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Hi Lovely People My Name is Timothy. I am 30 years old and I come from Holland. I came to know Stefan a little years and years ago. I think around the first Election of Obama. Someone I don't even know dropped a link for your video Statism the story of your enslavement, I think. My Memory is a bit fuzzy because I ignored so many things and so many people. But I think some memories are starting to come back slowly. The video is basically what I kind of sort of knew but it was packaged to me in a different way. So I clicked with your knowledge but I was very skeptical. So for years and years I sort of watched videos but I never gave back. No excuses. Shit this is so hard. But there were a few videos that really got to me. I have to admitt I am very very very very very stubborn. I am thinking so many thoughts. I am going to say it. I want to protect Stefan from himself. I am not going to say here what I think. Because I am projecting my own thoughts and feelings onto him. And maybe I shouldn't say it to him right now. I owe him a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot more........... Thanks to people around me I now know that you have to let wounds heal slowly. And maybe other people have allready said this to him so I am again projecting about my own situation. But Stefan is so strong I can't believe it.... that reminds me of the other video that really got to me.... The video where he was crying. The story of a father and his sons and the one son whom almost was sent to War. All the details: I am going to look them up. I can't be lazy this time. : This is not the link I am looking for but if someone else maybe can get inspired by this video that's amazing too. I am going to stop searching now. Because there is something else I have to admit. I am authistic. I checked it last night. The Authism test said 72 or 78%. I want to save everyone right now, mostly because I feel guilty I I I I I I I I I I about a lot of things I did in the past. And the wonderfull people that helped me where I live in Rotterdam. I let them down for a long time. And I want to give back now. And what I have whitnessed in Rotterdam since monday so I think 4 days. I just can't stop crying. and at the same I am so angry, mostly at myself. I never knew crying could feel this good..... Bitter Sweet. But I am going to stop myself now. I want to wish everyone the best and my weaknesses are: Lazy, stubborn, and I have to stop now. thank you Stefan... I liove love3 love love lvoe love love what you have created. LOveee LOVE. I love you Stefan