Hello ladies and gents,

[Makestro]

My name is Matt, I was born in Minnesota and have lived here since. I am an Anarchist but call myself a Libertarian because it's the closest thing to Anarchy before you hit Anarchy, if that makes sense. I also smoke a lot of weed, but I am really functional, a lot of people unless really close to me don't know when I'm stoned or not. My life as a child is pretty fragmented, which probably lead to the former, with what I consider both good and bad experiences even if they seemed just bad at the time. I come from a broken family, my mother and father were both drunks and drug users, my earliest memory was my parents fighting, but thankfully(best for both of them and me in the long run) they split up when I either just turned 4 or was about to. My mom tried to spank me 1 time with a wooden spoon and I laughed at her, I was about 7 and from that point on I had 0 authority in my life.

I always had trouble in school, probably reflected the broken home I came from, it wasn't because I'm dumb but more or less because I didn't care. I was basically raising myself, My mom was off partying and/or worked second shift(3pm-11pm), my dad didn't sober up until I was about 14 and started to become a part of my life again, so I had very little parental guidance even after he came back into my life. Which is why I screwed around in school and made very little effort to progress, I would get kicked out of school daily because it came with 2 days "vacation" and could sit home watching movies, tv or playing games... Basically stuff I would have rather done than sit in school. When I didn't get kicked out I wouldn't do anything except sleep at school and despite all this still would get 90+% on all my tests besides English(easily my weakest subject ), So I decided to drop out and get my GED, since it was the best option for everyone.

This back fired because I hurt my knee and needed surgery just after and before I was healed up and able to get myself into the workforce I moved to a small ass town with nothing. This is when my Mom and her boyfriend started to become part of the drug world, and that is as specific as I'll get on that subject, I learned a lot about people and because of this experience I've never touched a drug that requires mankind to make, not that it makes me better than anyone else, but I'm proud I never fell farther into that world. That's my adolescent and teenage life in a nutshell. I consider myself pretty lucky, because if I took one wrong path I could easily be in prison right now, and many people from this era of my life are dead or in prison. The rest of my life from this point is preaching to the choir, I became an anarchist and backtracked to Libertarianism since it's the easier goal of the 2, although I still push archo-capitalism as much as if not more than Libertarianism, but it's easy to do both at the same time. When I look back on life, I have been practicing Anarchy to a lesser degree since my mom realized she had no control on me, and despite me living the anarchist life, I have only punched 1 person in my life in semi-self defense and unlike popular belief I don't and have never raped, murdered, robbed or whatever other boogeymen the government supposedly protects us from.

 

So thanks for reading and I'm looking forward to getting involved in the discussions around here.

[MysterionMuffles]

welcome to the boards, Matt. lol a lot of that resonated with me. The whole part about getting suspended from school a lot, as well as disdain for authority. Reminds me of all the fights I picked with bully teachers just so I can earn a few days or even two weeks of a suspension just to play the newest video game I got. And of course my guitar to learn a whole System of a Down album (Steal This Album).

I am sorry that your earliest memories have to be something traumatizing, and I'll take your word for it if you feel it was the best thing that your parents did split up. I suppose that dysfunction would have only been double of what you already had to experience with your mother alone, so you're pretty brave to laugh in her face for threatening you with a giant spoon. Lol I think I would too because it would seem almost too comical to take seriously. Especially if you're a kid who enjoys cartoons.

You seem to have a great deal of self awareness when it comes to knowing your possible pathways and a sense of the world around you, so I think your initial intelligence will only increase from this point on. Glad to have you on board with the boards!

 

[NotDarkYet]

Hi Matt,

Thanks for coming onboard. 

Your post was heartbreaking. I hope you are finding some stability in your life these days.

I know what it's like to have an massively alcoholic father.  Also I remember feeling invisible during childhood.  That started to change for me as well around the age of 14 when my father started paying attention to me because of my music.

I grew up in South Dakota, so I also can empathise with the strange feeling of desolation and emptyness that pervades the northern midwest.  That's probably part of the reason I left the country.