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I have what I consider a logical empathy. My coworker was cheated on by his girlfriend recently. I could not identify with his feelings. I could imagine, however, that I would not like that to have happened to me, and that if it did, I would like someone to hang out with and talk to, so I did. I did not know how to treat the situation, and I told him, but I just let him know I was there to do what I could. It's not an empathy of understanding emotions. I wouldn't know, there was only one time in my life I ever felt loved from a woman, and I knew there was no future there. I am not sure if I know how to love, or ever will. But also, I don't think women in my area are capable of anything but getting free stuff and never giving anything back. I must assess if this is even a cause I can invest time in. Oh if I stopped looking for the next distraction, I would most certainly kill myself. There is nothing else in life. There certainly aren't any caring people. That's probably why I would anyway, because even if it was selfish, there is not anyone I would care about not hurting. There is only me in my life. I would say I know certain things about myself, but not everything. If I did, I would probably try to fix it. I am not quite sure what I need, I think I need direction. A psychopath might not, but a sociopath might. Certain people know what they are. Narcissists tend to know they are narcissists. As far as me considering myself as such, I tend to base my observation of more normal people on my coworkers. They all make friends and get along and hang out. I do not. There are other differences I notice. There is undoubtedly something odd going on here with me. No. I have been in and out of therapy my whole life. It has never helped. Only ever taken time and money from me. My best developments have come from my philosophical pursuits. But on some of these journeys, I have discovered I seem to be capable of atrocious things others generally could not consider. Many things. To my mother, I was just a toy for her to express her feelings of love and motherly ownership upon. To my father I was an annoyance, a bug to be smashed which got in his way and cost him money. I never was a person to either of them, since the day I was born. I think I could go on about this for quite a while. I actually have a decently high IQ. It seems to bother me most when I think that I could have reached an incredible potential if I had parents who wanted to teach me things. Instead I had to learn everything on my own. Indeed, I spend plenty of time of my life trying to unlearn what they taught me. I am not sure if I ever will.

Thanks to some of your posts on here, as well as some self reflection, I started doing some looking into the definition of a sociopath, and I think I might be one. One of the more simpler websites describing a sociopath is here; http://www.mcafee.cc/Bin/sb.html Of the 15 bullet points in the first section, I feel like thirteen of them describe me, and that is only because some of them I gave half a point to. Of the "Other related qualities" I feel like I identify with about ten. This does not exactly surprise me. I have always had a sense that there was something wrong with me. I had a horrendous childhood with two insane parents. I have always felt a sense of being alone my whole life, that I could trust no one, and never would be able to. I have lived most of my life alone and trying to avoid people. I have always had a sense that it would always be this way. I have had a sense of depression my whole life, and always thought about killing myself. I am still depressed, but no longer sad, if that makes sense. Just bored of life, tired with it, ready for it to be over. I live only for the next moment of enjoyment, which I know is possible. The day it is not, I am ready to die. I always need excitement. I always need an adrenaline rush. If I am not getting it, well, there is just no point in life for me. I have also read that sociopaths tend to be high functioning. I feel I have always identified with this. I like complex things like programming, in depth chess strategies, the manipulations of the federal reserve and all it's implications. I recognized somewhere along the line that the people I admire in these realms and others also tend to be sociopaths, and while I might be disgusted by them, I also admire and respect them. What hurts me most about this area is that I try to talk to people about these things that I am so interested in, and no one ever wants to talk about it. No one ever seems interested in it, and often do not seem to have the mental capacity to comprehend it. I find myself wanting to "pull the plug" on the state, because I think it would kill off many of these people. On that note, what seems to hurt me the most, is my incapacity for proper emotions, and inability to love. I fantasize about loving and being loved. Nothing and no one ever seems to be capable of it to me, or worth my investment, much less care or consideration. Indeed, perhaps the woman does not exist that can give me the love that I need. My logic seems to be undeniable. It is supported, any time one of my co worker's girlfriends cheats on him, or an old friend's girlfriend tricks him into pregnancy. My answer was always to simply play bitches for the gold diggers they are, and never give any of them their hearts. While this answer has indeed kept me from the dangers of women who seem to be much more prevalent then they would ever admit, I have existed in an inhuman state of loneliness which no other human I have met ever seems to have been able to consider. I am almost 30, and have never had a relationship, though I have had some friends with benefits and such. I fear by the time I figure myself out, it will be too late for it to make a difference as far as having a relationship. I am not quite sure what this means for me, in it's entirety. I do believe, however, that I am on a right path, one of the hallmarks being my presence on this forum, considering moral philosophy. I feel I have no real friends among you, and that it is likely that none of you will invest any time significant enough to make a difference for me. I hope I am wrong, but I am not sure I would know it. I am hoping I am able to develop myself well enough to have a relationship that makes me feel not alone. Otherwise, I feel like I am simply continuing to exist to enjoy my next high in whatever form that might be, while being ready to die.

