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I remember stefan saying you can go into any Matrix as long as you know you are in a Matrix . (with self knowledge ) I think we all need human contact even if its a little and trivial . ( hobbies, etc.. )

Wow, Thanks to everyone who replied. This helps allot! Thanks for sharing your life experiences it really helps when other people sympathize and are in the same position as me . Kevin Beal I like the idea of making some kind of group outside of this community the problem arises when people live all over the country .. I think gaming or things like that can Help .. (since they are online)

Thanks for taking the time to read and reply . And yeah, that pretty much where Im at right now. I feel the same way .

I have been thinking about this topic lately . I have no friends and allot of free thinkers seem to be in the same place. We seem to justify it by saying everyone is a statist or a sheep ....etc But I have been thinking, I want friends and I'm not picky but I still can't seem to make "good" ones. Like in the Tv shows --> Seinfeld, That 70's Show, Friends, etc... I have experience this when i was younger, So i have nostalgia and miss human contact. So are my question(s)... Do people in this community ex post justify not having friends ? (I use to do this) And if so.. Does this mean I have to improve my social skills .. How ? If I have more self knowledge than others why can't I use that to help me ??????

Sorry about that, Can you give more context about your life? and your environment. P.S: Do you smoke ? I heard nicotin before bed make you have violent or "weird dreams" .

That is still pretty dam expensive. I fought it went down to $30 or something like that .

It seems to me that successful people have no shame in asking. I always feel shame of asking people for help .

I find myself sharing videos and podcast to people who i now very well. I share topics that i know that will help them. I don't share often just when I think a podcast will be effective and interesting to them . I noticed that all the people i have shared the podcast dont to seem to understand them, I think its the language. Because when i started listening to free domain radio i had some trouble with certain words. ... but i would search them up because i was enticed by the conversation and topics/ideas. I put so much thought into my recommendations . Im tried of sharing podcast why bother?

I subscribed bro.

That was funny . It shows how fake some people can be .

I think its weird if you don't meet in person but you meet her a number of times already . So i don't think there is anything weird about it . I think that you might feel that way because your parents disapprove of her and Subconsciously you have to obey her rules because you live with her.. Imagine if you didnt live with your parents. you probably wouldn't care. Another theory is that maybe you know that the relationship isn't real and you get scared of someone knowing or finding that out .. those are my thoughts .. I hope they helped ... We need more information of your environment .. Your family etc..

I can't figure out if i should put some money into bit coin. Im new to it but i think if its a good idea i should do it before it become more popular and the price goes up . How do you change bit coin into fiat ? and fiat into bit coin . what is the official software or website buy bit coins? Sorry i haven't had time to look through all the tutorials . I prefer mac

I don't really have friend-ships anymore. They fell out of my life like the leaves on trees during fall. My old "friends" just used me. They where one way relationships i just give but i don't receive . I have a good relation ship with my younger sister. She is 20 and I'm 21. I can talk to her about anything, we talk about topics like this.

Today i just got my first check from youtube. It wasn't much but it was something. I still haven't started my math Youtube channel, in fact my mic is on the way as we speak. My last day of school is December 12, 2013. Im planning to work hard that month of winter break. I feel like flying away. I want to move out so bad. It turns out that my mom is also moving out in about a month or two, so Im in the hopes that my math youtube channel works out. As long as i can make some money by working on youtube and flipping burgers i will find the courage and the means to move out . I would drop out of school for some time until I get back on my feet. I realized that going to school isn't as important as my health and happiness. I made the decision to move out as soon as possible . I feel like I'm in a prison, a slave in my own room. (ps. i made the money off my personal channel)

