MarcAnthony Posted October 29, 2014 Posted October 29, 2014 Greetings, my name is Marc Anthony and I have been an avid listener to Stefan for about 8 months. I look forward to learning a lot from this community and hope to build up the courage to call in one day and confront the macabre twisted history of my family of origin. Im very interested in Voluntaryism and have identified myself as an Anarchist for as long as I can remember. I believe as a child I read the Thoreau quote about someday humanity having a government that governs not at all and it immediately clicked inside me that Anarchy was about personal responsibility. It wasn't though, until I heard Stefs ideas about parenting as a realistic and practical path towards that, that it became a foreseeable reality to me. To be clear, it was Stefan that introduced me to Austrian economics and also Ayn Rand so before that I had a fundamentally misunderstood conception of economics and a huge distaste for the monetary system. I think my values towards an extremely relativistic and Marxian perspective on society at the time was me trying to run from responsibility. Trying to hide from the world. Anarchy (or my conception of it then) was really more about washing my hands on humanity rather than taking it on as a challenge towards self sufficiency as I should have. Ive always been a pacifist but only recently have understood that as an enabler to evil. I grew up going to a Catholic school, so of course I was an atheist by the eighth grade, but my moral values were still based around the guilt based altruism and martyrdom complex found in Catholicism. This tied in perfectly with my inner contempt for myself, my depression and my hiding from responsibility since I associated virtue with pain. I could go farther but I think I'm just starting to ramble. In a circle of friends once we played a game trying to decipher what animal represented who, one girl was a gazelle, another guy was a fox... when they got to me they all agreed on one unanimously. I was an ostrich. This puzzled me, but it was explained that whenever problems come around I would stick my head in the ground. Fifteen years later and I am still struggling to pull my head from this hole, and to help my children not repeat my same mistakes. Ive messed up so hard in life that I honestly think my only grace at this point would be to save my children from following down my (or their mothers) path. Anyways, until later, goodbye and thank you for existing... 2
MysterionMuffles Posted November 3, 2014 Posted November 3, 2014 oh man welcome, looks like you have a lot of experience and wisdom to share with us on the boards in the future thank you for existing too!
TheFifthApe Posted November 10, 2014 Posted November 10, 2014 Hey Marc, interesting story. I also went to Catholic School for pretty much all my life and I never had any real desire to conform with the ideaology either. From your words, I don't think your head is in a hole; you're facing reality, you've joined this board and we know it's never too late. And my friend, thank you for existing!
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