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This post was written during the worst period of time after the most traumatic events of my entire life. I have redacted it, and apologize to those who read it for sharing this experience here. On the bright side, I have been in therapy for ~2 years and am happier, healthier, and wiser than ever before. Peace

Hey everyone. First, I'll give some context. This girl, Athena, I have met through my scholarship group at the University of Utah. She's an Architecture major, and we are also taking an Architectural design class together. I had a crush on her for about 3 weeks, before she basically told me that she could tell and that she would give me a chance. We went on a date, and then she came to the conclusion that she wanted to be together, as I agreed. More on her; she doesn't listen to FDR or isn't too intellectual, but I feel comfortable talking about the topics of philosophy and this show, as well as Ayn Rand etc. and she receives them well. She doesn't reciprocate as much as I'd like, but she is receptive and reactive in a positive way. I like her because she *seems* to have had a fairly positive childhood, and thus is able to nurture a partner well, as I thought. She reacts with disgust toward the topic of child abuse, and when I told her stories about my childhood she demonstrated healthy empathy. She's pretty curious about things, and she wants to understand me. There is one catch though--she's never had a boyfriend, or even kissed a guy. She's 19, and I'm 18. We also talk about a lot in the relationship; our feelings, our worries, concerns, etc. Like for example, we talked about how it was going to be different, because she's never had a boyfriend, and I've never had a girlfriend who hasn't had a boyfriend (no experience). We talked about how we need our own space, and that first we are individuals, and that we don't want to be hanging out with one another if it isn't beneficial to us/makes us happy. But what I don't like, is that it's been like 2 weeks and we've barely held hands--It's very odd for me, to be with a girl who doesn't really know how relationships work, I guess is how I would put it. She doesn't know how to really initiate physical affection, even if she wants it. Also, she's very busy as an Architecture major, and doesn't have a lot of time--something we've talked about, and I acknowledge she has little control over. So, the dilemma is that I don't know if it's good for me to let myself be in a romantic relationship but logistically not be a high priority (due to time commitments). I.e. I think it's hard for me to say "I am good, important, and have valuable things to offer in a romantic relationship." While being with someone who only the capacity to date as more of a casual, rather than close interaction. Hopefully that made some sense, and I'd like some input, questions, etc. I'm pretty ambivalent at the moment, even thought I like her and think I would like to continue the relationship; I plan to talk to her about this, but I wanted to know what all the smarties on the FDR board thought, haha.

Hello board! I am a longtime lurker, first time poster, not feeling so good at the moment. To keep the post efficient, I'll keep it short and concise. I spoke with a girl yesterday. We go to the same acting course (amateur). After the course, I accompanied her for a while (she lived in another part of the city I live in). So yeah, we talked a bit, and I felt that the conversation ran really smoothly. I got the feeling that she was genuinely interested in talking to me. Anyway, we parted ways, and being energized by our little conversation, I was thinking ''Wow, I really enjoyed that! I want to get to know this girl a little more! I'll contact her and see if she is interested in meeting up sometime!''. This mental state lasted for an hour or so. It became replaced with ''She was just being friendly/polite, she's most likely in a relationship already, she'll think you are weird'', things like that. I decided however, that I would write to her on facebook anyway, despite me thinking I already knew what the outcome would be. So, I wrote to her on facebook the morning after, and asked her if she wanted to meet up some day. Went to school, didn't think about while I was in school. When I came home however, and approached the door to my room, I started to feel confined, Trapped. I started my computer, loaded up facebook, saw that the girl had responded to me. And I couldn't open up the chat to see what she had written. I felt extreme anxiety, shut down facebook and started to pace around in my room for a little while. I have calmed down a notch now. I still feel very anxious when I think about her response to me, but I can at least think now. I haven't read the girls response to me yet. Where could this anxiety come from? Because I understand that is not healthy. Because being rejected by practically a stranger shouldn't be such a big deal really. At least, that's how I rationalize. But it seems I cannot understand this emotionally. I'd appreciate any help/different perspective. Sincerely Yeravos