So I was standing in my kitchen when my Mother showed up. Usually, I would get very anxious and uncomfortable. But this time she said that she needed to tell me something. She then went into a long apology and asked me how I felt. Said that she would be willing to do anything to try and build that relationship that was never built as a child. I had been going to Therapy for a while at this point. I hadn't talked to her about anything, and was working out how to approach the subject with her with my therapist. There was nothing expected from the apology. Nothing. Not even a relationship, as she said that she knows that asking for a relationship now was terribly difficult, but she was willing to put the time in.
I was taken off guard. But Holy Shit... I'm not going to lie, this was a moving moment. My knees went weak, and my heart nearly stopped. I couldn't place the feeling. We are talking. She is making the initiatives. This is so out of her normal pattern that it has to be true. For the first time in twenty years, I trust her.
Parents can change. She started doing self work and therapy herself and acted towards starting to repair the damage of her past. I felt that this should be shared with this community. Not to give anyone false hope. Not for any reason but to say that this has happened... the evidence for change exists.
Thank you for reading.
C