Myosotis Posted February 24, 2015 Posted February 24, 2015 Hello, Nice to see you all, people who use their heads . I am from Europe, I am currently 17 years old. My whole story starts from a bit over 3 years ago, I think ( I can't pin point the accurate date ). My family is a bit weird. My father needs to work overseas a lot, my mother is a narcissist or so I think, thought sometimes I am not sure.But I am trying to be rational about everything. My family isn't exactly rich, and I am pretty sure I developed some thing that are not the best.. I dislike school, but I need to go there, I like reading and I like history. I can't be angry, that's probably my number 1 issue unfortunately, actually I don't know when was the last time I cried either. My best friend says that it's because of my environment, that I am in. Though, I am getting better bit by bit, I used to be unable to say no to someone, though from last year, I started doing it, and it felt good. I dislike school, everyday that I attend it, it feels like I automatically change masks and use the one for appropriate situation... Either way, enough of depressing introduction, my best friend introduced me to this whole thing which I liked, and now he's in a bit of a crisis, so I want to gain more and more knowledge to help him out, glad to be here. Have a nice day everyone! 2
Kevin Beal Posted February 24, 2015 Posted February 24, 2015 Hi Myosotis! Welcome to the boards I'm sorry about the incapacity to cry or feel anger. It'll probably sound weird of me to say so, but I am angry that this is so. If it's true that your mother is a narcissist, it's not uncommon for narcissistic parents to work to deny their children free expression, and those children can feel like the only option is to comply. The result is that the child has to deny any thoughts or feelings which would be inconvenient for the narcissistic parent. If your anger and sadness were unwelcome to your mother, and if your mother is a very difficult person to be around when you do feel those things, then my guess is that the two things are related. Maybe that's an awkward thing to hear from someone you don't know over the internet when you've just introduced yourself, but I don't want to pretend that's not going on for you, if it is. It's important. But anyway, what crisis is your friend in? 1
Myosotis Posted February 24, 2015 Author Posted February 24, 2015 Hey, thanks . Well, you are not the first person to say that you are angry at that. Well, she's not diagnosed by anyone, but the way she acts, and do things sometimes, seem pretty clear that she is a narcissist, but sometimes she's calm and normal, that's when i think : Is she really ? Though, her childhood was rough, she grew up in abusive household. So I guess that it makes sense that she's a narcissist, right ? I don't deny my feelings, I just can't bring them out in the first place, I can be mad, but eventually I settle down.The mad I am, people would describe as being irritated ^^ . It's okay, I am thankful for what you said, and I am well aware that it is important. I intend to do therapy once I leave this place. Either way, my friend is working machine, and it's hard on him, like very hard, his thoughts are pessimistic and what not, so I want to dig deeper into self knowledge, because I want to help him out, he has been through a lot more than I have, probably.
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