TheSchwartz Posted September 14, 2014 Posted September 14, 2014 My thoughts lately have been revolving around how much the framing of my own situation in my mind might be causing my problems more than I previously thought. I will often think of myself in incredibly negative terms, and then realize (at least intellectually) that these things aren't really true. An example, I often think of myself as worthless, or unable to provide value to others around me. Then I remember that I have in the past provided much value to people, even if it isn't as much or as often as I would like. I also often feel as if I just don't belong with humanity, and that there are no people that I can relate to or have any kind of relationship with. Again, I know this isn't true, as the single digit number of people I 'know' are nowhere near the entire world, and there are at least a few good people that inhabit it. So at least intellectually, I know that I am capable of and it is worth putting myself out there for other people to see, but I just can't seem to get over this block I am feeling that makes me want to continuing hiding from the world. This is why I am increasingly beginning to think that I am essentially making my own life shit. Another thing that I just realized today, is that I am subconsciously expecting other people to do the work necessary for my growth in my stead. Before I began this topic, I had been Googling how to find low cost or better, free psychotherapy. One of the most useful pieces of advice was to just start calling therapists in my area and telling them my situation, that I am desperate for help and I can't really afford it. Instead of doing that, I came here to make a topic that was going to essentially be "What are your opinions such and such therapy, and how can I get it for free?". I can't help but think this attitude is a major part of my isolation. Thank you for reading.
PatrickC Posted September 14, 2014 Posted September 14, 2014 The fact that you are reaching out here and conscious of your desire to isolate is testament to your own growth. Don't be so hard on yourself and reach out more. Including therapists in the manner that was suggested to you. 1
monjia Posted September 15, 2014 Posted September 15, 2014 It's hard asking someone to help you hold up that mirror, but man it is so worth it. Try not to over analyze the process of finding someone, just keep looking. I wish you the best.
hitbox Posted September 15, 2014 Posted September 15, 2014 That's tough man. It's really tough. There's 7cupsoftea. I did it once. The reviews I could find before trying it were mixed. But I loved it. I cried my eyes out. I felt much better afterwards. I think it's worth a shot. Been thinking of hopping on it again. It sounds to me like you're working very hard to make your life not so shit.
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