Ian_Malmstrom

I don´t have much to say which hasn´t already been said, but i too just really want to offer my sympathies, I can´t even imagine your situation. It´s Good to hear that you have a job and that you have a roof to be under, albeit your mothers roof. I understand the moral behind yelling at a person and being verbaly abusive, but if there is someone who deserves it it´s your mother. In any case, hope you get out soon, and keep us posted on how it goes.

My gut tells me that i won´t be happy in the present school and that i wont get a huge lot och human capital out of it either, but in order to do that i have to work on my self-dicipline and procrastination, which have been a problem for me previously. I think a more free education would be fitting (which exists), but that would require self-dicipline and to gain that i think i´ll have to delve a bit deeper and find the source of my de-motivation. It´s always been like that, i find it easy to just drop stuff and blame things out of my control, making excuses and such. I´ve tried to change that behaviour but that would require finding its source. I am motivated by the world and all possibilities, but i feel very demotivated by the state the world is in, which is part of the reason i don´t think the current school is fitting. I don´t even think there is a possibility of taking final exams, not in that way at least, there is for the national university-tests, but that´s quite a bit over my current level of knowledge. The most worriesome thing is meeting people, since really getting immersed in philosophy and anarchism i´ve been more or less disgusted by statists, and demotivated because of the huge social acceptance they get. What´s your experience of dealing with an anti-philosophical environment? do you simply escape it?

The education in sweden is quite pro free thinking on paper, there is openness in education and there is a general aura of relativism "there is no absolute truth" thinking. However there is a more subte form of propaganda, in which the narrative of education is really screwed up, especially in the social studies fields, like how the educations narrative is "the marshal plan saved europe" and so on. Being a dissident is, at least in my school discouraged on a social level, several students have used shaming tecniques like speaking racist and stuff like that. The relevancy for career is not null, but there are tons of things that are useless. since it´s a statist system there isn´t much correlation between what the market wants and what you learn. the school focuses on "Education for sustainable development", but in my view it´s just a bunch of applying power-analysis on everything and enabling of state power by saying global warming is too serious. The education is mostly relevant because of the door to academia it unlocks, which is more or less needed if you want to get into engineering/economist fields. We have much of maths and biology and some social sciences, but as previously mentioned the whole education is presented from the "sustainable development" narrative, exept for maths. I plan on entrepenourship/ becoming an economist later in my life, but before making a career i plan on escaping sweden, i´ve actually been looking in to the free state project and NH. The students have an extreme leftist-mentality, i have litterally just found one out of 35 who doesn´t define as a feminist. The teachers are try to keep their opinions out of the education, with quite many exeptions, especially in the way they reward the "right" POV but just go "meh" over something that happens to be right wing. 90% of the education is manditory and non-choosable, there are two classes that you are able to choose, them being english 7, maths 5, German/french/spanish 4 and physics 2. Sweden´s educational system is really hot politically and there is tons of bullcrap the politicians say will "fix" everything. The whole system is under the control of the state, with a national curriculum which dictates the exact amount of hours the students are to be taught, and of which subjects. Swedish education isn´t focused on creating a youth ready to get into the job market, it rather focuses on letting every student prusue his/her own "dream", at the expence of everyone.

Hi. I¨m from Sweden and i recently started going to a school which is really well known for being leftist. I don´t really know if i mae an informed decision when deciding, with some social pressure guiding me to that position. Anyhow, to the problem/question: The school in which i go is really, really leftist. The results of our school-elections gave 30% for swedens radical feminist-pseudo communist party, and 30% for the feminist greens. I´ve also been faced with a lot of social ostracism and open derision, with some people openly insulting me. I do have many friends around me (who all are hardcore statists, something im quite critical of) who arent happy with my situation, but they arent exactly overly engaged. I chose the school primarily from a "know your enemy" kind of standpoint, wanting to learn the way socialists think more accurately, but i kinda got that after a week... they don´t respond to logic, likely related to childhood trauma, but i cant break through all the defence mechanisms an have a genuine conversation. Im now faced with the problem of not really recieving usable education (although the education is supposed to be objective and follow curriculums the teachers are not very objective, neither is the education). I´m also not feeling connection to the people and the environment im in, which chouldn´t really be surprising. I don´t know wether to stay in school for the first year and then change, or drop education and focus on finding work and working on self knowlege more, to return to education next year. I´m at a loss about what to do or how to even deal with the situation in school. And FYI, the Swedish educational system is really, really heavily regulated, so there isn´t really any way to escape the propaganda anyhow.