Interesting, but what are you trying to say here? That... might be what I am trying to say. I may not have the entire definition for what I am getting at. When potential conflict arises, I tend to ignore it and go about my business, unless I think it can be resolved peacefully and reasonably. My ignoring/not antagonizing of the situation seems to get people to believe they can continue to act as they have been, as if they do not realize they are not getting anywhere. What is more, is other people see this, and sometimes follow suit. The problem tends to manifest in bad ways. I might not ignore it, I might say something like "sure, but I would like if you asked nicely next time." While I agree with this, the problem I have is with people who don't think about such things so intelligently. One guy at work will try to boss me around as if I will do it because he thinks he intimidates me. I might do it because I think it achieves my goals, or I might ignore him, leaving him to try to boss me around later, never understanding he is being ignored. This seems to be producing a surface level image of weakness for me. That... does not make sense to me. What's the difference between being immoral and being wrong? I am curious as to what makes you say this. There is something I fear and am uncertain of in any situation regarding other people, though it is not necessarily physical. I fear social situations. I had a rough upbringing with two crazy parents who taught me all kinds of wrong. I am near 30 and am still sorting things out. I do not always know how to conduct myself properly in social situations. Is this the fear and uncertainty people sense in me, I wonder? Perhaps it is manifesting itself physically, and people see it. I think it must be; I don't even initiate interactions, generally.

I apologize for not completing my thought in that thread, but what I was getting at was more in line with self defense. The state forces itself on me. I can't do anything about it, but if I have to deal with it, the least they can do is gimme some free stuff. I am still working on that answer. Steph touched on it in this video; Where he naively assumes the answer to corporate automation that squashes the little guy, is charity. Anyone paying attention to big picture economics knows that's not whats happening. I am still working on this complete answer. Gimme some time. As for the gun, yea, it's like that, people want to treat you one way until they realize they shouldnt, but by then it's too late. It seems the majority of people are two faced like this. I wish it did not have to be this way. Well to continue the work example, there is this one guy who likes to pick on guys smaller than him. His name was Al. He did start out trying to mess with me. For the most part I ignored him, until one day he came within inches of putting his hands on me. I said nothing, simply looked him straight in the eye with clear, pissed off, murderous intent. He walked away, though he still liked to talk trash on occasion. I told my managers what had happened. This individual also went so far as to put his hands on another coworker of mine, trying to pull him outside for a "talk". I got right in the side of his face and told him we need to get back to work. That's just one guy, long story short is I do not "microagress" and others at work do, some seemingly violent, some not. And it seems that because I do not microagress, others feel I can be targeted for these microagressions. I am not quite sure I understand what you are trying to say, are you suggesting it is OK to do this? I mean, there is the guy who tells me to do something because it will help us run the business better. That is not the guy I am worried about. The guy I am worried about, is the guy telling me to do things, because he does not want to do the work, and he wants to push it on other people, and wants to seem like he is in charge enough to do so, though he has no management position. That is what I have a problem with. I don't do that to others.

I feel like most of my life, I have followed NAP in some form. It was always better for me to not antagonize or be noticed. I could get more done without people dragging on me, do things better without the bureaucracy of antagonism getting people in my way. And it has always seemed to be the case, that just because I do not agress, that people seem to think that this means I am easy to push around. To the contrary, I am a fairly dangerous person, trained in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu, with several amateur fights on my record. I have some recorded. I won plenty. Despite this, I never actually "lost it" during any fights. I never attacked anyone with murderous intent. Only once in my life have I ever come close to being like that, and I stopped myself. I looked into that void, the reality of crossing the line. I saw myself doing it. It scared me. It scared me, of myself. Because what I saw when I did once come that close, was that it seemed like I was going to enjoy permanently hurting someone. I never did this of course, I had enough self discipline not to cross that line. I still creep myself out, knowing I have these natural violent instincts dormant inside me. Like having a lion for a pet. Despite all this, I have gone my whole life without ever actually losing it. If agressed upon, I defend myself. But aggression is not just physical. It can be something as simple as someone at work trying to tell me what to do, as if they are in charge of me. In this case, I tend to consider if what they are telling me is in fact good for the cause of running the business. I may or may not do it in pursuit of that goal, but it's not because my co-worker told me to, it's because I want to get the job done. Otherwise, I usually ignore whoever might be talking. I see no need to antagonize. Except when people do not seem to get that they are being ignored, despite all their noise making. I might not mind, except when these people go on making their noise, despite me going on about my business, other people seem to adopt this mindset that they can also tell me anything they want. It seems to compound upon itself. It seems like people think I am weak, when they have no idea they are working next to a dangerous wild animal. There are more examples but I don't want to turn this into an essay. It just seems that wherever I pursue the NAP, I seem weak, and people try to take advantage of me, only to whine and get mad when they find they cant. I am wondering if anyone else has experienced this, and what they did about it.

