Mark G

I know that there is no context to my questions, I just want to hear your thoughts on these questions at face value. Question 1. If you listen to Jordan Peterson or know the Bible, you know about Cain vs Abel story. My fundamental question is, what system do you have in place to not become Cain? (Cain = becoming angry/bitter at God/being) Question 2. Carl Jung's concept of The Shadow is very interesting to me. How would one differentiate The Shadow versus just rage/anger. Now Jordan Peterson once said that you have to respect the shadow, what are the practical ways to do that?

The amount of sex and sexual thoughts I have I almost think/feel I am the ideal example of an R selected Gene (Stefan's R vs K Gene Wars) My thoughts are of K genes but my "Feelings" are R Its the Christian idea of your body wanting one thing but your spirit wanting the complete opposite

It makes me feel normal, Completely takes away my self diagnosed depression, anxiety. And helps me focus I am "ADHD" or whatever. I just learn in a different way than others.

You are right there is alot there and I do that too, But relying on people to tell the truth is hard bc what if they think what they are saying is true and its not its ust a waste of time. I think this issue is so big with my parents I do need to call in but. Although Iv tried many times to submit an answer but always get ignored after the 2nd email. I think Im either doing something wrong or my question isn't as interesting as to keep in-mind the listener.

I think about this EVERYDAY. Maybe thats why I wrote in. This is sooooo true

I dont drink anymore, havent drank in 6 months. I only take kratom (opioid) at the moment. I dont do anything else

Imagine if this was reverse and JP said "you are a mean black man" there would be outrage.

So I think there are psychological reasons. I remember as a 12 year old screaming in my pillow "I hate my mom, I want to kill myself" And I was serious. At the moment I take Kratom, I am addicted to it, It is basically an opioid. There such a thing as "opirage" where opioids make you rage once in a while. A average regular user will use Kratom 1-3 times a day, about 13grams. I am taking about 8-9 doses about 30-33 grams in 24 hours. So I dont think that helps with having my anger subside

No you are right, even though Ive been behind bars already bc of my choices. I am working full time to figure this out. Thank you for your insight

Ok I was prescribed adderall for ADHD about 5 years ago, Took it for about 4 years and I have been sober for a year now. I quit cold turkey after my life was falling apart bc of my actions on adderall. The animal hurting happened before the prescription but continued through until I quit. Anyway now whenever I get angry at someone I dont like at work or something random throughout my day I walk away, go to sleep, or put in my earbuds and turn on music. I used to want to hurt people. But never acted out on it. Now it rarely happens but I am in control when it does flare up nowadays. I know you have limited information but if you had to guess do you know how much of this is the Carl Jungs concept of the shadow and how much of it is just my fried brain after so much drugs?

So Ive been thinking about my question for the last couple day and came to the conclusion that it is this. I am good at what I do, but the only reason I do it is because its fun. (Filming) The more boring part comes in when I edit and thats what I am not finishing. I might have to find someone else and hire them to do that part.

Yes all excuses are valid, I actually agree but not all are of equal value.

Dammmmm!!! This is on point on so many levels. Like Jordan Peterson said you always knew it, but until someone spoke it you didnt understand. (not verbatim) As for replying to this, well I cant. I dont know what to say but, this is so true and so on point I am about to print this whole answer out and reread it 20x. Even if I tried to answer this I wounldnt be able to articulate it. Wow thanks.

Has anyone seen the debate that happened recently? What do you think of it? It makes me kinda sad that Michael Dyson gets applause. If you havent here is a link to it

Hey My name is Mark, At the moment I live in the Midwest. Ive been listening to Stefan for a year and a half. I film weddings & other things like music videos, short films, etc. For the most part I cant find anyone I can debate that wont get angry and call me racist or say I am full of micro aggressions. So if anyone is around this area hit me up. Love all yall

been doing that on average once a day for 11 years, mostly sex but some wacking off. Longest I ever quit was 11 days, couldn't do a minute more. Any tips on quitting? I think this stems from me being sexually molested as a teen. I blame mother for it, she was to scared to teach me about sex and so the world taught me. I had no idea what i was doing until years later I figured out I was molested

I think Im doing a better job controlling those urges. Thank you for your reply

A1 - So I ment tyrannical in the way that I wasn't aloud to watch movies, listen to music, rarely let me play sports in school, when I got a job, she would take me to work and back. I started getting into trouble in school bc I at home "BIG BROTHER" didnt let me use my energy up. Anyway she would spy on my when I was in my room at night if my lights were on. She would go outside and peek through the window. If I spent the night at a friends house she would find who it was and call my friends parents at 2am, wake them up and tell them to kick me out and ask for the address to come pick me up. I saw all rules in school in the same way I say my mother at home, therefor I started to rebel. Started leaving the city, going to raves, drinking at the age of 15. Not coming home or coming home drunk, doing cocaine all weekend long. Ps. She is crazy, IDK if its PTSD or what bc as a kid she was kidnapped by the communists for 7 years. I just found out this story, My dad during a famine drove all day to pick up potatoes in Russia & came back the next day, he worked his ass off loading and unloading the potatoes. My mom yelled at him and said she didn't want potatoes. And to take it all back. The reason I say this is to make a case that she is crazy but it obviously does not excuse her actions. A2 - I join groups but stop going, I will go once a year. I think I self sabotage and instead of going to the group I will go to sleep. And its always 10 minutes before I leave to the group I without a thought just decide not to go bc I dont want to see anyone. Or maybe I dont want anyone to see me. A3 - I think you are 100% right on me being dissociated. I dont care or feel other peoples/animals pain. Also with the anger, I do need to find an outlet. That is one thing I keep suppresing. The smallest thing will make me so angry and when I get angry I need to go to sleep or else I can do something I will regret. I wonder how much of my anger is the Carl Jungs concept of the shadow. Because when I reach those emotions, well they are very dark.

