Contracts and the persona-viruses

[Zangetshumody]

I'm trying to develop a science of diagnosing and treating persona-viruses. The basic idea goes something like this:

Life is essentially meaningless, this gives us the opportunity to make of life, whatever we will. And so when life is marked by trauma, there is some belief set-up that we have been ensnared by that traps us in a particular struggle that keeps on generating consequences due to our filtering of experience through the belief set-up. There are some books which dicuss this stuff, where these belief set-ups are called contracts, where parts of the scope of your intention (or 'soul') are repressed as they will not submit to the consequence of the contract (aka the trauma). A lot of the repressed soul stuff is just a folklore interpretation of the motions of the subconscious;- the latent awareness of the individual that needs expression through 'gut feelings' (as just one example) is the mark of repression, or unintegrated awareness with the incompatiable ego-consciousness.

I've went to a Sangoma (African Shaman), and I was able to discern my contract with recourse to traveling into my subconscious through aided meditation. This was very interesting to me, because it put my persona-virus diagnosis into context...

Contract: Everyone should care for me.

Trap: Justice-help. 

Trauma: lack of attention, love and care.

Struggle: judging other people's greed in terms of their non-compliance with my contract.

(his suggested treatment): just finish what you start.   (below is a diagnoses of my persona-virus in terms of my Metagram theory)

	Flow chart (traveling down):	Description:
	Primal desire (borne from the want experienced by lacking the specific content of the primal gap) [urges&darr]	Wanting thoughts about how I think things are that would permit me to be elated/worried regarding my intellectualization of ‘why things ought to be [a certain way]’
	Imaginary true character (an imaginary substitution of a natural self with a pretend character designed to induce exchanges that produce the primal gap) [incurs&darr]	Imagining feelings about how things ought to be so that I’m confused/annoyed regarding my reasoning of ‘how things shall be’
	Temptation (an alluring predicament that seduces the imagined sense of self) [urges&darr]	Lured by beliefs about why things are the way they are which would allow me to be angry regarding my opinion of ‘why things are a certain way’
	Gratification (when temptation is acted upon, the imaginary character is gratified; and the primal desire is unfulfilled) [incurs&darr]	Gratified by beliefs about what ought to be so that I’m angry regarding my intellectualization of ‘why things ought to be [a certain way]’
	Repercussion (the consequence one undergoes when the gratification is undertaken and primal desire frustrated) [urges&darr]	Undergoing feelings about reality (what things are) which would make me confused/annoyed regarding my notion of ‘what will be’
	Death (response of resistance towards the temptation with the outlook of revoking the repercussion; seems so hollow because it doesn’t appease the imaginary character or the primal desire [which incurs its persistence])	Undertaking thoughts about why things ought to be [a certain way] so that I’m elated/worried regarding my opinion of ‘why things are a certain way’

 

I'm not sure yet how I'm going to marry these inputs (the contract to the diagnoses), in my theory there are 48 types of viruses, all in all containing 72 possible specific processes... well, just thought Id share where I am with my personal development in the attempt to reclaim my life from kharma and false ego.....

[Pepin]

I am a little confused on how to respond to your post, but I am also quite intrigued. Can you provide a little more background in regaurds to the theory you are talking about?