lisacoogias Posted August 14, 2014 Posted August 14, 2014 Hi, this is my first time posting and am unsure of where to start. I've always tried to do good things and be a good person (whatever that means, basically being nice to others) but where has the real, rational thought been lurking? Discovering the consistent use of logic by Stefan has left me feeling lost.. I've made so many grievous errors and I'm not sure how to right the wrongs. I slip into guilt and depression for all of my own past bullshit and have a difficult time tolerating myself when I make further mistakes. I try. My family suffers. I want to move forward from where we are now. My kids are 12, 10, 8, and 6. I chose poorly and there was abuse in our family. I'm no longer with my husband. My 10 year old needs a lot of help and I don't feel I'm adequately equipped to help the way he needs. He goes into dark loops and says things like how he knows that I hate him and why don't I just kill him, why can't he just kill himself, and this has been going on for years. I try to be there, and it's difficult with the intensity. I'm at a loss sometimes. 1
MysterionMuffles Posted August 14, 2014 Posted August 14, 2014 Hey welcome to the FDR Boards. First posts like this make me glad that newcomers understand they're in a safe place to be vulnerable, but also it saddens because of the subject matter that is vulnerable to share. What kind of abusive existed in your family in regards to your own kids and husband? Have you since had discussions with your kids about the divorce and the abuse and promised to make restitution?
Luirru Posted August 19, 2014 Posted August 19, 2014 https://board.freedomainradio.com/topic/40853-book-recommendations/ I have been reading the books listed here and made by Stefan, they are REALLY helpful and can help out. I devoured one every couple of days, while my kid is too young for a lot of the techniques it gives me time to learn how to incorporate them into my thinking for when they are your age. I highly recomend reading them, they could help out quite a bit. My friend has a 10/6/4 year old and the books helped him with his eldest who is suicidal.
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