This thread is relevant to my interests. I am not quite sure where i fall on the athiest/theist scale. I admit I have never seen any evidence of there being a god. This is not proof that there is no god, however. It is possible that god is outside the realm of our senses, like radiation, gravity, dark matter etc. Before these things were known, we thought they did not exist. We also used to think the earth was flat. What if god is outside our current human understanding? I have been interested in Kabbalah for a while now, an ancient Jewish religion, which is supposedly a science. Some of Kabbalah's concepts have gone on to be proven by quantum mechanics, like the principle of vibration. What interests me most about Kabbalah is that it claims that there is a god, and that god is "the all". God is everything. God is the universe. Planets are but atoms in the mind of god. I find it to be an interesting correlation between Kabbalah and Christianity, where Christianity says "we are made in god's image". Kabbalah says that is a misinterpretation. It is not that we are created in god's image, as if god were human, and we are imitating the form of god. Kabbalah says "we are made in god's image-INATION" the IMAGINATION of god is where we, and the universe, are created. The universe is a thought of god, a simulation. Considering this, I stumbled upon an interesting TEDX talk that supports such a theory that we are all a simulation; Now before I have to raise my fecal shield, I would like to say all of this is just an interesting observation of mine, and I have no proof there is a god, and there may in fact not be one. I do want there to be one however. It is more comforting to think of.

>He obviously used his male patriarchy powers to make those women twerk on him and grab his crotch. >Obvious male rapist. >This kind of behavior must be totally OK because women do it, so I should be able to go up to random chicks and start pelvic thrusting their booties unannounced and grabbing their crotches any time I feel like it. >Men can't be raped. >Lucky guy should be grateful that happened to him. >Racist oppression of black women. Can we take this seriously now? Can you imagine the uproar that would come about if the sexes were flipped here? I can't wait to see what kind of spin feminists try to put on this being a patriarchal oppression. In other news; http://thefederalist.com/2015/11/10/apa-retracts-shocking-military-male-rape-study/#disqus_thread the APA put out a shocking study about males being raped in the military, only to retract it for its controversy. Gotta protect those gay discrimination rights, at the cost of everything now dont we?

Yes, I expect very little from the majority of mankind. Intelligence is on a bell grade curve. To say otherwise is to suggest everyone is at the same intelligence level. I have been attempting to simplify the evils of things like the Federal Reserve for the common man to consider for a good long while. It is beyond most people's comprehension. Indeed, most people cannot comprehend anything beyond "America, fuck yea". The majority of people will never consider any other rhetoric in the first place, much less listen to what makes these problems valid. But also, I remember what it was like in the recession we had just a couple few years ago. People did indeed wither away, hungry, scared and dying. If they were allowed to just go out in the wilderness and farm for themselves, they might have been able to make it. Unfortunately, they are bound by the oppressions of the state, and they are not figuring out how to survive its current. Further more, this is not the first time this has happened. History is abundant with examples of bankers squeezing the economy until mankind withers and dies. It's been happening long since before Thomas Jefferson spoke about it in the quote in my sig. The majority has never figured it out throughout history. Because besides the fact that the US just went through a recession that saw people all over the streets, I have studied the specific history of bankers, and it is full of examples of times they have used the state to squeeze the economy to smother the people. A lot of it I wrote about in the article in my sig. Hell, I could do it myself, if I was a banker. And I notice, that you deliberately avoided answering my question about whether or not you would choose death in the face of survival or moral achievement. I think, perhaps, the truth about what you would do is too hard for you to swallow. You pursue the non aggression principle naively. I know the truth about myself, and that is, when faced with the choice, I chose to survive, and survive well. And because I chose such, men asked to serve me, and women wanted to give themselves to me. I am willing to bet that if you yourself were faced with the choice, you would choose survival too. The alternative would be to take your philosophical pursuit with you to the grave, where it might die forever. I still survive to support the idea that we should all do our best not to agress. Now as for your comment, I have never exactly had to point a gun at anyone, figuratively or literally speaking. I learned from bankers in history that people seem all but willing to give themselves to you, for a considerably cheap price. It's why the state has so many people who volunteer to support it, and why they have such a power base to do what they do. I think my favorite chapter in "The Creature from Jekyll Island" is the one titled "The Great Duck Dinner". But I do have an answer for your question, and its implications. The people who force the forcers, are the forcers themselves. Because the guy at the top, the number 1, always knows there is a number 2 just waiting to overcome him. Therefore he has to always do everything in his power to stay on top, because if he does not, one day that number 2 will become the new number 1... and he might not be so nice. As for your implication about socialism, it need not be forced. Once the common man sees how easy life can be in their socialized life, they will willingly give themselves to it. The alternative will be to find work to support themselves in an environment where there is none to find. Sure it is, you could choose to not drive. As I theorized earlier, you choose to survive.

