Katkat Posted March 3, 2015 Posted March 3, 2015 I just recently started listening FDR and having conversations with a friend about finding true self,about relationships, about my childhood etc., and it didn't turn out well on both sides. And all I could think off as a reason(I am sure there are more reasons then this one) is the thing that I wasn't honest with myself, which means that I couldn't be honest with him either. Since this relationship (I guess) did not survive.I do not have anyone to talk to about this. And the thing that bothers me most is that I can't trust to myself, so I started (over)questioning every single thing that comes to my mind. Because I came to some thoughts earlier that I considered to be true, and it wasn't that hard, and didn't turn out to be true.So I am afraid that I will continue doing things in easy way and wrong way(I am still trying not to be conformist) and maintain in being constantly contradictory with myself. I do not feel alone, I feel lonely in this process of mine, cause my current friends do not get me AT ALL, but are constantly trying to spend time with me, and I am too scared to stop all of them, so I am trying to have constructive conversations with them, but it's not happening. And it is really tough and depressing, so I would like to meet someone that can connect on this and maybe skype sometime. 2
AynRand Posted March 3, 2015 Posted March 3, 2015 I'd be happy to talk with you or anyone who is reading my post. My skype ID is aynrandfdr. I'm in college right now so I'm not on all the time, but when I am it is always nice to talk with fellow FDR members.
Bouncelot Posted March 3, 2015 Posted March 3, 2015 Waking up can be very tough. Especially since the lies can be so appealing. It takes true courage to take the steps you have taken so far! Have you considered therapy? Do you journal? It really helps to have an objective person to help us stay honest with ourselves. Feel free to add me: bouncelot1
Katkat Posted March 3, 2015 Author Posted March 3, 2015 Well, as I am becoming more aware of the lies I told myself, and I can not proudly say that I am very courageous person, since I have very big deal with breaking bad habits and stuff that are a lot easier to do than those inner stuff. Since I am I student, and I can't still afford good therapist, I am trying to journal, it seems a bit more helpful then I thought it would be. That is the way I caught myself in these delusions I had. I would love to hear from you. Thanks
Bouncelot Posted March 4, 2015 Posted March 4, 2015 Becoming self aware, and asking yourself the hard questions is a courageous act. And the first step!
Alice Amell Posted March 9, 2015 Posted March 9, 2015 I really relate to feeling surrounded by people whom I cannot have meaningful conversations with. I'm usually online if you'd want to talk about it. My Skype is evelynphoenix
Drew. Posted March 18, 2015 Posted March 18, 2015 It really is a difficult thing to start looking at oneself and realize where we fall short of our ideals. It'll be a struggle, but it'll be so rewarding. I wish you the best. Also, I want to reach out, I offer therapy at an affordable rate (30 to 50 USD/per session), and I know several other quality therapists who offer the same rate as well.
Hayden Posted March 20, 2015 Posted March 20, 2015 The original post really rings home, i'm more or less in the same boat right now actually but don't have the courage to move forth to new relationships yet....I hope your pursuit goes well comrade! P.S. @Drew Woods Do you do online skype-like sessions or something? If so do you pay with something like paypal? I've been thinking about doing therapy and might be interested in what you offer, cheers. 1
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