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Are you ok ? You sound deeply disturbed

Ive been journaling and I keep having this problem. Maybe some of you also have this and could share some insights. When I'm writing i keep feeling compelled to write for others instead of for me. So im writing my experience so others could understand it. I keep catching myself and saying this is only for you Ivan ! Not for anyone else so feel conferrable. Sometimes a few days pass and i keep drifting back into the old habit. Its like I write as if there is someone watching over me reading what i write. Im having trouble with this and its making me not want to journal because sometimes I go back and i could see how i wasn't being honest or 100 percent genuine.

I know this may also be of topic but my mother always put other people in front of me and i had the same experience of always trying to please my mother. "look ma no hands" I always worried about what women thought about me, and i always felt compelled to please them when they where neglectful. (or absent)

(first date since taking the FDR red pill ) Recently i have been on one date so far. It didnt go so good. The date itself went "good" but i didnt find any virtue in the girl. There was religion and no sign of self-knowledge or depth. Also i tried online dating i paid for the premium really listened and read article on how to be successful with online dating. I was honest and smart about my profile. I had a few people look at it. I listened to the Freekonomics podacast on online dating. So i was really committed it wasn't a casual thing. I looked through hundreds of profiles, picked a few that had interests like psychology, philosophy, and that where not religious. Out of those i messages them told them what i liked about there profiles, and that i would like to know them better. I would say 90 percent of them seen my profile and deleted the message. The rest messaged me back but where really vauage and i couldn't keep a straight conversation with them. There was no connection it felt like they where not interested. I would ask them to tell me more about something they mentioned , like what kind of dancing do you like, or what do you like about this ....etc I tried it for about 1-2 months and gave up. POF.com Im going to try to get more dates in real life. I just thought i would share.

Truth Value: the property of a statement of being either true or false. All statements (by definition of "statements") have truth value; we are often interested in determining truth value, in other words in determining whether a statement is true or false. Statements all have truth value, whether or not any one actually knows what that truth value is. [A sentence which cannot be said to be true or false is without truth value, and therefore does not assert a "statement." Questions and commands, for example are genuine sentences, but do not assert statements and thus have no truth value.]A command alone has no truth value.

No by truth value i mean it cannot be true or false ! And yes I'm nit picking only because it seem to me like she was nit picking.

What made you pick those numbers ? 2+2=4 and "If you want money without having to work, you should steal Bob's wallet" 2+2=2 and "If you want to keep your money, you should steal Bob's wallet" shouldn't ----> "If you want to keep your money" be congruent to 1 + 1 ? because of ------> 1+1=2 and "If you want to keep your money, you should defend yourself against theft" An argument with a false proposition and a false conclusion is logically true . And also a false proposition with a true conclusion makes the argument logically true. Truth Table P=false, Q=true ==> P -> Q = true P=false, Q=false ==> P -> Q = true http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Truth_table look for Logical equality My point is that the logical format of an argument has nothing to do with the truth value of the conclusion. A conclusion could be true with a bad argument format. ——————————————————————————————————— Stefs argument is that you could only be making the argument against property rights by exercising ownership over your own body. A self detonating argument. I don't see why that is Tu Quoque ---------------------------------------------------- Ok unless i forgot everything i learned from my discreet structures class The girl above is using bad logic. For example when she said : So, logically-speaking, "you must eat to live," is true, but "you must eat," is not true. You must eat cannot be assigned a truth value. Its just a command. And commands cannot be assigned truth values.

Thanks for that, I suffer from fatigue ! Wow . I have been having trouble with motivation. I think its because my body relates studying as something dangerous because i over worked myself .

Its ok don't worry about it i wasn't clear. Great observation with the comment about the bully who claims the right to hit one because of flinching. Very true! Thanks for your reply. I needed some feedback because i had trouble with my relationship with pain . (I knew where it came from but i couldn't pin point it) Thank you for your sympathy, Im not familiar with Simon the Boxer can you explain the basic theory ? I thought it was a song?

Excellent I can think of a bunch of example now!!! You didnt answer my question at all! Why do you still need to be in the bad relationship when a good relationship will give you more! (if you are calculation on economic gain) You don't need pain to get health benefits ?? Maybe soreness but I'm talking about pain! Pain like when you are pushed to the extreme, (football , or military) With the tattoos you didn't answer my question at all. There is an obvious pain to tattoos . You can be serious about the green soap ? that can't be the reason why you like tattoos . It seems to me like you have allot that you aren't processing. I remember being hit and told it is because I want you to be better. I remember I told my parents that they where never there when i was a child and they said its because i was working, i was absent because i love you . My dad never took me to a park or anything. I was neglected all my life that is the ultimate endurance of pain.

