Olle Persson

That makes sense, I mean I was stuck in the wind and she wasn't.

Great questions, thanks for taking the time. a. Well I meet an old childhood friend yesterday that I haven't seen in a few years other than that there is nothing especially significant happening that I can think of. b. It's actually hard for me to see 'her' as a aspect of me, but she does represent a need for me that I can't fulfill on my own, like a need of acceptance c. I'm really not sure, I have to think about that. d. Well seeing and getting 'her' invitation was welcomed and I didn't like that she disappeared. But also I didn't like that I had to play this game of getting 'her' attention or interest, that I had to hide my emotions and feelings towards 'her' and trying to get her attention by the act of ending the conversation. Well I could choose how I wanted to interact with 'her', but I didn't feel that I wasn't in control of myself in the dream. The storm was definitely outside of my control though. I think I felt weighted down by the responsibility of the interaction with 'her' outside of the cafe, she sort of represented a freedom, she could do what ever she liked but I was emotionally dependent of the outcome, that 'she' would invite me. I wasn't emotionally free to simply leave without her because then I would have felt such loneliness. I mean this translates very much to reality if I think of her as my ex-girlfriend. e. I don't understand this question. Do you mean, why did 'she' went along with the 'script' and not comment on why I ended the conversation? f. I liked her personality, she had no problem being honest, no shame of telling what she actually feels, a waiter once asked if she liked the food and she simply said, "no I didn't like it". A sort of sternness that I feel I lack myself but would like to have. And obviously she's very attractive as well. She also did fill a need in me of having company. I don't think I have any special thing that reminds me of her, thoughts of her simply pops up, like imaging what I could have said or done differently.

I had an interesting dream this morning which I would like to share with you and I also would greatly appreciate some help analyzing. Backstory: I had a relationship with my ex girlfriend for about 5-6 months about a year ago. She really liked me in the beginning but it ended with her wanting to stay friends instead as the relationship progressed. I didn't think that would work for me so we parted ways. She has since found a well paying job she really wanted and moved on with her life. Part of me have not gotten over her and still misses her and hopes to get back together. The dream: So the dream started with me seeing my ex girlfriend in some kind of cafe in the city, this cafe had a maze like outdoor serving veranda covered in glass where people was sitting down. I was navigating myself through multiple tight doorways which i almost had to squeezed myself through until I got outside. Finally outside she is now in front of me and I felt relieved and happy seeing her. (I wasn't feeling as anxious as I do if I happen to see here in real life). We are doing some catching up and she said something about how she likes that she is surrounded by water where she works. *The place she works for in real life has a building that is in fact surrounded by water, although I don't she works in this particular building. While we're talking I wanted to end the conversation pretty quickly, not because I didn't want to talk to her, but so as to seem as I was not clinging on to her, like I had no romantic feelings for her and to prove that to her that by suddenly exiting the conversation. To assert myself and my independence. * I Hope this makes sense. As I finally said "Well it was nice seeing you, take care" and started turning left to walk away, she suddenly looked surprised and invited me saying something like, "Why don't we go together?". I got surprised at her invitation but I could help myself in accepting the invitation and I was feeling happy and hopeful, like this was the outcome I had hoped for. However. The wind was picking up and suddenly the wind with a storm like force was pushing me back and I was forced to lean ridiculously into the wind, think Michael Jackson lean, struggling to get my footing down to counter the wind and move forward. However I did not move much at all and the wind was picking up sand, leaves and debris making it difficult to see. I lost sight of her, she was now nowhere to be seen and I tough she must be much further away from me. I was looking for her further down a steepening road but couldn't see her. I started to wonder how she could manage this wind/storm when she is much lighter and not as strong as me. Then I wake up. The key parts in the dream I feel are: - Maze like glassed in veranda with very small door openings. I was almost to big to get through - Her inviting me to join her - The storm/wind - Losing sight of her - Step downhill road ahead What are your thoughts? Is this dream about my ex or does it represent something else? Thanks for taking the time to read this, if you have any comment or suggestion please feel free to share.