Agreed. Unfortunately, in today's practical world, the state that we have been born into has left us with no other choice but to initiate the use of force, consciously or unconsciously, or suffer and/or perish. As you are still alive and have access to resources which allow you on the internet, I am willing to assume you have participated in such initiation of force in one way or another. So do I. So does Stephan, because he knows like I do that if we do not participate, men with guns will show up to our door. Though we strive for our ideals, we still have to confront the issue of the problems our modern world creates for us. I argue, that may mean socialism. Agreed, and if I could choose to have a job where I could support myself, I would. But the state keeps me down with the rest of us, and the intelligents keep making my jobs obsolete. Do you expect me to roll over and die? Do you expect everyone else who cant make it in this modern economy to do the same? Would you do so yourself? It means, in short, being expected to pay your debts while not having a job because technology has eliminated most of them, except the ones you need to go to college for, in which case you have to go further into debt. I don't have a problem with any of this, but I was lucky to get inheritance and such. I can survive creative destruction. The common man cannot, in this current state run climate. Yes, the state is the source of many of our problems and it would be ideal to operate without it. Do please call me when anarchy and.or libertarianism has figured it all out. In the mean time, I am going to listen to Bill and Steve and consider why they are saying what they are saying.

The contract on the table is unmistakably clear; "America's soul, and the takeover of the middle east". John Boehner had been here before. Of course it would be ridiculous to sign. By what stretch of logic could he make this choice for his entire country, and agree to the initiation of force against another? But the alternative seemed worse... so much worse. Worse than the average person could comprehend. He could not make the decision for America, and the rest of the world, so he resigned. But to Paul Ryan, the choice seems clear. Though other politicians would later state that the signing of this contract would represent the devil in all it's glory; http://thehill.com/blogs/floor-action/senate/258633-cruz-budget-deal-the-cartel-in-all-of-its-glory Paul seems to think that when it comes to this choice, there is no choice. He signs on the dotted line, and pushes the contract across the table to where the devil sits. "Please" he says, "make this all go away." The devil smiles. "Ok. Here we go." The early winds of recession It seems like just another day for me, as I drive to work. It would probably seem like a normal day to anyone else. But as I drove to work yesterday, I noticed something that might not even pop up on other people's radar. I see a lot of signs offering business space in empty buildings. I have seen them and known of them for a little while. They have been popping up lately; empty business lots, in areas where I go shopping. At first, it started small, but now there are more... noticeably more. In fact, I am going to a store right now that is going out of business, to get groceries. All of their items are 20% off. Most people see this and think nothing of it, except for being happy for a chance at savings. But I have been here before. I know why this disturbs me. I remember the last time things seemed to be like this; it was at the beginning of the recession. There were much fewer businesses. There were much fewer jobs. There were homeless people on every street corner. This was only a few years ago about 2011, and it had happened again before that in 2008. People made every uninformed excuse as to why it happened and what was going on. No one ever really wanted to know. They simply shrugged their shoulders and marched ignorantly into the open arms of the banks and the state. I was lucky. I had great grandparents who had been here before, and left me ways of overcoming these times, and I did. I was gifted with plenty of time and resources to do whatever I wanted; and what I wanted was to figure out what was really going on. I did. I tried talking to people about it. When Occupy Wall Street was going on, I was there with the people, talking to them, explaining to them, leading them. They are all gone now, thinking the crisis is over and everything is back to normal. No one seems to understand, the problem never was resolved. I later catch wind of the news, which tells me the government has approved a new budget deal, raising the debt ceiling and giving congress all the money it needs for whatever it wants for the next two years; http://www.msn.com/en-us/money/markets/who-are-the-winners-and-losers-of-the-budget-deal/vi-BBmDBjq Those bastards. They sold my soul to the devil, and they never even asked me about it. It would be great if I could just leave the country, but America now has an "exit tax" on renouncing your citizenship, the highest in the world. Of course they would; they need their slaves to stay and service the debt. I wish I could talk to someone about all this. I wish someone in real life could understand my rage is justified. All I ever find are ghosts, who don't seem to mind that their souls are taken. I never know what to do. But I do know what the politicians know. I know that if they had not sold our souls, America would face recession unlike any of them had ever seen. Our economy would be so weak, we could be internationally manhandled and no one could do anything about it. As it is, we will likely be entering recession, it will just be mitigated. I don't know how bad it's going to be. But I have some clues. Meanwhile, in the middle east For a while now, America has been hired to take over Syria, and it has yet to do so. There is a problem; Russia is there, supporting their ally Syria. America is supporting rebels against Assad. Russia is supporting Assad against rebels. It's been a proxy war, and only recently did either side want to admit it; http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/russia-warns-of-proxy-war-in-syria/ar-BBmEcDB?li=AAa0dzB&ocid=mailsignout Russia has been in a good position through it all. It seemed like America might default on it's debt ceiling, and Russia could just step in and get it's way anywhere. Unfortunately with America's new budget deal, it seems the US will not be backing down any time soon. Though Russia seems to have been winning by bombing the rebels, the US military has played an interesting new hand; it has decided to put actual boots on the ground, give the Syrian rebels real time advisors; http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/us-to-send-dozens-of-special-forces-to-syria-as-first-boots-on-ground/ar-BBmCOGW?li=AAa0dzB&ocid=mailsignout Now, if Russia bombs rebels, America will claim Russia has started bombing Americans, if one of their advisers was bombed with a group of rebels. Instead of the proxy war which Russia seems to have been winning, the next step will be actual war, where the whole world loses. The unspeakable truth is war between the US and Russia, with a great recession for the US if we do not continue. And perhaps a silver lining, for those who can read between the lines. I wake up this morning to read on the front page of MSN.com, that a Russian passanger plane has crashed in Egypt. http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/russian-plane-crash-in-egypt-kills-all-224-people-aboard/ar-BBmEcki?li=AAa0dzB What an unfortunate, unrelated coincidence.