I will download that book today, And no, Ive never had moments when my consciousness was suspended. I am also very low in agreeableness & hate going out, I do not like people. This is why I take kratom, a-lot of it BTW & it turns me into a social butterfly. I need it during business meetings & dinners otherwise I can care less for going out. Answering your question, To be honest I dont know, Im trying to figure that out now. I will say this, The only time I feel alive is when I am under pressure. BTW all your questions are giving me the feedback I need. I am getting really close to figuring all this out. Im really happy that you can help me get one step closer.

Cats, possums, raccoons. Never dogs though, maybe bc they can bite back. And i only hurt animals that I knew i had full power over. I would shoot squirrels, throw cats, slam them into the ground. This happened no more than 20 times. We were refugees from communism/ socialisim

Ok, i see what you mean, i think i overstated that. I know ill be successful. I guess we can leave it at that. Also my family isint friendly, we dont really talk & if I ask for money they will most definitely deny. The reason why I mentioned that they were successful was I wanted to show that it is a decent gene pool & they had a harder life than me and still became successful. And there is zero inheritance because my parents don't really have much, everyone just split up as soon as we came to America and did their own thing. Thank you for replying Boss, would you have any other inputs?

Thank you so much for replying, I dont mind you asking more. - I will check out Gabor Mate's book, I read a book a week so i'll do it this week. - Seeing myself as another person, well I tried that after reading Jordan Petersons book. Tried to look at that perspective but honestly got busy and never tried again. Its really hard to do that, Ive been living in a bubble for the last 3 years, moved out to a different state at the age of 18. Its hard for me to make friends. The reason I mention this is because I think I am out of touch of how people see me. I dont have constant feedback. So I am not even sure. - I love pressure, thats why I love to do what I do (Film Weddings) The pressure of, if I dont get the shot no one else will & I'll be screwed. So the pre-req would be I cant have a net under me (a job that I can rely on & get comfortable) Once I get comfy, I slack. The foundation question I have no Idea how to answer it, I'm not sure I even understand it. I hope you get what I am trying to say. I cant articulate my thoughts well. - People that dont want to be helped are people that do not see the issue or dont want to see the issue, The first step to change is admitting you have a problem. I dont think they can be helped, I dont think they should be helped. (let the dead bury the dead) I really appreciate your reply Barnsley. Seriously, it means so much to me.

I went to one therapist, she said she couldn't help. Went to another, that one was dragging time. I gave up now I work 60 hours a week and fly in and out of town on weekends. So I am not finding time for a therapist, also I seriously dont want to go because of past experience.

I really appreciate all of you!!

I wrote into the call in show a while ago but I am sure Michael is busy. I need answers, life & business isn't going to wait for me to try to figure this out for years. Quick backstory - I am a immigrant to America from the former USSR, I have 3 brothers & 3 sisters. I am the youngest. All my family is super successful, surgeons, musicians, public speakers. (ACE Score questions is attached) Age - 22 ACE Score - 7 / Yes Answers: 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 9, 10 S&D - Yes, Mostly whipped by a thin branch/stick by mom (but extremes is needle through tongue for cussing) - Live far from family now Question 1 - My mother was extremely totalitarian when i was a child. She was a helicopter mother, but with thermal cameras & motion sensors, very tyrannical. I am low on conscientiousness & I cannot for the life of me defer gratification, I have a very high addictive personality & super high in neuroticism. I was addicted to many things in my past & still am. (porn, drugs, booze, opioids, adderall) My question is, First - Is these two thing connected? & how do I start reversing that in a way that does not backfire on me & in a way that is not totalitarian so that I don't rebel from my own system that I put into place. Question 2 - I am the founder & CEO of a company. I recently met someone very successful & now we are great friends. This friend personally knows Martha Stewart, the owner of Bass Pro Shops, & many other people that are affluent & full of potential opportunities. My problem is I became inert, & dont finish my work. If I work hard enough I can become a millionaire, famous, or successful. Why am I all of the sudden inert? Am I scared of success or fame? If so, how can I overcome this, because I know people would kill to be where I am. BTW I'm getting booked all over USA to do what I do but I still work at the USPS 60hrs a week instead of fully going self employed. I am scared to quit because I know I need a running start but I am not running, I am sleeping. Question 3 - I've hurt animals as a child, I have killed animals while being indifferent as a child. I became an adult & someone gave me a kitten, Now Ive never hurt this cat physically but I did mentally. I would be petting the cat & with my other hand punch the wall. As soon these urges started happening everyday I called someone & they took the kitten out of my house. Now, I know why that is I do that (my mother had power over me & would hurt me, now I feel good when I have the power over something) What I do not know is, how can I stop these urges. Call In Show Survey.pdf