CallMeViolet

Thanks guys! I feel really good about this.

So sadly I left my brother's home; as it's still to hard for us to be around each other all the time. Now though I'm finally in Ohio with my sweetheart and everything feels amazing. I haven't been this happy in for what seems like forever; I know it seems a little cheesy but fine; I love cheese... I've decided to start trying for my GED while I get settled and straighten out my medical what not and other stuff here. Then I will pick up my job hunting and driving practice here So thanks everyone!!!!!! I'm happy and doin stuff finally!

Thanks guys. Good news; I'm in Ohio with my guy now. I'm very, very happy. <3

I don't talk to either of my parents because of their mistreatment. If you let your wife mistreat him he might do the same... Trust me, silent crying means he was probably scared; scared you were gonna be just like his mother towards him. You need to apologize, and you need to get him away from his abusive mother. Then you need to do everything in your power to teach him what happened to him wasn't okay,

Well a few people I know who enjoy such films are crazy people... Some of the others just like the fear factor... On Halloween I got a bit wild and watched a Goosebumps movie. SPOOOOOOKY!!! ( The Haunted Mask) I recall when I was sixteen the adult man who was doing terrible shit to me like horror movies... Really sick stuff that lodged itself in my head... One called Martyr... If you're curious you're gonna have to look into it yourself... I don't want to talk about it... Then for some reason he felt it necessary to show me a part in some film where this guy drove a metal pipe through a woman's ankles with a chain attached to some weight and tossed her in a lake... Or something like that... I guess I don't hate all horror films... Is Jurassic Park considered horror? The others was good. So was The Thing and The Fly.... Stephan Kings IT was good but I seen it to young... I don't like clowns... Along with another film I can't remember the name of; this women was in this big haunted house where there were a bunch of child ghost... I don't remember much except little bloody footprints, a ghost brushing the woman's hair, and a scene where a bunch of faces where pressing through a door screaming... I remember the dad was just abusing the hell out of the kids... Idk if he was killing them... It gave me nightmares about being drowned in a garden as I recall there was a scene like that...

so I really hate this but I'm thinking some of you guys were right about this not being a great idea... I'm not really willing to talk about it right now; don't worry, nothing violent happened but yeah... Idk if me and him can ever have a real relationship. To sum it up, he's way to quick to tell me about how wrong I am for like anything but very reluctant to look at his own behavior... Maybe one day.. but not right now or like this.

Why?

Yet another one of my friends came out about being molested as a child. Including me this is eight people I've known who have been sexually used before the age of eight teen... I mention it because this is incredibly repulsive to me; I wonder why you don't see more about it in mainstream media... I feel like if they did something like child abuse awareness stuff on tv maybe it would make parents more aware at least... I don't know what exactly but I feel something more needs to be done to protect children from this monstrous act... Any ideas?

Man... the monster thing... I had a way over active imagination with that. When I would drop something on the ground off my bed I would shake it off because I was worried there may have been tiny little monsters clinging to it; waiting to get onto my bed.... I didn't have these when I was young, or in quite sometime, but I would have similar dreams that I couldn't move. Or it I could I would just end up back where I was. Like sleep paralysis or something. It only happened a couple times bit it was really scary.

He's given me a placed to stay. We have been disssussing our issues. I don't know what he feels but I feel he is trying. That poem was beautiful.

My brothers were victims themselves. I actually stay with one of them now who contacted me after hearing me on FDR. He's actually bettering himself and we are working on a healthy relationship.

I wanna make it clear I'm not saying these are bad; I'm asking if anyone else who has had a traumatic childhood has difficulty watching them. . What about the idea that exposure to these things in films desensitizes people?

Well first where did he get this information? There are no references here... Also at the bottom it says children who are smacked are more aggressive; so it goes against what they're claiming; unless they want people to become aggressive. Also if someone is doing better in school it's probably because of their fear of getting hit... Which is some fuckin terrible motivation... Also just because it's easier to hit a child then to explain why something is wrong doesn't make it right; it makes the parent lazy, cruel, and incompetent. Honestly this just sounds like some sick sadist just trying to defend hitting defenseless children. I don't get why this was published but I can confidently say the guy that wrote this and the people who agree with it are pieces of shit.

Mangodrink: yeah I think it does; because I wonder if they would if they didn't feel forced; are they mad about doing it; do they feel obligated. Sure I would accept it but I would think on it a bit. Someone gave me $40 because they said god told them to... I'm all, sweet god money! But is this guy crazy... Yes yes he was...

Thank you for your support everyone. <3

The road was disturbing... I really wish I didn't remember it now... The scene in the basement... I'm all uncomfortable now... My mom used to be obsessed with ghost and aliens and crazy shit... It made me paranoid for a long time and I still get anxious in the dark at times... I don't believe in ghost or other spooky things but sometimes the anxiety still creeps up on me when I can't see anything around me...

I'm in no place to buy other people's work rn; buy my art also. This stuff reminds me of someone I knew's style.

Well you're all about to say "OHHH" lol; my brother is actually teaching me. After thinking about it I think that itself is adding to the anxiety. However I tried again today and did much better this time. I don't like semi trucks at all...

I'm learning how to drive.... man... I can't tell if I hate it or not but I feel like I hate it. It makes me so effin anxious... when I do something wrong the person teaching me gets all loud and it makes it even worse. Sometimes they grab the wheel or put on cruise control and it sends a wave of panicy sensations all through me. I'm not doing badly but I'm shocked I'm not actually. Any suggestions???

I don't think you have to be sadistic to enjoy horror/ gore, but does anyone have anything to say about traumatic experiences and horror film reactions? My head tends to twist them and freak me out after I've watched them...

ParaSait: you don't have to answer if you don't feel comfortable; what was your childhood like?

Both my brother and I hate horror movies; I think it has to do with preexisting anxiety from childhood trauma. (Why would I want to chose to feel anxiety and horror after having it inflicted on me so frequently?) Can anyone else relate to that? Or have anything to say on the subject?

*Excitement* Thanks guys!!!!

Thanks! I'm really excited now! I woke up and I don't think I'm gonna fall back asleep.

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