It just might be that my upbringing may have something to do with my beliefs, but I have never seen any one person as worth the time of my real investment. The more I invest in myself, the further ahead in my life I can get. The more I invest in others, the more of a chance it was all a waste if they leave or backstab me. It's happened to me enough that I have learned not to invest in people. To let people initiate and show me who they are. They rarely do, unless when it's trying to get me to buy something, or get one over on me. Not one person has ever come up to me trying to get to know me. Not one. Sometimes some guys will come looking for entertainment, sometimes mutually. Sometimes women come looking for entertainment as well. But this is the ghostly problem I am talking about. I have never found power in helping others, only lost equity. That equity has always been better spent helping myself to learn to do everything, and I can be independent now because of it. Ya know, the more I read your posts, the more it seems our paths of philosophy have differed quite a bit. My path showed me people generally are not worth my time. I don't see where you found that they were. It is indeed more logical. This forum is a breath of fresh air in a bog rank with ghosts. But only a breath. There are very few women here, much less prospective partners. And though some interesting subjects are discussed, it is still only the internet, and not real life. Though there seems to be much more enlightenment to be had around here, I don't think it has the potential that real life could.

Ugh... this seems to be needing to turn into the essay I was hoping to avoid writing. Dsayers, we do indeed have quite a lot of history to speak against socialism, that is valid, and that I even agree with. However, something has changed in the last century that we have no real historical experience from which to draw upon. That change is technology; a robotic workforce. I agree, it is wrong to socialize a living humans productivity. But we never had the technological capabilities that we have today. In fact, I would argue that the large majority of people don't even know the kinds of technologies we have to day, and how they can upset the economy. Human productivity has become obsolete, and it has become obsolete so quickly, most people have yet to grasp the concept, let alone know it exists. This is a large part of what I am sure Bill Gates sees. And he is not the only one. Check out this article about Stephen Hawking, who also says we need a new economic system; http://www.cnet.com/news/stephen-hawking-says-we-should-be-more-frightened-of-capitalism-than-robots/? Think about this for a second. Stephen Hawking and Bill Gates are probably a couple of the most intelligent people in the world. What is going on, that they would be saying such things? I am telling you, there are tectonic shifts going on in the world economy, and the world is not ready for it. If something does not change fast, we are going to suffer consequences greater than those of the recession. And don't get me wrong, there is still a lot of things I disagree with from Bill like a carbon tax. I want to be free just as much as the next guy. But we are not living in a world where the common man can make it any more. We are living in the intelligent's world that they have created for us, and they have shaped our world so well that they have made us obsolete. Yes, and yes, and no. But also, as I seem to recognize in dsayers comment, one of the major problems is that humanity is not ready to face the philosophical nightmare it is facing in the wake of technological advancement. Indeed, the bankers are in a race to bring the entire world under their credit system before they themselves, their establishment of power, becomes obsolete in technology's wake. I wrote of this (incompletely) in my thread in my signature. Oh no, Uncle Sam would be much more likely to kill me to shut me up. Consider the case of Steven Meyer and his hydrogen powered car; https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stanley_Meyer%27s_water_fuel_cell Now wiki of course says it didnt work, but it did. There are videos which show it working. The rhetoric and records have been manipulated. But if one needs more proof, he need not look further than the modern hydrogen powered bike; http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/europe/france/11904005/French-unveil-world-first-hydrogen-powered-electric-bike-emitting-only-pure-water.html The state's power in the world foundationally rests upon the idea that oil technologies run the world and that oil has a monopoly on energy. The state cannot have alternatives threatening it's power foundation. Agreed, that my post here is incomplete.To encompass the idea fully, I would have to write another post as long if not longer than the one in my signature. Have you looked at that monster? Do you know how long I was researching and writing that? I mean I will write it if you really want but for god's sake, gimme some time, I have a life to live. Consider what I have linked here so far, and see if you can ask questions that have short answers.

