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That's a beautiful message Eh Steve.

Yeah great share KidBlondie!

I agree Mathew. Great answer.

Thanks for sharing your experience and thoughts Joel.

Thanks for sharing bruce. Your sisters were very lucky to have someone play with them.

Hey Gary. Hunker in the bunker. I really like that. The triggering setting me off for days is so true. Past Christmas times has set me back years and i froze and suffered. Just acknowledging how i cant cope gives me some comfort. You say you'd rather set yourself on fire instead of doing x. I say to myself i'l fucking kill myself or just go wherever instead of do the same shit that I know realize triggers me so easily. This year I did okay. I have a back injury(which is healing) so i had an excuse. I live at home on welfare(welfare eh?). I would consider a lot of what i do as survival at the moment. I'm glad u talked to your friends. Processing for me is letting go and not thinking of it as that but just feeling when stuff comes up.If i get stuck or freeze no problem. My golden rule is get alone so i don't do shit i'll regret or get that trapped rage or anger bubbling up feeling. If i think too much i get scared cause I know there is massive suffering inside.so I let myself get distracted or do something. Hope that makes sense. Friend wise, the ones around are fine for distraction and meaninglessness and I enjoy myself better mostly.

Thanks for the post Gary. So concise and beautiful. "I have no wreckage to clean up. no serious depression to get over". I can relate. This post brings up a lot of heavy emotions. I try to self knowledge it up as best i can. What I remind myself to do is get away to my room and get to myself if i'm on my way to acting out or feeling the pressure. Keep it as simple as possible is a good reminder for me. Christmas is gonna Christmas so I try to remove myself from a lot of it.

Thanks Sasha. Great information and delivery. I agree Matt.

I enjoyed reading this as well. Thanks for taking the time to write it.

Thanks for that post dsayers.

Hello Mentus Great to have you here. I hope you'll enjoy it and grow. What sci-fi movies do you like? There are people here who like video games here so you might get talking to them.

Hey Sindre! Congrats on standing up for yourself and Good luck with all the great things your working towards. You've joined a great place

I would like to meet up in the future for sure. Just have to sort out back issues first(sciatica). I live in mayo though. Hopefully more Irish show up here. Nice to meet you both .

Great stuff joel. Thank you.

Interesting Sage. My feeling watching or thinking about these things is often fear and hopelessness. Which is great for people who don't want you to think calmly like those in power. Like parents make you think they know whats right but often we grow up and find they were full of shit. Keep you in worship mode or fear as long as your not in the way.