag turning into a container of infinity where there was everything but my homework. The purest form of this dream was when I dreamed that I didn't even have a conscious target or goal, but I just had to do something but my movements and actions all happened in slow-motion, and I knew I wasn't getting to my goal, though I didn't even know what it was. These moments in my dreams never really end in any way, I never get to finish my action or be faced with any consequences of not finishing it. It just keep dreaming on with all the anxiety and feelings of helplessness until something wakes me up. Have you ever had such dreams? I don't feel a sense of lacking control in my real life, so I am in a sense baffled by these dreams. What could they mean? What do they tell me about myself?

My newest article on the difficulties and consequences of being raised in a controlling environment: http://blog.selfarcheology.com/2014/04/the-burden-of-being-over-controlled-as.html