This is related to an argument I didnt exactly flesh out here, which is that I believe that only the intelligent are capable of the most horrendous of crimes. Any dumb thug can pick up a gun and kill some people. Only those in the higher tiers of intelligence are capable of creating and maintaining such things as the Federal Reserve, and feminist manipulations, and military industrial complexes etc. Now don't get me wrong, there are intelligent people who are more moral, like Stef, who is of course doing his best to bring philosophy and morality to the world. They are few and far between, however, certainly in comparison to the number of... evil? Intelligent people. The ghosts make no such attempts to do large scale good in the world. They don't have the capacity to. They say things like "I pay my taxes, so I have done my good deeds" never caring to know the horrors of what those tax dollars support. You see, I find that I cannot blame them. Though we may be philosophically enlightened, we are still human, with human fulfillment we wish to achieve. How can anyone say that, if we were to only ever live a life of just philosophical fulfillment, our lives were justified? That is only ever going to be an incomplete experience, unless of course you find your unicorn. I made most of my tens of thousands by NOT betting on the unicorn. It's never been justifiable in that realm, and it's hard to justify in the philosophical realm as well. You seem to get my conundrum. I would stop being cynical if I could, but that's exactly my problem, I can't see not being this way. I do have a hard time blending in. It is easier for me, I think, because I was abused by my parents, and have never felt connected to any human being. Ever. Some part of me seems to recognize this internally and wish for it, go looking for it, only ever finding ghosts and wondering if it even truly exists at all. It is true, I myself am a ghost. This is what I am fighting against. I don't even know how to fight against it. The truth seems to make me just as much a ghost as pretending not to be one does. I think I addressed much of your comment on this in my response to dsayers, if you would forgive me for not going through it again, I am short on time. Remember also that, while those ruling class members might not be the most philosophically enlightened, they are also currently positioning themselves for events that could have catastrophic consequences for the entire planet :\ I would argue I have been in pain my whole life. Even my parents were ethereal, not real parents, even anti-parents. I never connected with them. They never taught me how to connect. I never connected with anyone, I realize these late years. That's the problem, is that I have never seemed to be able to find anyone that is not a ghost, or scared away from the truth.

I think I have alluded to Mr. Gate's issue before in one of my own threads on here, but never in full detail. I think I understand what he might be getting at. So, right now I currently work with some NASA engineers on a fuel source that has the capability to replace oil in it's entirety. But there is a big fat problem; the existing automotive infrastructure relies on oil based technologies. Everyone has oil based cars, boats, planes, and everything else. If we bring out this new fuel source, no one can utilize it at least for, lets say a decade, because everyone would have to buy new car etc. The only answer (besides waiting for everyone to let their oil based technology degrade into uselessness) would be to let everyone trade in their oil based technologies for a new-fuel technology. But who wants to take all the old technologies that you won't be able to sell back? That's a loss of money. No one is going to do that. The private sector will instead continue to sell oil and oil based technologies until depletion, in pursuit of money. The only answer is for inventors of the new fuel source and technologies to socialize their products, forcing the entire oil based infrastructure into obsoletion and default. The world is already reeling from the blows of the recession, and is in no shape to go through such tectonic shifts in the world economy. I am out of time for today and have already spent more time here than I wanted, I will post more later, just food for thought for now.

Have you seen the video "all wars are bankers wars"? It corroborates most of what you have said; And while I agree about the pipeline, the video also gives the reason that Iran, which is allied with Syria, is bound to protect Syria from invasion if ever in trouble. This puts strain on Iran's economy, which is poised to do quite well of course, IF they were in fact allowed to trade their oil outside the petrodollar. Iran has had to send troops to support Assad as his forces have been exhausting, and has seem some large measures of inflation on their economy because of the strain the Syrian rebels have created. Iran is one of the last three countries in the world not owned by a private central bank, and thus "free". Even Russia is owned by the banking cartel, as can be read in "The Creature from Jekyll Island". US citizens are riled, aware and angry from the recession, however, being given this "middle finger". I think the general population knows something's up, its just that at the moment, things are good enough for no one to bother doing anything about it. It seems to me like the bankers see that if they punish us again, we will overthrow them, so they are willing to "close up shop" and let America collapse while transferring power to Russia and China. If you have seen MSN this morning, you may have seen that America supposedly provoked China with the presence of a warship in the South China Sea. I think anyone paying attention can see war has been getting primed for a while now. The bankers know we know we are getting the middle finger, and they are saying, "accept your semi-poor economic conditions, or face a most catastrophic war".

