Hi I am Timothy

[tymophy]

Hi Lovely People

My Name is Timothy. I am 30 years old and I come from Holland.

I came to know Stefan a little years and years ago. I think around the first Election of Obama.

Someone I don't even know dropped a link for your video Statism the story of your enslavement, I think. My Memory is a bit fuzzy because I ignored so many things and so many people.

But I think some memories are starting to come back slowly.

The video is basically what I kind of sort of knew but it was packaged to me in a different way. So I clicked with your knowledge but I was very skeptical.

So for years and years I sort of watched videos but I never gave back. No excuses. Shit this is so hard.

But there were a few videos that really got to me.  I have to admitt I am very very very very very stubborn. 

I am thinking so many thoughts. I am going to say it. I want to protect Stefan from himself. I am not going to say here what I think. Because I am projecting my own thoughts and feelings onto him.

And maybe I shouldn't say it to him right now.  I owe him a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot more...........  

Thanks to people around me I now know that you have to let wounds heal slowly.  And maybe other people have allready said this to him so I am again projecting about my own situation.

But Stefan is so strong  I can't believe it.... that reminds me of the other video that really got to me.... The video where he was crying.  The story of a father and his sons and the one son whom almost was sent to War.

All the details: I am going to look them up. I can't be lazy this time. :

  This is not the link I am looking for  but if someone else maybe can get inspired by this video that's amazing too.

 

 

I am going to stop searching now. Because there is something else I have to admit.  I am authistic. I checked it last night. The Authism test said 72 or 78%.

I want to save everyone right now, mostly because I feel guilty I I I I I I I I I I about a lot of things I did in the past. And the wonderfull people that helped me where I live in Rotterdam.

I let them down for a long time. And I want to give back now.  And what I have whitnessed in Rotterdam since monday so I think 4 days. I just can't stop crying. and at the same I am so angry, mostly at myself.

I never knew crying could feel this good..... Bitter Sweet.

But I am going to stop myself now.  I want to wish everyone the best and my weaknesses are:  Lazy, stubborn, and I have to stop now.

thank you Stefan...  I liove love3 love love lvoe love love what you have created. LOveee   LOVE.

I love you Stefan

 

[jroseland]

Welcome Timothy! The South Africa situation is just like watching a train wreck in slow motion isn't it?

[tymophy]

Thank you jroseland. I agree. I don't know enough about it.  But I would call it a slow motion circle race to the bottom.

More wellfare, more single mothers and no dads, more crime, more security, more seperation between the rich and the poor, old wounds of racism,  more wellfare and hatred towards the wealthy etc. etc.

And also difficult, at least when it comes to race, the racism between light-skin blacks and dark-skinned Blacks.

Slow Motion Train Wreck?  Yes you are probably right.