Dirty Dan

I hear you loud and clear, but when I think about leaving her with no clear path to a better woman, I just get worried and eventually give up in the idea because of the fear that I will no longer have a sexual partner. I get that it's my dick thinking, but I still am extremely resistant, especially because between my and my friends, this is the dream girl physically.

Thank you, Lens. I am going to therapy and working out my family problems, but I would say that I am only in this position because I have not found a women with my desired characteristics. This sounds bad, but if I met this woman today, I would dump my girlfriend to be with her. I think I have a good understanding of the personality of woman that I want, and it's very different from my mother in a lot of ways. I would say that I had a good mother relative to what I believe to be the average mother. I have an ACE of 0 (if you don't include my own suicide attempt). Although I could be wrong, I've tried to draw connections between my mother's behavior and my own flaws, but I cannot make many. I am not at all opposed to talking about my childhood.

I dress well and am very physically fit, I excercise often and don't eat bread, corn or sugar. I dress myself well. How may this be related?

I have talked to her mostly about peaceful parenting, religion, and self-knowledge. She rejects the legitimacy of peaceful parenting, unquestioningly believes in God (Islamic God), and brushes off any attempt I make at guiding her to therapy or even interest in self-knowledge. I feel emotionally much older than her even though we are only a year apart in age.

As I have listened to more FDR, read more philosophy, and pursued deeper self knowlage, I've become dissatisfied with my relationships of choice, in particular the one with my girlfriend. She is a beautiful young lady physically, but I don't feel any real emotional attraction to her. I would like to find a partner whose personality I am emphatuated with, but I am unsure that I want to lose the stability of my current partner and pursue a (unfortunately uncommon) woman who is strong willed, ambitious, and virtuous. Because I have seen so few of these women my age, I am afraid that if I give up this relationship to search for someone I may be happier with, I am afraid that I will not find the kind of person I'm looking for, and I will have given up a chance at my current relationship. Also, my lizard brain is telling me how hot my current girlfriend is and what a mistake it would be to give her up. Should you be in a realtionship with someone you know you could never love? What is a healthy way to deal with this decision? Also, where can a young man (18) find a self-knowledgeable (real word?) woman his own age?