I love Neil Tyson. His personality makes concepts of deeper thought easier to pay attention to. A TLDR for those of you that didnt watch the video, the concept of his speech is that the difference between human DNA and chimp DNA is about 2%. He is speaking to the phenomena that with just a 2% difference, we look at chimps with the indifference and patronization that we look at a 2 year old. He speaks to the idea that if there is indeed intelligent life out in the universe, which he is quite certain of, that if they were only 1% more intelligent than us, they would not even be interested in having a conversation with us; the same way we humans have no interest in attempting to have a conversation with a chimp, or a 2 year old. But I want to go a step further into this concept, that Neil himself recognizes. The concept of the difference in intelligence from 1% to 1%. Neil notes that human intelligence exists in the 2% difference above chimps. So there is that bottom 1%... and the top 1%. The bottom 1% is obvious. They are the commoners... the people who do not understand that they are living in an "end user" world created for them by the top 1%. They are the ghosts. They don't care to know life should not be this hard or this way. They don't care to know they are slaves. They don't care about anything except playing video games, and smoking pot, and getting laid. They think, this is just the way life is supposed to be. It's the way things have always been. And the worst thing about it is, they rail against anyone who wants to tell them the truth... they shun and ignore anything that is even remotely real. They dare not entertain any rhetoric that might suggest reality. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BguQNYpdT6g This was not the exact video, but it was the closest one I found to the one I really wanted. The one where Stefan talks about dancing with ghosts. Because, that is what the bottom 1% of people are; they are simply ghosts. They don't even exist. They barely make a ripple on the surface of the water called life. God forbid, anyone show any of these people a modicum of truth. For someone to do such a thing means ostracization. They think they are important. They think they matter. They get angry when you don't treat them they way they expect you to, when they won't even realize the truth. Personally, I see the top 1%, and what they do to the rest of us. I see the Federal Reserve, and the US military's agenda in the middle east, and the feminist/media agenda to make us all more subservient, and much more. With all my heart and soul I rage against it all, refusing to fade into obscurity as so many other ghosts have, but because of it, I find myself standing alone, without even a ghost to pretend to be friends with. The ghosts don't even have the capacity to recognize their apparatus. They can't even comprehend what I am angry about. All they know is there is some guy over there ranting angrily, and listening to him hurts their head, so they would rather turn back into non existence and desensitize themselves pleasantly in technology, and chemicals, and political correctness. Where are the people who want to exist? Who want to be real? Who want to face the truth with bravery, grasp hold of it with their bare hands and, though it may burn, shape it into something that does not have to be painful? Where are the people who want to one day look upon their works, and see proof of their existence that will stand the test of time? The people who want to make a difference in their lives, and the lives of others? I can't find them. Not one person. I look around me and see nothing but ghosts, and it seems, that is all they can even aspire to be. Not even in their wildest dreams, can they imagine being anything more. So in order to mitigate the pain of standing alone, I forsake the truth and fraternize with ghosts. There is a ghost who takes a partial liking to me. She is easy to look at and easy to listen to. Part of me wants to be real with her, and hints at reality. She catches on easily, and says "forget all that. Come be a ghost with me." Though my mind rails against the idea, some deep and primal part of me yearns for exactly that; to be a ghost, dancing with ghosts, doing nothing but feeling good and pretending to exist. What am I supposed to do? I wish I could be real with people, but reality does nothing but scare everyone away. The best I can hope for is to continue dancing with ghosts and pretending I am alive. I do it, but I cannot help but only ever be filled with a sense of melancholy, knowing of reality, and willingly being fake. It is slightly less painful than always being real, and thus always alone. I wish I had a better answer.

Oh come on guys, let's all feel bad about potentially being rapists so we can all become more subservient to feminism, the state, and many other agendas. This video pissed me off so bad I don't even want to take the time to sit here and analyze it as it does not deserve the time. The only thing worse than the obvious agendas, failures of logic and manipulations in this video is the idea that the masses might actually be convinced by it.

I have been thinking about the self reflection of your tattoo a lot dsayers, it's a very astute observation, and a good looking tat to boot. I was wondering if you would share your insight on my tattoos. I have this on my arm: A symbol from a video game I have played since 99, Everquest. On my back is a quote that says "what is a man but the sum of his memories" (from another video game) and on my left breast, over my heart, is a quote from a song that says "I dreamt the world with my eyes open". When I was younger my parents influenced me to think of tattoos as a sign of bad people, and I thought the same way. As I grew up I did not agree with many of my parents views, and actually grew to like tattoos. I never thought of them as signs of dysfunction. More like, my body is an object of my property, and I can choose to decorate it as I wish. Like putting a bumper sticker on my car. More lately I have been discovering more of my own dysfunction , and now think tattoos just may be a symptom of it, though I can't perceive why. If you had any insight to share about it I would appreciate it.

Yea, I have known about it for a while. Unfortunately it seems to spread in the worst way possible, which is through cat feces. It seems fairly easy to contract just from handling. My mother used to live on a farm that had lots of cats, and she has often been noted as... not quite right. We used to have two cats in the house when I was young and I always used to play with them. I am concerned of what kind of effect it might have on me if I myself have it.

