Jinr0h Posted June 16, 2015 Posted June 16, 2015 Hello from Northern Italy (Friuli Venezia Giulia), I have been on a 13 year journey of introspection, skill acquisition and searching out the limits of my DNA potential, it began with the death of my sister (CaNcEr) and witnessing the breakdown of my family during the time of her death, a story quite long and complicated, I was born in South Africa, grew up not seeing apartheid (due to living in an Italian built small town with very liberal views). I became a musician and pursued that as a career successfully until I moved to the UK at age 24. I worked in London for a boring company doing boring stuff but I learned a lot about business in the process, after I succumbed to the boredom I resigned and began training in MMA (mixed martial arts) to get over my fear of conflict and working in bars to get over my social anxiety. I then joined the Royal Marines Commandos to face my fear of death and also see the truth of the war in Afghanistan for myself. After seeing the truth of the war in Afghanistan I promptly resigned from that organisation with my newly acquired skills and knowledge and moved to rural Italy to live with my wife and 2 children in a way consistent with UPB, it can be very difficult at times. I am now working for a small company to make ends meet while I work on two things: 1. I want to develop my property to become a halfway house to take up the challenge Stefan has laid down so often by providing a place for people within our community who need a place to go to, when trying to leave a cult/religion/violent situation. 2. I plan to develop a small team of people (8) to donate one hour a day to focus on assisting a single individual at a time, to transition from a job where their sole motivation is making enough money to survive to their dream job where the job itself is the motivation and the money made is a by-product. I will go into as many details as possible regarding both those things in future posts to ask for help and advice, I will be adopting Stefan's approach to providing these services for free and allow for the possibility of donation if my service is worthy of any. I am happy to answer any questions that anyone might have about anything I have written.
Kurtis Posted June 20, 2015 Posted June 20, 2015 Welcome to the boards. What a fascinating 13 years you have described, I'm sorry for the loss of your sister. However, I am very happy for you and your family that you are safely out of the military. Have you found where your fear of death originated? Your life goals are admirable and I look forward to your future posts.
Jinr0h Posted June 22, 2015 Author Posted June 22, 2015 Welcome to the boards. What a fascinating 13 years you have described, I'm sorry for the loss of your sister. However, I am very happy for you and your family that you are safely out of the military. Have you found where your fear of death originated? Your life goals are admirable and I look forward to your future posts. Hi Kurtis, Thanks for the welcome and kindness. I feel like I got out while I was up, I know a lot of people who are unable to make that choice through fear of civilian life and feel that dealing with the prospect of a violent death easier to deal with, also I have heard the local hierarchy feeding the younger guys horrible stories of their chances of success outside the military ( no work, homelessness, suicide etc..) but saying that there were times when almost a whole troop of guys handed in their notice. My fear of death came through introspection, I wanted to round myself off in a similar way to how any skilled professional would, so to that end I searched out all the holes in my game and corrected for them, it's through that process as well as my constant fight to be a stronger person and through choosing to face reality no matter how difficult (I am extremely unsatisfied by the lies we are forced to swallow if we are to be content in current society [i have a theory on this]), that (inevitably) my awareness of that fear developed and then I followed my own philosophy (awareness, acceptance then action) to deal with it. I would rate that one as the most deeply rooted and difficult to deal with but the most rewarding afterward. Thanks for your support of these ideas I have. I was considering if it would have been better to be a few steps further towards the achievement of those goals before posting them because I was afraid that the people on the board wouldn't take me seriously and then I accepted that it was my issue that had nothing to do with the board and thankfully I have found another little gem to work on personally. I hope that I can accurately represent my motives and intentions regarding those ideas and myself so that I can build trust with the community and get them behind these ideas and help me get to a place that I can better help others.
Mr. Binary Posted June 24, 2015 Posted June 24, 2015 Hi Jinr0h, Welcome to the boards. I also live in the Veneto region, but a little bit further west, near lake Garda (although I'm out of the country at the moment). We should start a northern Italian FDR meetup group.
Jinr0h Posted June 24, 2015 Author Posted June 24, 2015 Hi Mr. Binary, Thanks for the welcome, I was hoping to find a fellow thinker in Northern Italy! Let me know when you are back in Veneto. As a South African, I would recommend a BBQ or "Braai" as we call it for the meet-up.