Example 1.) is when people are in bad relationships and they endure it because they don't want to "give up" on the relationship. Example 2.) In fitness it there is culture that glorifies pain, "pain is weakness leaving the body", look at American Football allot of the older players can't even walk anymore from all of the pressure their bodes went through. Don't get me started with motivation memes . Example 3.) Tattoos and piercings are looked at as decorations or Art. Tattoo culture also glorifies the pain of getting tattoos It seems to me that there is culture of pain in society. Does that make sense ? Do you need more examples those are just random ones i thought of I'm sure there are more

Interesting thanks for the reply .I just realized that enjoy wasn't a correct word for this . My basic question is where does the glorification of pain come from . Childhood yes. What are some examples

What are some example that might make one susceptible to enjoy pain or enduring pain. For males its a little more obvious we are thought to "man up" and not show emotions. Im more interested in examples that apply to both sexes. Thank you Ivan

I don't think anyone attacks feminist but more of what they say or at least some feminist say. Some arguments are full of hate towards men or even towards some women.

I really like your intro you explained clearly how not dealing with them is the most common case but here are some other options. It was very clear and smooth. The video overall is informative.

Thanks for the response that podcast really does help! I have to think about some of the things you said. My life needs some big changes

I don't want to do that. My point of using tyler D from fight club was to show how he used his knowledge to make money. In a creative way. I mentioned some of the things i have done in the past like , selling stuff on the internet, working part time, making youtube videos but none have gave me the chance to move out.. I guess the tyler D was a bad example but thats how i started thinking about this topic Here are some post where I do talk about my life. I have plenty more. http://board.freedomainradio.com/topic/38769-feedback-on-my-call/?hl=%2Bfeedback+%2Bcall http://board.freedomainradio.com/topic/37112-self-help/ Yeah i thinking i have to make selling stuff on ebay more profitable and find a steady source of goods Thanks Hahah thats great all i need is stuff ! well I'm in luck ! thanks tyler

Great Reply. All those are questions i can't answer at the moment but something i will definitely think about ! I liked when i sold stuff on ebay but i have to figure out how and where to get a steady supply of "stuff" to sell. I felt like you really understood what i was asking thanks again

I don't think the shallowness part was my main point.I like how tyler used his knowledge to make a living in that case it was his knowledge about women's shallowness. But in general how to make money outside the system. I use to sell stuff on ebay and amazon, i think i actually made about 1000 doing that for a while. But i ran out of things to sell. Although that was some good money i couldn't keep it up, in order to make a living out of that. Thanks for your reply Additional details ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Things Im doing or have done in the past. 1.)I make youtube videos on my fee time, i don't really have the personality yet to make a substantial amount of money on there. 2.) I have sold things on ebay, and amazon, Once i found a big roll of disney fabric and sold pieces of it on ebay for a profit. I also sold electronics, games, and cloths. I made allot of money but I eventually ran out of things to sell. 3.) I have had some jobs in the past, part time minimum wage jobs. I couldn't really make a living on those jobs. 4.) Im currently learning a new computer language to eventually make iPhone apps / games . I need tons of free time to speed up the process.

Intro -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My number 2 priority in life is to move out and make a living on my own. My environment and living situation is so complex and horrible I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. I don't really want to get into it, i have called in before i talked a bit of some of the problems i have. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Question -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is it possible to make a living like Tyler from "Fight Club" the movie. He uses his knowledge of how shallow society is to make money. In particular he sold women expensive soap that he made from stealing the fat out the trash bins from liposuction clinics. He said Im selling these women their own fat asses. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Details -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Obviously i don't want to do the exactly same thing but sometimes i wonder why I can't use my knowledge and or ideas about society to make money. I can't understand why i haven't figured it out yet. Im a free market person, I'm into psychology and philosophy. One of my main goals in life is to move out ! For know my main goal is to finish school, because when i move out i want to have some sort of stability i don't want to get a crappy job and have to beg to come back to my parents home. I want to make sure i do it right. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Im also going to try doing this myself.

Yeah, I agree with the first comment maybe a main stream look would attack more people besides Fdr listeners. A lot of people judge a book by its cover also creating thumbnails for your videos to attract more views. I personally like your videos when I'm interested in a topic I'll watch it. You could experiment with different methods and see what works , just keep at it.

Right, but is there a reliable Website that we can trust not to mess with it ? because the point is to share the file with everyone (publicly)

I want to share a program I made with anyone who is interested in using it. Its a battle ships game. I remember trying in the past to figure out how to download from sites like Mega upload but i couldn't figure it out. I think whenever i would download files they use to be spam files or viruses.

No problem