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Best album I've heard for philosophy liberty (probably unintentional) is Scary Kids Scaring Kids self titled album. Here's the first track, gets me AMPED:

I was inoculated by Stef in his first guest spot on the Peter Schiff show. I liked his calm unassuming thoughtfulness and made a fleeting mental note of his name to look him up later on. I followed up months later, maybe after I was reminded of him listening to his second guest spot on the Schiff show, or maybe not until he guest hosted, it's startling unclear thinking back. It was a slow trickle from there, I would add a few FDR podcasts to my MP3 player among the long list of Schiff episodes and Joe Rogan Experience podcasts. I vividly remember Stef introducing Mike as his new operations guy which is how I am able to measure exactly when I started listening to FDR. May of 2013 must have been the time I started listening to 3-4 FDR podcasts a day. After a year of abstinence from weed, in July of 2013 I started smoking again which disrupted my ability to emotionally connect to the FDR content, and I remember being sad and torn between my desire to self medicate and my desire to gain self knowledge. Stef helped me see that I could not do both, and I managed to stop smoking in September of 2013, at which point my appetite for and consumption of FDR podcasts skyrocketed, though with great ambivalence. I distinctly remember a new and sporadic feeling of gut wrenching anger and impatience at the sound of Stef's voice.as I would listen to five or more podcasts a day. Sometimes I would turn the podcast off, seething, until ten or twenty minutes passed and I couldn't help but put my brain and heart back in the fire. Sometimes I couldn't take but five minutes at a time. Stopping. Starting. Stopping and telling myself no more today, then starting again five minutes later. Once I started donating the burning anger and hopelessness eased some and I was able to ride out the frustrations with fewer stops. I dove in to the premium content January/February of this year and finished it all, and shortly after called in to a show which, coupled with follow up feedback email correspondence with Mike, accelerated the imminent breakup of my first and only long term relationship to date. The breakup, following my subscription to FDR, was the second concrete block in my foundation of virtue. I'm now focusing on restitution, living my values, and leading my siblings, who three out of four are thankfully thus far willing to follow, into the deep and ugly and painful and humiliating truth that is giving us our reviving breaths of real relationships with one another, and glimpses of glimmering happiness.that was robbed from us through manipulation, exploitation and the maddening maze of self attacking narratives our family vomited into our souls.