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There are 3 tabs. 1.) The first tab is to add, read , delete, and edit your dreams. (organized by date of creation) 2.) The second tab is to log recurrences. Example: Choose from a category person, place, or thing. If Bob keeps appearing in your dreams, you could fill out a person category (relationship, personality, values, history, etc..) . 3.) The last tab will basically have information on dream analysis theory and tips. Links to resources and quotes that I think are the best at helping you understand dreams. Im currently recording my dreams on my iPad. I have an extremely long document with titled dreams indented and organized by dates. I thought there would be a better way to organize dreams. I looked at other apps most of them give you Chinese fortune cookie answer to try and help you understand your dreams. Frankly they seem childish.

Hey guys, thanks for responding we have a good amount of people here. I was thinking that we could go somewhere to eat and talk, or go to a park, or beach. Does anyone have a cool location in mind ? Im not too far from orange county. Add me on Skype ill start a group tiled FDR southern California.

I think that was brave Joel, even if you stalled that takes courage. As for the reason for stalling. Those reasons you brought up are real concerns, I would be worried also. Its dangerous to stand up to child abuse. Maybe we could talk about it sometime and explore it.

Let me know on here. Or add me on Skype my user name is on my profile.

I'm so jelly ! How did you organize this ?

Yes that makes sense, I don't read allot. I listen to books instead of reading them, the reading that I do is non-fiction and the forums. So i do little reading, that defiantly adds to my problem. I just bought a spelling book for kids so I'm going to be reading that lol thanks for your response, I agree with you. Im not saying i want to be a master speller but there are times i can't spell words good enough for my spell check to correct them. The thing that made me want to spell better is the fact that filling out forums with misspelling is a little embarrassing.

It's not immoral at all according to the non aggression principle . But I still want to call it a fetish becuae you said you get plesure from it . You can have fetishes that are not extreme like a ballon fetish . I would urge you to look into that because your repost sounded defensive and you missed my point. Only because you don't draw crazy things that doesn't mean it's not a fetish . And kids don't draw naked people I have personally never seen that before . I would not expose my kids to any nudity at a young age , it's somthing you need to look into .

thanks guys, Im glad it helped

Hey have you listened to a recent call in show. I forgot the exact name of it but a guy called in asking where fetishes come from. I think that podcast will help you allot. MY basic amateur summary is that if we have sexual experience when we are young or even toddlers. That is imprinted in our brain, we correlate that with pleasure because it was our first sexual experience. The guy called because he was turned on when he saw people being swallowed alive. they talked about his childhood and apparently his parents let some molesters baby sit him as a toddler or very young baby. Stef said if they sucked on your penis as a baby that might have been imprinted in you. That was your first sexual experience. So when you see people being swallowed alive by snakes and monsters it turns you on because as a baby those adults looked like monster or giants to you. And that was your first sexual experience. So i would apply this to you, was your first sexual experience seeing someone draw a pornographic picture. You might not even remember because you might have been a toddler. Sorry for my misspelling.

Hi have you watched stefs video on the meaning of life ? i would say the biological meaning of life is to have an offspring, but life has no meaning. watch the video its very well explained. I hope this helped, if not I'm sorry.

Right, i agree its looked down on. If teachers and parents failed me I have to take matters into my own hands

Ok yeah I think that is where I have the problem , I don't remember the words after they are auto corrected . I think I got in a habit of ignoring the correct spelling

This is because Im typing through a computer , if I fill out an application or check I misspell things . Does that make sense ? I want to be a good speller

This might sound stupid but I never learned to spell. I never payed attention in school I was daydreaming, and it didn't help that my mother was teaching me to write in spanish while I was in school "learning" to read and write. Where do I approach this, are there a set of rules that I need to learn to become a good speller ? Please lay it out for me, imagine if you where teaching an alien to spell , what do i need to learn.

Thanks for reading Rachel & Sean , thank you for your understanding. : ) Yes, I do realize that.

Thanks for reading, yeah it was hard for me to see this in the beginning.

I’m going to write about how abuse is transferred and maintained through the family. I will use a personal example by explaining the root of my feelings of worthlessness and shame. I recently have made big life decisions, one of those decisions was to drop out and start working to eventually move out. In my quest to find a job I came across my shame and feelings of worthlessness. I have realized that my mother put these feelings in me as a child. She treats everyone including strangers better than me. This imprinted in my head that I'm worthless. I realized that asking for something like a job application is extremely hard for me. I faced my fear a couple of days ago but soon realized that I was mentally torturing myself. I say this because I still live with my parents and everyday they reenforce my feelings of worthlessness. This is the same as a rape victim who is still continually being raped, forcing herself to talk to a bunch of shady looking men and expecting for her fear to go away. I realized the first step is not to face my fears but to move out of an environment in which I'm being constantly abused. Only after that will I consider facing my fears. I couldn't figure out why I forced myself to do this, because most businesses have online applications. Showing up feeling worthless to talk to a manager will not accomplish much. I don't have this feeling when I go to interviews because I'm not asking for anything and the manager is doing his job but when I show up to a busy store and "bother" the manager the feelings come up. There is a pattern, as a kid I was shamed for asking for things and was made to feel like I'm not equal with everyone else. As an adult I still experience this in my environment. This made me remember a conversation I had with my grandmother a couple of months ago. I was talking about all the neglect me and my siblings received from my mother. She agreed that it was wrong she even gave me and interesting quote. She said "a kid needs more than a provider, a kid also needs a teacher and a companion". Exactly! As soon as I said you can do something about this, my younger brother is suffering from my parents neglect. You can talk to my parents since they respect you. All of a sudden she started talking about forgiveness and how she forgave her parents for their neglect. What a fucken cop out. As soon as she was given moral responsibility she dodged it like a fucken slimy demonic rat. I put myself in her head a couple of days ago and I realized how evil she is. If she would stand up for my younger brothers life, her abuse would also be uncovered. My mother would have said "didn't you treat us worst?". So instead of standing up for a kid she puts his body in front of her to shield her from her sins, no wonder she is so religious. Religion alleviates her guilt, she is truly evil. After Listening to many podcast where listeners defend their "nice" grandparents. I came up with the idea to write about my experience. I want to propose a rule of thumb. If your grandparents raised your abusive parents your grandparents are fucken evil and are only acting nice because they are not in a position to rock the boat. This is why grandparents might seem nice and sweet most of the time.

Thanks Ill look into that.

Thanks I heard stef mention this before. What type of job do you recommend for a non skilled person ?

I realized that California has a pretty crappy standard of living. What is a State in which you can rent a studio apartment with a minimum wage job? I don't have a job yet but I'm searching, my plans are to find roommates for now and eventually move to a better place. (cheaper)

Hi my name is Ivan, I use to live in Long Beach. I actually live very close to long beach . Welcome, how did you find the show ?

I would say by definition no. If being rich means having more than the average person. Then if everyone is rich it means everyone has more than the average person ? Which is impossible because then the average standard of living would go up.... And to be rich you would have to make more than that Also in Africa the majority of people are poor but there are rich people who control the mines and resources.

Thanks, that's something ill consider

Another thing to add is that Hollywood would be gone that would change everything. Some things that I imagine that would happen are movies not catering to the lowest common denominator. If you look at philosophical movies like the matrix it has violence and sex why ? because sex and violence sells. In the future i doubt that sex and violence are going to be the thing that sells.

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