I think music can sometimes be a message carrier with information to ourself, I sometimes find my self singing the chorus "My lonliness is killing me" from Baby One More Time - Britney Spears, even though I don't listen to Britney Spears. So i don't regard music as avoidance in that sense, more as information from the subconcious. I've listened to a band called Keane since my teenage years, and I love their songs becuase the singer a very friendly, open and loving voice which a part of me finds soothing, and the songs express emotional honesty to me which allows me to connect with myself. So that is another effect music has on me. But everyone uses music for different reasons of course so I don't think it's black and white. Yes I think you are right in that love song has a desperate/co-dependent undertone, lyrics like "I cant live without you" really carry that message.

Glad you liked it! Thanks Joel!

Hey everyone, just finished a 3d-render I made with the theme of origins of violence. What do you think? Love to hear your input!

I tried SJW for 5 weeks, different brands and doses but it didn't helped me in anyway unfortunately. Also I tried acupuncture and massage but didn't really help either. So since yesterday I've started taking Anti-depressant and will see for the coming weeks if it can be beneficial. Man I hope it helps cause I'm running out of options here.

Well just remember its a part of you who is second guess everything about what is true self and what is false self. You can be curious as to why it feels the need to do that. As far as I understand it, you don't really reach your true self maybe if you become a monk but rather you get alter egos to step back so there is sufficient self energy available to be curious/heal and so.

I really enjoy hearing you talk of your experiences, I can relate to some of them. In a way that is what I would like to happen i therapy, that when the protector part comes up the therapist maybe talks about his experiences instead of simply wating. Yes, I have a part who is very fearful of beeing jugded, I fell anxious opening my email usually and seeing contentious topics on facebook really activates this part and recieving critisism, yeesh thats a tuff one even though benign. I can caught my inner critics sometimes and I really understand how scared they are of judgments. I've started taking one beer in the evening, its a nice way to end the day for me. Thanks for the tips.

Thanks for the input, I was suprised when he recomended that route and didn't help me explore the depression, although I didn't have any desire to even speak so I think he felt a little paralysed. A part of me believes that no one cares about me and that part filters every interaction I have with people, maybe a different therapist could help I'm not sure. I skeptical too, I have a bad feeling about SSRI with all negative publication so I'd rather not go that route. About the food, I try to avoid package food all together and cook food by myself, but I've no interest in actively investigating additives.

I need som input. I'm stuck between a anger/annoyance/irritation part and a depressive/tired/uninterested part, behind the anger is sadness which I occasionally experience until I fall back the depressed part. And on and on it fucking goes (A frustrated part of me). I've gone to IFS therapy for a year now but in recent sessions I didn't want to talk to my therapist, I just sat mute for which he recommeded me to temporarly take anti-depressants, to get the depressed part to step back so work can continue, I've started takning Saints Johns Wort a few days back now to see if that could help but in the mean time I'm basically annoyed and depressed through out the day. Have anyone been in a similar situation and what do you think taking alleopathic anti-depressant temporarily? Haven't felt any difference with the saints johns wort yet.

I've just recently realized the same thing, I was shielded from connecting with my feelings. I love when I can connect with my emotions its a wonderful feeling of relief, I and feel a genuine connection with myself in those moments. I have a part of me who takes the lead in trying to connect but that doesn't work so I'm still learning how to connect with myself, but one tip I can give is, to see if you can accept the feeling/s you are experiencing without judgement and without trying to connect, just be with those feelings. If you have any tips I would love to hear them.

Where is that quote that from?

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"On reflecting, I think I'll make progress more quickly if I use the stronger emotions for mental processing and save the playing for the spaces between. Processing requires a lot more active effort, that I can't do if I'm playing" I just wanted to share my impression on this sentence. I get the impression that a part of you just wants to process your traumatic past as quickly as possible, that's great sure, but I think it's important not to rush these things, some things takes time. I used to actively push myself to journal and introspect but I later realized that it wasn't from a place of curiosity or empathy for myself, a part of me just wanted to get the "problem" over with, and it didn't work out. So avoid the trap I went into and save yourself time. I don't know if this even applies to you, but that is what I got reading your comment.