Kurtis Posted June 27, 2015 Posted June 27, 2015 My fear of death came through introspection, I wanted to round myself off in a similar way to how any skilled professional would, so to that end I searched out all the holes in my game and corrected for them, it's through that process as well as my constant fight to be a stronger person and through choosing to face reality no matter how difficult (I am extremely unsatisfied by the lies we are forced to swallow if we are to be content in current society [i have a theory on this]), that (inevitably) my awareness of that fear developed and then I followed my own philosophy (awareness, acceptance then action) to deal with it. I would rate that one as the most deeply rooted and difficult to deal with but the most rewarding afterward. Hello Jinr0h, Would you care to elaborate on your comment about fear? Sorry, I am having a bit of difficulty in following what you meant. Were you correlating your fear of death with the dissatisfaction of conforming to our current societies? For me, it is a very interesting topic (fear), as it is something I have struggled with in the past year. I would love to hear more about your experience with it, if you don't mind sharing. Thanks
Jinr0h Posted June 28, 2015 Author Posted June 28, 2015 Hello Jinr0h, Would you care to elaborate on your comment about fear? Sorry, I am having a bit of difficulty in following what you meant. Were you correlating your fear of death with the dissatisfaction of conforming to our current societies? For me, it is a very interesting topic (fear), as it is something I have struggled with in the past year. I would love to hear more about your experience with it, if you don't mind sharing. Thanks Hi Kurtis, I have no problem sharing my thoughts with you. It was very difficult at first to understand my drive and way of life but I developed a process that helped me and that process is what I will talk about and I hope that it helps you understand where I am coming from and how it may relate to your circumstances. It's important to note that everything I have done has occurred organically in that I have never spoken to anyone about this or sought out help in any way, I have never even written about this on any forum either so these are just my thoughts and I will admit that they are still in progress. I am not dead, therefore, there is still progress yet to make. Living in South Africa and witnessing the slow painful death of my sister has no doubt played a part in why I chose to face my fear of death but be that as it may I still think that this should be the starting point for everyone in their journey of introspection, for a number of reasons: The first reason is that the mind is a tool for dealing with reality and the way that it does that is through emotion and senses, bear with me... I think when the mind processes reality it does it in these steps, 1: Awareness 2: Acceptance 3: Action So for example, In objective reality I have violently ripped off my big toe, my mind becomes aware of the loss (pain, fear) then I have to accept that what I am sensing is reality and then I can take action to sort it out. Secondly because I think that debating points and arguments in our current state is highly inefficient and also possibly another blocker in terms of acceptance of reality. I think that in order to assist society into freedom we must first agree on the methodology that is required to get us to that state and unless we are able to accept that there is a problem then we can never expect an action. So we all share the fear of death and by challenging that fear and by focusing on the acceptance of death we can remove a huge hurdle in terms of theocracy and the ability for people to discuss reality without the fear of eternal damnation. Thirdly in my own experience the ability to accept the fear of death whenever it strikes and take action accordingly has enabled me to do many things in my life that most people find extremely challenging and I take that as me being free. So by dealing with death I have given myself the tools to remove anything that could mentally stop me from doing what I want, I have given myself a valid chance of achieving my potential locked with my DNA and finally I have freed myself from the manipulation of others. I think that it is through this process that we can gain strength and gain depth in understanding and freedom, we are all active within the same reality and stressors make us aware of our reality and acceptance of that awareness can provide the required information to take action. The selector for reality acceptance is philosophy and the scientific method which to me boils down to repeatedly asking the question why ( I also constantly ask myself if I am happy with my lifestyle and legacy to provoke awareness of my life and kick start the mental software into eventual corrective action). So when we live in a society based on feeding fear coupled with an ideology that blocks the step of acceptance we arrive at our current state, buying into misinformation and remaining in mental infancy. A theory I became aware of through my experience in relationships with people who have had great tragedy in their lives, these extreme events create the pinch points we require in order to activate a stress response and grow, some of these people did not have it within them to accept their tragic past and continued to live a lesser person than they could have been if the events did not occur and lesser still than they could have been if they had the ability to accept those events and take action. I have read that this is similar to the way the body works. I do believe that there can be events so bad that the mind is broken, but I feel that is the mark of an individual. I have also repeatedly heard from successful people when I ask what their secret was, many of them said they simply took action. Anyway society, for the most part, keeps the majority in a state of minimal stress and misinformation in order to fool the mind into thinking its taken action or ideology can completely block this process, indoctrination IS the process of eliminating the option of accepting reality contrary to what that particular ideology prescribes and that stops us from achieving our potential as individuals and as a group. And this is why I chose to deal with that one fear / stressor we all share, death. We cannot successfully be trustworthy or achieve our DNA potential unless we overcome and transcend our humanity, The key to this is philosophy. Murder, death, kill, fear; this is who and what we are as much as empathy, unity, peace and love. Until we accept this is a part of our nature we cannot take action to transcend it. It boils down to this, good and evil do not exist there is only human nature. The mind and its ability to process reality and make judgments on reality is what separates those who practice what is considered evil and those who do good. Due to reaching this conclusion I decided to take action and remove all things in my mind that hindered the process of me achieving the potential locked within my DNA. By accepting and dealing with my fear I was able to not only see truth ( which many of us can) but also I began to lock on to the principles behind the truth and that is something many people fail to achieve. They might be aware of a truth, but they do not accept it, theocracy, statism and those types of things supersede what they have become aware of and due to a mind in the state of infancy and by taking advantage of evolutionary traits (such as not wanting to be separate from the herd) we are controlled into thinking in very rigid and predictable ways. There was also this girl who liked strong guys and I wanted her eggs so...... just kidding. I have read this a few times and it seems jumbled up so I will alter my state of mind slightly, return and edit. Upon reflection, these are my final thoughts, Fear is the reason why smart men believe and not know. When death stops being about what you lost and how real it has all of a sudden become and is replaced with an understanding that a person is gone and how fragile and important life is and a new motivation to achieve potential and make it better for the next before death strikes, then we can agree what the best way is to form a society worthy of our achievement. When fear gets defeated, eagerness and freedom get the upper hand.
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