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Yeah, I think your right. Im growing really impatient but I know there is a big chance of me failing if i do this without preparation.

What is a good percentage of your total income to spend on rent. I got a new job and I could make 1600 a month on average. I went apartment hunting and the average cost for a good studio that is not in the bad part of town is about $1000 on average. I also have almost nothing in the bank and no car. (I need a car for one of my jobs.) Right now i don't want to find roommates, I need some time alone .

FDR2865 IQ: Costs and Benefits - Saturday Call In Show December 13th, 2014 I really enjoyed this podcast. specifically the conversation about IQ and race. The caller talked about how high IQ doesn't necessarily mean success. If you lived in Africa back in the day high IQ wouldn't translate to success. I had some after thoughts. This made me think about traits, abilities, and skills that I might have. I think that we all have abilities, whether we are in a position to use them is up to us. Even someone like me who was neglected throughout my childhood. That gave me time to think allot, i don't have a high IQ but I do have allot of experience thinking and reflecting. That is an ability others might not have developed. I was talking to my sister which had a somewhat different experience than me, and we where talking about how we both acquired different skills or abilities. Even though we are siblings and had the same parents. The main question that came up was how can I use these skills to succeed in the world. Ive been taking a crack at this question for a couple of months now. I hope that I succeed. \ Have you guys recently learned of any skills or abilities that you have? and have you positioned yourself in a place to use them?

I was actually going to post this yesterday, I wonder if he would be willing to debate stef. Its been a while since stef had a debate on the idea of GOD.

It takes repetition, eventually it becomes like breathing. I use to concentrate so much when i was learning to drive, and the people that thought me where ass holes. But now i don't even think about it. Remember that everything takes practice and repetition.

The way I use to dress in the past was to survive and fit in . I'm comparing myself to very specific people I use to hang out with, not to toxic people in general . If I would do that I think I wouldn't be able to wear anything at all .

Does the way you dress affect your confidence or self-esteem? The reason I'm mentioning this is because a couple of months ago i threw away most of my cloths. I didnt like the way i dressed, i use to have a bunch of T-shits that i couldn't relate to anymore. Most of them where music T-shirts. I noticed I didnt have any nice cloths, recently i started buying more dress shirts including polos and casual/formal shirts. I also started buying some dress pants and dress shoes. Im felling some resistance when it comes to wearing nice cloths. Its not enough resistance to stop me but its something i noticed. The reason I decided to start wearing more casual / formal cloths is because i still wore pretty much the same style of cloths that i did in high school when i use to hang around toxic people. I never really got to think about what type of cloths i actually liked. I found it scary that although i took these toxic people out of my life I still dressed like them. When i started taking myself and my goals seriously I automatically started looking at the way I present myself. The way I dressed reflected the way i thought in a sense.

I have been around people with similar problems. Someone I use to know was like this, I eventually stopped hanging out with this person. But i did notice that it was learned behavior. His mother and father did the same thing. What is your history with spending money ? this person i use to know use to freak out because i use the gas pedal to much. If i bought fries with a burger.. etc

Great post man, yeah I'm really excited to see what auto manufacturers will do in a couple of years.

I think stef says something like anger is suppose to propel you into action. I had trouble connecting with my anger in regards to how my parents raised me. (neglect, fear of the world) Recently I had an experience when I was talking to my manager about a possible change in my schedule because of a possible second job. She acted passive aggressive and avoided me asking her. On my break I got angry because I had told her before you leave I want to talk to you about something important please don't leave. She said something like "its always something bad when people say that to me" and laughed. She said it in a casual funny way. On my break I got really angry and told my shift manager to tell her that I'm going to call her. Once he told her she called me and i got to talk to her and I solved my problem. More recently I had anxiety about going to a programming meet-up. I had fear that i wasn't good enough, (it is mostly wealthy, white, smart older men) . Even though the meet up is for all people who are into iOS programming or want to learn. I'm more than qualified to go. I know that if i want to be successful i have to learn from others. Success can't be achieved in isolation. I talked to some of my FDR friends and to my sister about this problem. What eventually happened is that my fear went away once my anger kicked in. Why the fuck am I scared of going to a casual meet-up with other fellow programmers ? I understood intellectually that my parents put this shit in my head. I still doubted myself, my inner mother would deny all this. But i think after sharing this with allot of people around me that support me, it help to validate my anger. I know some people might say you shouldn't need others to help you validate your anger but i disagree you need a support group to validate your feelings because without that you are susceptible to your inner parents.