WesleyWell I could ask you a few things or point out things I noticed Ivan AresOk Note: I mean ask in real life not online. Wesley what is different between online and real life? Ivan AresIts personal, i can see the person . Here i tend not to personalize the people i talk to Allthough sometimes i do feel very anxious on phone calls 9:10 AM WesleyWhy is being personal a problem? Ivan AresI start thinking to myself i don't want to bother this person they might not have time Im not with it and i over think this so much I would rather avoid it I remember my mother always made me feel like others peoples needs are more important than mine so it stuck to me like a curse WesleyWho is other people? Ivan AresMy aunt, uncle, neighbor kids, strangers, waiters, other kids, etc... she did this to all her kids I guess i felt equal with my siblings WesleyWas that one of her needs/desires? Ivan AresShe had a desire to please others in spite of her kids because kids are like property so she can sacrifice her property I think thats how she thinks 9:15 AM WesleySo it wasn't actually to satisfy the needs of others, but for her own desires Ivan AresI think so I never looked at it that way WesleySo it wasn't other people. It was her needs were superior to yours Ivan AresYeah, for social status or a feeling idk really WesleyWhat do you not know? Ivan AresI don't know what was her satisfaction out of this WesleyI think you do Ivan AresDid she do it for social statues ? or was she just following some cultural thing ? WesleyI don't know, but I guarantee you know everything about her you spent years with her Ivan AresTo tell you the truth i thought she was just ignorant and though i was property I felt like property I want to move out because of this She told me .... 9:20 AM WesleyI don't think she was ignorant, but she easily could have viewed you as property Ivan AresYou have no right to complain or have feeling this was a couple moths ago Im 21 WesleyYou still live with her? Ivan AresYes I got depressed after that And i haven't soke to her since WesleyWhat would happen to you if you asked for help? Ivan AresIdk? to tell you the truth... I don't think she will kick me out because that would look bad towards her WesleyI mean as a kid what happened when you had emotion or if you can't remember, what did you fear would happen? Ivan AresShe would have gotten embarrassed and gotten mad at me ... maybe hit me I don't think it would have changed anything but it would have got her mad at me because the people around me have no virtue WesleySo you decided to shut up, for fear of anger, assault, disapproval? Ivan AresYes 9:25 AM WesleyYou live in an environment where you do not ask for help, because feeling emotion and asking for help leads to attack. It sounds to me like you not asking for help is incredibly helpful Like I do not put down my shield when the bear is still in the cave and could see me at any moment Ivan AresI remember knowing that she didn't care for me from a young age... maybe not as clear with less eloquence and that i was shy for a reason because of her Yes, so as long as i live with the bear I would have my shield up WesleyAs long as the threat is still there, the shield is incredibly helpful and will protect you Ivan AresI never thought about it like that Wesleyremove the threat Ivan AresI use to think that since I'm older the shield should go down Wesleyby talking or leaving or whatever Ivan Aresbut obviously it is still her here Wesleythen ask why you have a shield up Ivan AresThe shield is still up because she is still the same once i stopped talking to her she trys to be nice to me but she still cares about others more WesleyBut you do not think the threat is gone still Ivan AresIm living with a bear and I'm wondering why i have a shield . how stupid of me 9:30 AM Wesleywell no, she cares about here need to look good for others *her its not stupid becoming a bear to attack yourself isn't going to help the shield is heavy and prevents people from getting close to you eventually, you will want to lower it once you feel safe Ivan AresYeah, i think that the way to put it down is to move away because its like living with a husband that beats me WesleyThat part is up to you. Obviously a therapist would be really helpful in the transition. There is a lot of emotional work around moving out and learning to lower the shield

My whole life my mom put others priorities above mine. This caused me to have anxiety and fear of asking others for help . I push myself but it is very hard, I might look ok on the outside but I'm dying on the inside . I have been labeled shy but what does shy really mean ? Its just a label. In reality it is fear. How can I overcome this feeling ?

Note: In monkeys looking into the eyes is a threat. Also in many other animals like dogs . So avoiding looking into the eyes is saying you are scared of the other person . And that will prevent emotional bonding

I don't think you need to stare into peoples eyes. But when you avoid looking at the eyes completely it shows the person fear. If you are afraid of someone you won't be able to fully connect . Even if you are not afraid the other person won't feel like they can trust you . Don't you think its hard to trust someone who doesn't look at you in the eyes ? Imagine that . Its not viable.

I noticed that it happens only when a video is freshly uploaded ... It's rare but I seen it occur on other channels as well .

I think this is true. When I was a teen I got lip piercings and ear gauges because I wanted people to notice me. I would have gotten tattoos if I could. I couldn’t scream for help so that’s what I did. Now all that I have are scares...

Build a complex program that will solve the worlds problems without an incentive to make money! Look at the Obama care website!

He has a family.

Who said to blame them?its about acknowledgment.i can't tell if this is a serious questionthey say asking the right question is harder than finding the answer

Anarchy is only possible if the majority children are raised peacefully. Would a society of mostly peacefully people want nuclear weapons ? ... Would evil people be able to create nuclear weapons by taxing the population? .... Mostly likely no... Its hard to tell if the market will demand them.... Maybe as a defense towards other states.... But if the whole world is peaceful i doubt they will be necessary