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Thanks Joel

Let me know what you think about my editing skills and the video in general.

I agree, what I said was targeted at you so you could understanding that.

I think thats a good idea, new Youtubers use that strategy. Maybe not many people click on them but if 1/10 does that is a new viewer !

If they wanted to feel good about themselves then why don't they work on their self-knowledge ? Do they take good care of their health? Do they read about health? Do they read about mental health ? If no then they don't want to feel good about themselves. Do they love knowledge , do they love to learn and advance their live's ? (Im making some assumptions)

I know nothing about Art. The feeling I get when I see modern art is that the artist is trying to hide something. If you feel angry why do you have to draw some abstract and convoluted picture to express it ? Maybe there would be less art because people would be more connected to themselves and their subconscious wouldn't have to express itself through Art. Maybe it would just be called pictures and paintings and not art. I took a semester of Art and i still don't know what it is, this is why I say its so abstract. (trying to hide something through art)

Thank you for your response. I want to be more clear and assertive with my position. ****You said people in your childhood did not scare the ambition out of you and that they did not have ambition, right ? I would argue that you are wrong because your parents had a family and most likely had a job. Doing those things are extremely ambitious even if they are not done correctly. They had ambition and that ambition got them where they are. After the fact it might seem like they have no ambition.

Yeah, now that i think about it this can't be applied to everyone. I have talked to allot of FDR members. I don't think the economy has much to do with. Look at all the companies that where started in recessions and people rising from poverty. I agree with the rest Right, I don't think parents are always the cause it could be other adult figure in society. If you are smart and look at there life, you wouldn't really want to strive towards that. The other users mentioned that their parents where unambitious, and ignored the fact that i said other adult figures could also give us a bad impression of ambition. Right that makes sense they have ambition when it comes to learning about self knowledge. Ambition to improve their abstract understanding of the concepts but in general i use ambition to talk about things like careers or tangible things outside of intellectual ideas. I might be wrong in doing so but that was my thought proses/

ambition |amˈbiSHən| noun a strong desire to do or to achieve something, typically requiring determination and hard work. I noticed that a large amount of people in the FDR community have little to no ambition. I was thinking about why this is. People here are extremely intelligent so it seems to not make sense. My theory is that as children and young adults we used paralysis as a defense mechanism. To defend our lives from the results of "ambition". Our parents, teachers, or any adult figures had ambition and we seen what there lives where like. We witnessed the lack of principles and morals. Our subconscious didn't want to become that. One way to escape that is by paralysis and by avoiding ambition. Not being ambitious in a fucken crazy environment show allot of self-worth and intelligence it says I don't know what to do yet but I sure don't want to end up like these people.

I remember you mentioned to me that you read RTR is it also hard to express you feelings in the moment. I ask this because if you can share your feelings in the moment wouldn't you also share your preferences? And if you express your preferences wouldn't that be assertive ?

Thanks Joel for all our conversations without you and the guys I would be lost. <3