I noticed that no one commented on the auto pilot. That was the most impressive part. The car could pretty much drive and park itself.

Basically they say that Tesla motors got government loans when they didn't need them. And the argument made above by the first response.

You think that gasoline is not subsidized ? and there is no shortage. The thing is that its not worth the price to drill for it. ( but thats going to change when there is more demand) http://www.forbes.com/sites/timworstall/2014/08/03/is-there-enough-lithium-to-feed-teslas-gigafactory/ Your down playing what Tesla did. Thats an extremely cool thing, you mentioned that people knew about this. Yes but no one did it. thats all that matters.

Sorry to hear that, I'm sure there are people here willing to donate some money at least so you can stay in a hotel for a couple of days and search for a job ... *motel

This is amazing, wow. I know allot of free market people don't like tesla motors but this is just amazing.

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I never thought about it that way, Thanks for taking the time to reply If that is true then as a kid was he also drinking the caught medicine ?

I re-watched a movie I had in my collection. Constantine, its about a man who had the ability to see demons and angels, (he started as a kid) He is going to hell because he committed suicide as a kid, he couldn't live with his ability to see demons and angels. He goes around fighting evil because he wants to go to heaven. Constantine calls his ability a curse. I couldn't help but to relate with Constantine. As a kid i was isolated and didn't have anything to do for days. I would retreat to my head. It was one of the few things that kept me entertained. I did it allot, I became good at it. Since i spent most of my time inside my head i didnt learn how to interact with the world. I was spaced out. I feel that having a high amount of self-knowledge is rare in this world. It can be looked at as a gift or a curse. As a kid i had thoughts about killing myself. As an adult i sometimes feel like i could see angels and demons. ( having self-knowledge is an ability that almost no one around you has)

Do you think staying up late and only sleeping a couple of hours is worth it ? I keep reading articles that support both. Some famous people said they only slept a couple of hours a night. Others say they always got a good 8 hours. Some days I wonder if i should stay up. I think of the consequences like not having enough energy or brain power the next day. I have work in the day, with no set schedule. (part-time) I was thinking of waking up super early and sleeping at 10 pm.

I think I'm not sure . I remember watching an older series on there . I thought you meant why not use YouTube to watch other videos

I posted this because YouTube wasn't doing it for me . I could find any quality videos on what I wanted to learn .

I just want to share one of the best resources out there. Stanford University has free courses in the internet . The courses are actually recorded from real seasons. You get all the power points and assignments. I haven't found a place that list them all. I use iTunes, they have a special app for iPad and iPhone called iTunes U where you can watch these videos, read the power points, and take notes. They have lots of computer Science but also have subjects like psychology. http://ax.itunes.apple.com/WebObjects/MZSearch.woa/wa/search?term=standford best resources to become an iOS developer. http://www.forbes.com/sites/quora/2014/06/06/what-are-the-best-new-resources-for-learning-ios-development-in-2014/

I think the best thing to do is to delete people like that. I have a problem, I keep adding family members. (rarely) I think once i move out Im going to delete everyone and make my profile unsearchable. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ There was this article about how Facebook is not popular anymore for people under 18 because family members where on their page. Sometimes its hard to say no as a young person because you still have to interact and live with these people.

I remember about 1-2 years ago I use to wake up to my brain quick firing random thoughts. I didn't have control over my brain. I remember siting after i awoke and hold myself up in order to gain control over my thoughts. The thoughts had no connection to each other (I think). The thoughts where random in a literal sense I could be thinking about a banana ,a pillow next to me, something in my past, an interaction i had the day before, my hand...etc This occurred many times in the past, i remember thinking it was normal for some reason. I didnt look into it at the time. I have a history of panic attacks in my childhood. My environment in the past and in the present is shit. What do you think this could be ? Have any of you guys/gals had an experience like this before ?