I always struggle to explain to people just what my qualifications are, as I don't have that much paper behind my name. I find things like my suit, cage fighting videos, and bricks of silver speak the loudest. I have some interesting academic achievements, as well as some interesting events completed in my life. There are more to come that I am working on. So anyway, interests and such; Computer networking/ A+ certified since 2012 Programming experience in Basic, pascal, Linux VI Detailed study of the history of money, as seen in my signature. Made tens of thousands on investing, half luck, and then half deliberate. Won "best speech" award from my professor in a public speaking class, with a letter of recommendation. Spoke in front of and organized demonstrations with and for Occupy Wall Street. Former amateur cage fighter with some nice wins under my belt, some on video. Currently working with NASA engineers on a relatively new fuel source with the potential to replace oil. I am kind of all over the place, a jack of all trades. I seem to be hitting a philosophical wall in my life, unfortunately. My money has allowed me to waste away while playing video games all day and become a reclusive hermit ranting that the end is near. Part of me is mad at myself knowing that I could get these NASA engineers off the ground and change the world. Another part of myself is mad at myself for bothering with any of this in the first place and not going out and getting laid/getting a decent girlfriend-wife in my life. I can't seem to choose one, or the other, or both, and just seem to be stagnating, waiting for my investments to perform. I think I need to figure out the philosophy of my life before I really decide.

I have three tattoos. I don't regret them at all. I sometimes wonder if I ever will, but these tattoos all have meaning to me. They are associated with parts of my life that make me who I am, so it seems to follow that it should be part of me physically. At first glance, barely anyone knows where the tat on my bicep is from, they just see a kind of dark evilish tat that looks kinda cool. So far two people have recognized where it was from, and we got into some great conversation, talked about fun memories and good times. I never would have met those guys if not for my tat. My other two tats are simply quotes that resonated with me. Philosophical quotes. A lot of people read them and don't give them a second thought. A girl that did actually give them a second thought, just might be a keeper.

The purpose of the Kardashians in their entirety are to make themselves money by any controversy and sensationalism possible, project an image of society that denigrates the mental health of the general population to make them more subservient to corporate and political interests, support materialism, and support the media by always having a sensational story to dispense. No thought is given to philosophy or the well being of the general public, because those things run counter to corporate and political agendas. Supposedly it is not their fault because media is supposed to have free speech and the common man is supposed to be smart enough to distinguish between fake and real life, but the result here is that the media can control the narrative for it's agenda without allowing its opposition a voice, as well as the common man generally being too stupid to realize how they are being manipulated.

No lol. Sounds kinda boring really. I used to read the Naruto mangas before they ended. I never did read the end.

We aren't quite in another war yet. Right now it's just a proxy war in an attricious game of chicken. Russia is in trouble because the Saudis and the US have doubled down on oil production, boosting the oil supply and cutting demand (and prices) for oil. Russia depends on a higher price of oil per barrel in order to sustain their economy. To supplement profits, they have sold the services of their military to Assad, who is facing "rebels" created by the CIA, as well as publicly supported by the US. They are hanging on quite well. On the other side of the game of chicken, the US is trying to have it's way in the middle east, while trying to outrun the debt ceiling, the Federal Reserve interest rate hike, and the presidential race, among other things. With so many stepping stones to cross, America could falter and show enough weakness for Russia to get it's way. America is tasked with taking over the middle east, and was supposed to have taken over Iran by now; and if it does not succeed, the bankers will plunge America into another recession (likely worse than the previous one) until its citizens are too poor and too jobless to do anything except join the military, which will just so happen to have jobs fighting in some war somewhere, likely Syria. I wrote of such an event a while ago in the thread linked in my signature. None of this will happen if Russia/Assad falter somewhere and the military takes control. But right now, it looks like Russia is winning the game of chicken.

Forget about anything that is paper, and anything that is credit or debit card for a moment. Everything else in existence is money. Rocks, water, wood, cattle, computers, houses. All material things. But also, humans are money. The services that humans can provide are money, whether the service be preparing food, cutting lumber, moving objects, or whatever. All services take time, thus the phrase "time is money". Now, introduce paper and credit back into the equation. Paper itself is fairly worthless. However, a piece of paper that I write "one hour of work" or "one of my material goods" might be worth something to you. If I were to sign my name on such a piece of paper, you might be willing to trade that piece of paper for, say, something you own, like your computer. I could trade you one of my physical objects for one of your physical objects, or I could trade you such a piece of paper for one of your physical objects, and you could come back later with that piece of paper to redeem the object on the paper. That is, of course, if I am an honorable person who will in fact give you what I signed up for on that piece of paper. For that, you see, is the door through which this most unbelievable of crimes is exacted upon humanity.