mike durland

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Thanks bro.

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I exercise a fair amount I think. I work at a sawmill several days a week lifting heavy boards and moving logs all day. I also like photography so every chance I get I will go somewhere and walk for miles taking pics of just about everything. My son likes hiking and backpacking so we try to do that as we can afford it. I hate sitting for too long, I like to do stuff.

What kind of emotional trauma do you think brought on your overeating? A lifetime of mental abuse from the closest people in my life. How do you feel when you get the urge to eat? I suppress a lot of feelings, so I am still working on that. What do you feel if you don't eat? It’s weird, because sometimes I feel really good when I do not eat. I don’t know.

Were there any major events in your past that hurt you? The more I de-normalize my past (and present) I come to realize that I have been a victim of some serious mental abuse by just about everyone around me (I must attract abusers) for my entire life. 99% of that has changed within the past year and a half. As of now me and my son are in a social bubble of our own. One of our goals is to save up enough money to move to the Blue Ridge Liberty Project in Ashville NC.

How do you feel about your body? How do you feel about yourself? For the most part I feel pretty good unless I look in the mirror or see a picture or video if myself then I have negative feelings… kinda like my internal perception of myself is better than what I actually am. I feel like I look better than I actually do. I feel like I sound better than I actually do. I feel like I am smarter than I actually am… and so on. In what situations do you overeat, when do you crave certain foods, and what kinds? With the help of my son I have cut out all high-fructose corn syrup out of my diet. I try to eat as much fruits and vegatables as possible and eat less processed foods. Do you eat for emotional reasons, or when you're not physically hungry? Yes, I’ll eat when I don’t feel comfortable or when I am stressed. How is your relationship with yourself? Still working on that. Do you like yourself? Yes, Too much it seems. What is your history with food? 37+ years of nutritional ignorance. How did your parents treat food when you were a child? It was no structure or real understanding of nutrition but my mom would go on “diets” from time to time… it was also a little ‘feast or famine’ at times. You say you've lost weight, but you're still struggling. What do your struggles look like, if you want to share them? Most of my stress in the past 5 years or so has been financial and I have continued the ‘feast or famine’ lifestyle carried over from my parents. So when I have no money or I am stressed to the point of mental gridlock then I will tend to overeat if there is food available.

Anakin Skywalker = True Self Darth Vader = False Self ?

I’m overweight. I have lost 30lbs since my self-knowledgejourney began but I am still struggling. Stef’s recent video on the false-self really opened my eyesa little more. I think I understand but I would love some clarification. Could overeating be a form of self-medication to suppressthe emotional pain from suppressing the true self? Could excess body fat be aphysical manifestation of emotional scar tissue in this case?

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What is it about expressing your own feelings that causes people to 'express their own feelings'?

If parents or a parent was able to take care of their child when they were 4 years old (before school age) then they should have no problem maintaining that care. Like Stef said in the past, parents can cut back on their lifestyle in order to avoid subjecting their kid(s) to abuse. You are contradicting your previous post... BTW cutting back to a more sustainable lifestyle does not constitute an expense imo

If parents or a parent was able to take care of their child when they were 4 years old (before school age) then they should have no problem maintaining that care. Like Stef said in the past, parents can cut back on their lifestyle in order to avoid subjecting their kid(s) to abuse. You are contradicting your previous post... I added that statement for the parents who have already put their kids in public school and have relied on it as a babysitter.