MRW Posted March 12, 2015 Posted March 12, 2015 I've been in therapy for roughly a year and I've gained a lot of insights from my therapists and from the show. Yet, there's a certain amount of recoil that I feel when I try to really think about my feelings and about what I'm doing in the present. I recognize that this might sound a little abstract but it's as if there's a mental block and I feel like I just can't get there. When I feel the desire to journal, I can produce a lot of writing but sometimes I question if it helps at all because I'm not adding anything that I haven't thought about to some degree before. I feel like I'm rationalizing and stating the obvious when I journal and not making much progress. When I think about listening to my alter egos in a delicate manner, I second guess everything about what is true self and what is false self. This is where I feel quite a bit of fear and repulsion. I think this might be the case because I wasn't listened to much as a kid. Yet, I don't really know how to overcome this resistance. Have you had experience with these feelings of resistance, fog, and fear?
Olle Persson Posted March 12, 2015 Posted March 12, 2015 Well just remember its a part of you who is second guess everything about what is true self and what is false self. You can be curious as to why it feels the need to do that. As far as I understand it, you don't really reach your true self maybe if you become a monk but rather you get alter egos to step back so there is sufficient self energy available to be curious/heal and so.
Drew. Posted March 18, 2015 Posted March 18, 2015 Have you mentioned this to your therapist? He/she might be able to offer more insight. I've had plenty of experience with those kinds of things. If I were encountering this situation (I would definitely struggle for a bit before figuring out that...) I would wonder if this doubt that I'm experiencing is a part of me, and then see if I can listen to it and see what it has to share.
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