Cioran

I know in my previous post I mentioned that I do feel alone, and I do, but what I mean earlier on in my earlier posts is that I didn't feel alone as in the person having issues like my own and knowing that there are others who are suffering the same way I am brought comfort. Make sense?

Things my parents did to me as a child. People around me and how they treated me. I removed them from my life and it's all the better for it. I've even confronted my parents, my mom seemed apologetic but it was more of, what does Stefan call it, a fake sorry? I can't remember what he calls it, I will need to look for the videos where he talks about it. My father was completely blank, he just didn't care, he was to busy watching TV. I've realized that a lot of the people I would accosiate with weren't very virtuious and I always had a problem with that but I just kind of accepted it because I didn't have anyone and I didn't want to be alone. But, it's only now that I realized, after the several videos and some of the books I was reading on this website, where I was already alone if those people were treating me that way. Talking trash to me when I asked them not to, getting upset when I brought up the questions of morality in their actions. They would manipulate me with emotions and threats of being alone because they knew I didn't want to be alone. I've just had a lot of problems. I've had romantic relationships where things seemed fine, then one day they just decide I am not good enough, they start treating me differently and it hurts and when I try to talk to them about it, how what they did made me feel. They just sorta got upset, didn't want to listen, wanted me to come back to them when I was happy. I've noticed a lot of people I meet are hedonistic, they feel the ultimate goal in life is happiness and achieving that at any cost is ok. Your friend is sad? He listened to you when you were sad, but you don't need to listen to him because it's not happy for you to do so, type thing. I am just very glad I found these videos and it has helped me see the things I already saw but didn't want to face and hearing Stefan talk and give encoruagement to others facing similar problems gave me courage to face my problems. Does that make any sense? Even though this transition is tough from cutting out so many people who were part of my daily life and who had been around for so long, they were familiar, comfortable to me. My normal wasn't normal and adjusting to this new normal is challengeing. Yes it is nicer, my quality of life has improved termendously but, I cared about these people, especially one person in particular, and having them out of my life just hurts, to remember how cruel they were to me at times when I was nothing but supportive of them.This call in particular reminded me of myself.http://youtu.be/i8MVokW5hJs?t=9m30s

Where should I post current life dilemmas or expierences I have had?

Hello, My name for now is Cioran. I found this show one day surfing facebook and found a youtube video link to the "Mythology of the Working Mom." The Title sounded interesting to me and peaked my intrest, so I decided to listen. I am so glad I did, as that is pretty much how I start my day, with a daily dose of Freedomainradio. Listening to the show has brought several things to my attention and has helped me feel not alone and it is greatly appreciated.Thank you again,Cioran