The relationship between me and my mother is going well, i have helped her realize some of her problems related to her own childhood which i think has helped the situation at home quite a lot (these behaviours are mostly making things about her, saying "i did the best i could" or "what did i do wrong?". She simply assumes the victim-role as a manipulative trick). I havent made many advances with my father, sadly. He has many emotional defence mechanisms related to his childhood, so i never get far in discussions before him becoming defensive. I have just made a commitment to self knowledge though, just started journaling and taking notes of my dreams for later analysis, but i really want to did deep in my childhood since i dont remember much from before i was 6-7. I´d really apreciate advice on self-knowledge and ways of working on it withot a therapist, since i dont really have anyone close to me capable of discussing these things.

Hello! Really glad to be here. I´ve been listening to the youtube videos for about a year and have played around with the thought of really getting into this community for the same amount of time, and a couple days ago manned up and made the decision to join the FDR forums and becoming a donator. I´m Ian, I´m a 16 year old Male from Sweden, Stockholm. Now to the intro: I´ve always been really critical of authority with incidents tracing all the way back to kindergarten. I´ve sought truth and thus come to several conclutsions politically, Before finding FDR, i identified as a Sweden democrat (Nationalist party of sweden), Before that i liked the green environmentalist party. My childhood (that i´d say really isnt over quite yet) has been problematic but not very disfunctional to me. My parents divorced when i was two years old, With a result of mixed custody with parent shifts by a weekly basis. My mother soon met a new man who she married after two years of being together, He too was divorced with two children, so the family was quite hard to get together, with big problems with parental relationships, i never thought of my moms new husband as a father and vice versa for his children with relation to my mom. My Mother is a liberal christian with who generally has given me relatively much freedom during my childhood, this, however was not without the involvment of her autoritative husband, who used verbal abuse and sometimes got physical (Grabbing my arm very hard, carrying me away and slamming me down on a chair and once slapping me) Me and my biological sister where quite harmed by this divorce and new family constellation, with my sister first having a romantic relationship with a sociopath for two years, resulting in her becoming an Anorectic. I was 14 at the time and i was introduced to this person and formed what i at the time would have called a friendship, but likely in reality was an exploitive "relationship". I´ve for a long time, and especially after my time in contact with said sociopath, had a hard time getting motivation to do stuff, ranging from simple tasks to life itself, As a solution ive explored different subjects, with the most serious being psychedelics as a way to gain self knowlege. However, i abandoned that approach because it´s better to gain self knowledge from logic and objective morality, even though psychedelics have shown great results in working through childhood trauma. Now that i write this i realize that i´ve been a relativist for a large part of my life, not fully percieving people as fully human and treating them as machines. At times i analyzed everyone surrounding me as machines, simply carryiong out tasks, with input and output only based on their childhood and life. My journey on the road of self-knowledge has only begun and i don´t really know how to take the next steps of exploring my early childhood and applyong morality to individuals in my surroundings universaly. Currently i´m Studying on a Far-left school in Stockholm, with an as homogeneous a composition of opinions as the NSDAP. I chose that school as i thought it would give me a better perspective of the statist and more specifically the left position as well as getting experience in arguing the socialist position. I don´t think it was a mistake, but i have only gone to the school for a couple months. so i dont know what problems might arise in the future. This text got much longer than intended.. Well anyways, Kudos to you who read through all through; I look forward to getting to speaking to you .