This is going to be short essay about how I escaped hopelessness. I will talk in detail about my past, present, and future. Its going to be something of an ode to Freedomain Radio, my hope is that this helps anyone who is in my position. What was the hopelessness I was feeling? Im still living with my parents. I was dragging myself out of bed every day to slowly kill myself in college, although I had a 3.8 GPA I hated myself. I spent most of my days alone and isolated. I was emotionally disconnected. My past. I was raised by a neglectful mother and father, something truly evil yet so hard to see. When I was 3 years old I remember wanting to learn how radios and TVs worked. With a screw driver I opened various electronics up. My father got pissed off and angry at me, my mother somewhat let me get my way but neglected me and my curiosity. I smashed my penis with a hammer at the age of three. I accidentally hit it when I was sitting in the floor. Thankfully everything is ok down there. This is the start of a long life of neglect. I come from a large hispanic family, I remember my family having to live with my aunt and uncle for most of my youth. Screaming, crying, running, smiling, and laughing where all things that my mother passively but aggressively discouraged. I was discouraged to show any type of emotion because my mother thought it might inconvenience my aunt. I wasn't allowed to be a child. Hence this is where my social anxiety came from. My mothers neglect spanned beyond this when I was five I had a new remote controlled air plane, my neighbor who is the same age as me liked it and decided to steal it. My mother did nothing, I wasn’t worth anything to her. Expand this to the rest of my life, this is how I was raised. Jump to me getting my first job, when I graduated from high school I didn't have any plans to go to college. My father came into my room and mockingly said “ha, what are you going to do now ?”, I told him that I applied at many places to work and that one of the companies had called me. He said “Thats what they always say, but never offer people jobs” , but then I said no they actually called me to go to an orientation, I got the job. After that he left the room. This is the type of monsters I was raised by. That same week I had to complete a drug test that was part of the job hiring process, my mother was going to give me a ride because I still didn't have my license. She came across a roundabout and complained that she didn't know how navigate them, so she turned back and went home. She told me to forget the job and to attempt to get another one. I had to ask someone else for a ride, and got the job. This was life. My present. Thanks to the community I have made big decisions in my life. Im still living with my parents but I made the decision to drop out of college and move out. I will never succeed in this place. Im currently searching for a job and roommates. I was feeling hopeless a couple of days ago because everything seemed impossible to me, moving out and getting a job. One of my FDR friends said you do notice a pattern right ? Whenever you come across a problem you give up and go home. This is what your mother did with the roundabout. Thank you ! Yes, Im a smart guy who always gives up when a big problem comes up. I was creating an iPhone game, I showed it to people and they thought it was cool, it wasn't complete some problems came up therefore I gave up. Do you see the pattern? Here is another instance of this pattern. I started a podcast but when problems came up I gave up. When I was around 7 I wanted to build a treehouse and my parents ignored me I still attempted to build it but after getting hurt I gave up. This is a pattern that was engraved in my brain. Thankfully Im aware of it and Im going to make big changes! My future. What am I doing with my time ? Im searching for any job to move out and continue with my growth. I started programming again this time I wont let big problems stop my ambition. I'm breaking the cycleI by driving through the roundabout! I want to build a portfolio to eventually start applying to programing jobs. Im also working on my video editing skills, I never had a formal education in this area but I noticed its something that Im good at. I have made a couple of FDR short videos. The idea behind that is to make short videos highlighting the best of FDR videos. I believe this will engage people who have shorter attention spans, less time, and less intelligence. If these videos become equally successful or surpass FDR’s success I would feel confident enough to ask Stefan or Mike for a job, and also express other ideas I have. If they don't I gained some skills and helped FDR in some way. In conclusion, at the moment of writing this I'm full of hope. I want to thank everyone who is part of the greatest philosophical community in the world. <3 Sorry for my grammar and spelling mistakes, I'm correcting them as I find them.

Thanks !

Thanks !!

If anyone wants to help me out with my FDR video shorts : https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4J-tUe8X-Vf5aZGT9uQD7w I want to improve the videos by creating a template to better organize the content being displayed. For example if you notice the videos don't have have a template, but stet's picture is on the left , a logo/title on top, and pictures on the right. So I need a template with a square on the left, top, and right. To fit the content which i described above. For example look at this picture of a fox news segment. http://cloudfront.mediamatters.org/static/images/item/fox-20090408-opposition1.jpg Everything is nicely aligned with a good background and borders. I want something like this or better . Anyways this would really help speed things up, ill eventually do it but it'll take a while. you don't need to add the fdr logo or stefs picture, i just need the raw template The dimensions are 1920 × 1080 pixels

I noticed no one made an FDR Instagram, so i made one : InstaFreedomainRadio Ill be posting memes from the boards & Facebook once or twice a day. http://instagram.com/instafreedomainradio

Thanks man ! Youtube has problems sometimes.

Thanks J-William

Im feeling a little depressed .

Check out the end and do what it says. I think the sound quality is improved in this one.

Thanks guys any specific criticism to help improve videos ?

Yeah, but personally I don't feel as confident with the videos yet I'm improving them on everyone I make. Thats why I would like feedback when I post them. Also, don't just say I have low subs, share and subscribe ! That would help allot

Please share if you like!

I actually don't think it takes much resources to add a section that is titled "Dating". It would be amusing because for every 1 girl there are 100 guys so the competition would be brutal.