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"Now, here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_Queen_(Through_the_Looking-Glass) Maybe a good place to look , especially since you were "Through the Looking-Glass" in your dream (banging on the glass doors), and the Red Queen (even though it was a faceless dude! lol) moved swiftly away from you. It seems, Alice, that your subconscious is trying to tell you you're not out of Wonderland yet (maybe even for just one particular instance or delusion that still remains). Maybe the swiftness of the closing of the mall means you have far less time to rid yourself of whatever delusion you're holding onto before you can't get out. []Good luck! and please follow up if you have any other related dreams or real life stuff happen.

You already know the answer. I think if you tried being more honest with yourself you wouldn't feel the need to wrestle with this silliness. Movies and music = a passing flippant experience. Are they awesome? Sure. Are they worth moral integrity? No. Pandora One account = $34/year ($2.83 a month!) Amazon Prime = $80/year ($6.66 a month!) Netflix = $15/month When you put the restriction of doing what's right on yourself, you get creative in how to satisfy your needs. Then you won't need to ask for philosophical explanations to justify your actions. And not to be rude at all (because I used to download gigs and gigs of media!), but if you can't afford to pay for it, shouldn't you be spending your time figuring out how to make more (or save more) money, rather than consuming more media? Just be honest with yourself and you'll find your answer. []

Wonderful video series! As someone who growing up never had a good example of what a healthy romantic relationship looked like, this is invaluable. Talking about relationships is one thing. Seeing one that works is another! Thank you! [wavehibye]

I've gone through something similar recently myself. I have no idea of your specific situation, etc. But I would like to present an idea to you. While your fantasies manifested as sexual, does that really matter? If an alcoholic is drinking beer, does it matter what brand of beer he is drinking? The fact that you retreated into fantasy when presented with a real connection with another person is what should be explored, imho. I don't think the sex aspect is all that important. I know for me, I used to equate physical intimacy with love. Instead of seeing this in a healthy way, all I did was chase after physical intimacy thinking I'd find love. This created some serious dissonance since I have an aversion to using sex just for sex, instead of as an expression of love. (none of this should make sense because it is all completely illogical!) Anyway, don't hate on yourself because you created fantasies of sex in your mind. Just find out why retreating into fantasy felt safer than engaging in real emotional vulnerability and intimacy with another. The fact that you are aware of what happened is a massive step in the right direction. It's a step most are completely unaware of. This is a major success in your life's journey!! Congratulations! Well done! [applause]